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i think from now onwards. This blog would be filled with my emotions. I have to let off some everyday.

Anyways, i'm crying now.
And again. WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG?

For dinner, my mum wants to bring us out to eat. But i'm tired, i'm dizzy, my arm is injured and i don't feel lyk going out. So i ask her to order take away for me. Den my dad comes in scolding me and forcing me to go out and eat. Den after awhile, he said it again... "all because of you"

WHAT DID I DO? don't i have to right to stay at home? is ordering take away so difficult? IZZIT? My mum came screaming in, and shouting "GO NOW, GO AND CHANGE" It's lyk, why do i have to do this when psychologically and physically i can't take it?

I got screamed and shouted at juz because i don't wanna go out and eat. What kind of a rule is this?! Den after that, my mum say ask nicely for me to go out and eat. Do u noe how FAKE it sounds? It makes me feel as though my mum is FAKING her love for me to try and make me go.

Furious, i asked her "u expect me to go after u screamed at me when u juz came in?" She ACTUALLY told me this "i didn't scream at u hor, i veh nice ler" HOW CAN I TAKE THIS DOWN, HUH? I shouted "u call, GO AND EAT NOW(SHOUTING) talking? Den i talk back to u, I DON'T WANT, IF U DON'T WANNA BUY, DEN DON'T BUY"

Den she shouted back even louder and said "OKAY, DON'T BUY FOR HIM. DON'T ALWAYS PAMPER HIM, IF HE DON'T WANT, LEAVE HIM."

I really felt hurt, so what have i done wrong? why can't i juz choose to stay at home? Why izzit that when my brothers juz tell my mum one time to help them buy, she listens? And no matter wad i sae, she juz SCREAMS AND SHOUTS BACK AT ME? WTF am i to her?

I juz hope there's someone i can cry