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didn't go to sch today.
Kinda sick.
Too tired / lazy to tahan the thing n go sch.

Keep backing up my animes in DVDs n in my XDD. Wasting time. I guess i used more than 4hrs again today. BUT CAN'T BLAME ME LAH. =|

I think i look forward to this year's talentime. If everything goes smoothly. I guess we'll look forward to quite an interesting talentime. =D   

Having quite alot of headaches nowadays. I wonder if it's from the stress or lack of slp. Nowadays, i REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY wished that i'm in a fantasy world. Even though i'm not really THAT satisfied with my current life right now. I have no complains if this carries on forever.

It's not bad if i can stay as a kid foreva. I don't wanna grow up. It's good even though my life seems kinda empty and i do not strive particularly for anything. Even though i'm troubled with sch hw, friends and things around me. It's good. Each day passes by as if they're worth nth. I wonder how long this life would continue.

I'm quite afraid of the new life when i grow up. Yea, it's all part of life. But sometimes it's really good if we stay in one stage of our life, isn't it? Yea, that only applies when everyone around us also stay with us. It's actually more painful if we just watch everyone grow up and experience so many different things while we're still staying at the same spot, nv moving at all.

I'm always wishing that my life isn't just this. (i guess everyone else is too). Whenever i meet another friend, i watch shows, dramas, anime. I see those events which happens to them, which we oftenly yearn so much for. But it's impossible to obtain such things. But then again, yet how many people would have yearn for the life we have? I'm stuck. I really do not know if i should strive my best and experience everything i can with the limited time i have, or should i just life it through normally, being satisfied with everything.

It's just too much for me to take. I guess i'm still young after all. I can't seem to make the right decision in my parents' eyes. I know, what they think is probably right. Just lyk when we face a younger generation and quickly seem to analyse all the things they've done wrong and tell them off. But it's hard accepting it isn't it? I know what i'm doing. I'm clear of what i'm doing.

but i just don't know what i did is right or not.
Is there a point in keeping everything to urself?
Is there a point in telling ur problems to others?
Is there a point to sacrfice for others?
Is there a point to act selfishly?
Is there a point to cover ur true feelings?
Is there a point to show ur true feelings?
Is there a point to tell others directly what you think?
Is there a point to hide ur thoughts and contradict urself?
Is there a point to think about this at all?!