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hmm, today when going to sch. At a bus stop, saw a bus 27 at the opposite side... Den behind that bus is another bus 72. Den i lyk, rub my eyes and see correct anot lols. I was lyk o.O unusual hahas.

hmmms, i'm wondering if what i've been doing up to now if it's correct. What do u guys think? I juz feel so lost doing the things which i think it's the best for me and everyone else. Mayb i shouldn't think so much, but it's juz that watching people around me, i juz dun wanna make any more mistakes.

sigh, sometimes, i find understanding really useless. What use does understanding has if u can't do anything about it? If u choose not to do anything about it, conscience will bug u. But if u do smth wrong, it'll cause more problems.

Hmm, since this is the end of year le, dun mind telling u all smth abt me lah. DUN SAE I EMO HOR.

You know why i always slp in class? It's not because that the lesson is boring, if it is boring, i COULD make it interesting. BUT, sry if i'm mean or wad, but it's juz on my mind for far too long, tis isn't meant to critisize or insult anyone, i juz hope that they'll change for the better.

Always when there's a chance to create fun in the class, vivien will show that very pissed of look and tryin to tell u that "u're disturbing the whole class" It's kills the whole mood to do anything else, den her friends around who THINKS that she's right, will do the same. Well, of cuz she's right, but there's always a boundary for the amount of lawful things u shld do.

For eg. , sometimes people also litter right? Don't tell me u nv littered b4. And that when this LAW ENFORCER is in our class, it realli kills the mood to do anything out of the ordinary. So as time goes by, people find the lesson really boring and people qin started talking back to the teachers in order to enjoy the lesson.

U know the enterprise thing? People always choose to believe what they see rather then what others tell them. This lack of trust is really IRRITATING ME. When i listed out the problems with buying instant noodles, vivien and teri came giving me the, HEY THERE'S NTH WRONG impression.

After that, i'm totally pissed and i didn't cared abt it at all. What use is my advice if people don't even listen to it? The time u all have spent thinking of solutions can be better used to have fun if u all have done it efficiently. I simply refused to gif any more ideas and juz listen to them, thinking of what they'll encounter and what they haven't discussed.

I'm not trying to sae that i'm clever or what. It's just that i can think things straighter and clearer. Even if my thinking is bad, at least listen finish it b4 u make any comments!

It's juz how irritating that people juz label you when u're not given the chance to explain urself. Some people in 1C may think that i'm not helpful lyk i juz sit around giving comments thinking that i'm great. rite?

u noe, the 1C video has proven how u all have treated me. When it comes to things you guys DON'T KNOW AT ALL, u all listen to me cuz i know how to do it. But when u guys even have ALITTLE BIT OF HOW TO DO THAT DAMN THING, u didn't even cared abt wad i said.

I felt lyk being treated lyk an outcast but i DON'T CARE.

The other reason of why i slp in class. I don't wanna think anymore. I juz don't wanna care abt anything else. Slping can knock me unconscious, at least when i'm aslp, i don't have to deal with feelings and my thinkings. And at least i won't feel irritated, at least i won't get angry at someone, at least i won't cry abt something.

Even when i'm not tired, i force myself to slp. All this thinkings is bothering me, this is only part of it, there's still a large chunk bothering me. I JUST DON'T WANNA CRITISIZE ANYONE. But i can't bottle these things down quietly anymore. If i don't voice it out, i think i REALLY REALLY wished that i change class.

If u really felt unjustified abt what i've said, THINK BACK. I'm not denying that i've did anything wrong. If i did anything really wrong. TELL ME, I'LL CHANGE. But pls don't tell me that everything u did is correct after u've reflected.


And pam. Lyk i've said. PEOPLE ALWAYS BELIEVE WHAT THEY SEE, AND NOT WHAT OTHERS TELL THEM. I HATE THIS LACK OF TRUST. THIS FEELING SUCKS. WHEN U'RE TRYING TO HELP ANOTHER PERSON, THE PERSON TURN BACK AND STAB U IN THE HEART, THIS FEELING JUST SUCKS.