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nth much happened today.

But i guess i'll still post.

CCA start at 9 to 12.
3hrs of training.
I reached sch at 8. I forgot the timing. WTF. Dammit lah. Haix.

Table tennis wasn't good. But it isn't as bad as band. Those people with SYF have to go from 8am till 5pm. A nice 9hrs worth of lifespan spent training on the instrument. I only had 3hrs.

I stopped javascript learning for around 1month. (i think) And i'm starting again. I dunno why, numbers/equations/crazy formulas/crazy codings attracts me. Oh wells. I probably have a different defination of what is cool/fun.

Besides, my hw is left undone. Who the heck has the mood to do the damned f***in hw? I probably juz TRY my best to TRY to do the hw tmr... =|

Thought alot again. Too many shows/drama/happenings made started the chain reaction again. Negative thoughts streamlined their way into my head. And at the same time, neutral/positive thoughts balanced the ratio and made me confused lyk crap.

Hmmmm. I feel that i have to take a stand. But it's difficult. Should i have more feelings? be more emo. Or should i be more technological, and explain everything by science? There isn't any right or wrong. And there's unlimited pros and cons about them. Having feelings, i probably will live my life more fruitfully with many emotions.

Being scientific. I probably will escape emotional injuries and live my life more blandly, but with more security.

Am i supposed to strive with all i got for everything, or should i just relax and let nature take it's course? Am i supposed to try to solve problems as soon as possible, or let time fade the pain away? Am i supposed to pursue my dreams and take on risk, or take a stable path with no rise or fall?

I really wish there is someone who would tell me what i'm supposed to do.

sometimes, it's better being alone.