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guess i'm still not totally over it yet.

it's getting on my nerves. My emotions that is.
Seems that i'm still kind of far from controlling it properly yet.

Anyways, it's finally good friday tomorrow.
But the sad thing is. My computer got problem again. i wonder what it is this time. Haix, nowadays is really getting really irritating.

Anyways, i'm gonna learn to control my emotions and feelings even more. It makes things much more easier. Hmm. It's juz lyk quitting drugs, quitting is hard, not quitting is harder. hahas.

Besides, ben, if u're reading this, let me tell u this. I don't pk or do wateva shit to show-off. Even if i seem to do so, it's not intentional. It's partly becuz i'm boliao/bored. The other important factor is that i have nth to do/sae to anohter person. And one more thing, don't force ur way through things. it's not gonna do u any good.

Many ppl may not believe when i say somethings are science. But it's really too troublesome to explain everything. If u're have that much lack of trust in me. Then please tell me. I will explain every single thing that i say which u CAN'T understand to u. During a "quarrel", i dun fight back becuz there's no point for me to do so. It's not becuz i can't do so. I find it meaningless to talk back to another person who doesn't believe in u.

What is the point of trying to convinced another person when he is so convinced by himself that he's right? Ya i noe. It's irritating to me as well. Since i'm also a person who is so convinced by myself  that i'm right. That is why i'm ALWAYS searching for that is right. As long as i know that the right i found is accepted by people around the world, then it's right.

The summary of the whole thing is. I'm telling u guys that. I'm a stubborn fucked up guy who doesn't seem to give a shit abt what u're talking abt if i think that u're wrong. that's all.