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hmm. As u can see as my title.
unpleasant words.

expect. predict. anticipate.

As i was kaobeing-ing everyone else. It's natural i predicted that some ppl would kb me back. The highest probability, ben, huilu, godwin, etc.

highest probability out of everyone else. Bendict Yeo En Le.

Hmm, not speaking nonsensically, i know him. In a sense, quite well. He's nth close to bad. However, juz a slight problem with how he want to express his ideas through speaking. Umm, how shld i put it. Observation is an important thing. I may not seem lyk it, but i am somehow observing. (with my eyes almost closed)

So well, it's smth lyk. Zi Zuo Zi Shou. Could have guessed the consequences. So well, that's why i have all the answers to ur questions in my head. (even though u may not understand it well --- it's supposed to be that case)

When sometimes, somethings pops out without ur anticipation. You'll just have to bullshit ur way through it. I guess quite a few guys understand that.

Well, since i haf nth much to sae, i'll just tell u guys abt the truth abt all the bullshit i said in class. Firstly, i did the windows thing, is purely for the sake of fun, n to add points to the KBness.
The music, i didn't plan to edit it at all in the start
I was actually supposed to make it rewind.
The powerpoint isn't difficult to make lyk u've seen.
The only thing i spent time on is coordinating the timing.
I'm bored. That's y i do such an extra thing.
It felt too troublesome half-way, hence it sorta became lame after half-way.

That's all. Well, it's more lyk an apology for those who i have offended in any way u deem.  I shall repeat this again. For whatever redundant, extra, irritating, useless, stupid, idiotic, or wdv shyt action i've taken. It's most probably. (80% +++) that i'm just simply bored.

oh yea. I BHB lyk siao. Cuz, it's natural that everyone else will put me down in anyway they could. Well, another way to kill boredom n time. (sry luh)

Well, the simplest way i could put it is. As u can see.
I AM DAMN FUCKING BORED INSIDE

Okay. Now to the more serious part. Uh, well. I'll lyk to just say one thing.

"shouting without a higher reason for it is just shouting. It's not an effort to keep the class quiet"

I don't deny that it does help keep the class quiet. But sometimes, it's very irritating when a few people shout. The only thing i can sense. "irritated" is written all over the person who shouted. It feels more lyk -keeping the class quiet because i am irritated by the noise- rather than -it is the right thing to do, because it disturbs the class (so on)-

Well,  that is what i think lah. Correct me IF i'm wrong.

hmm, i've drawn 2pics when i'm bored. nxt time den put up. Internet got prob.

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what am i doing?
Still lazing around.
Watching anime, not doing my work nor revising nor studying.

CONCENTRATE!!!

Sec two is an IMPORTANT year! (somehow i feel i'm contradictin myself)  well, anyways. Really in a critical condition, can't concentrate my mind to do smth more.... meaningful.

OMG. My valueable youth is slipping away from me!

Damn damn damn. Editing the powerpoint alittle bit more again. Now it has music in it. It's pretty nonsensical. Hmm, mayb not... it IS nonsensical. 

Hmm. My freakin life is getting meaningless. Oh, back to the old topic. If only if i had a GF~ OH yea, seems lyk my tagboard is getting abit livelier. THANKYOU EVERYONE WHO TAGGED. (even though most of it is nonsensical. "it is supposed to be anyways" )

hahas.

o.O heard smth interestin from eliz. Her friend's msn nick.

"let's commit Da perfect Crime. i'll steal ur heart nn you'll steal Mine =D "

right? can't agree more. WHO WANTS TO COMMIT THE PERFECT CRIME WITH ME? yea!
Finished home ec PPT.

BE PREPARED GUYS.
The slides would be quite kao-bei-ish. Well, my main purpose is just to test my skills and kao beo the teacher.

Sigh, a mere 22 or 3 slides took me lyk... 5hrs? Sigh, wonder what the heck i'm doing. So slow sia. Guess had a little problem organising n timing everything... Yawns, but OH YEA. For the first time in... uhh.. 2 or 3months since i did my work?

OMG.

So proud of myself.

Hmm, all i can sae is, look forward to the presentation. And, dun bother asking me how i do it. Watashi ZETAI makasetai.

Translation:I WILL NEVER DO IT.
=D Sry luh. A guy must always keep some secrets to himself mah...

Oh yea, one more anime to recommend.
FULL METAL PANIC.

It's nice. Meccha / Action / LOADS of comedy

Well, guess today's the same too. Ohio yozaiimas. It's 1.25AM right -now- Last night slpt at aprox. 4AM. Hmmm... Seems that my life is getting more n more screwed up. Haix.... Oh yea, b4 i forget, boys ah, dun ask me to go soccer or anything on monday.

Another stupid appointment with the stupid hospital came again. Haix.

Well, don't have anything else now... oh yea. i keep forgetting to sae this, so i'm not gonna forget again this time..

GOOD LUCK EVERYONE FOR THE EXAMS! DON'T EVER FUCKING FAIL!!!

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12.50AM exactly right now.

Posting so early in the day.
I'm going to do the Home Ec stuff. Powerpoint. Sigh, if only if this is individual work, it'll be much easier. (i probably won't be doing this)

Hmm, well, seems that i'm gonna do 2Copies of the work. Since one is for easy view, and the other is for visual entertainment.

Hmm... Guys. (really guys this time, MALES) Who i often hang out with, it's not that i want to always pang seh u all. For reasons that are too complicated explaining, i don't really have a choice. But the simplest sumary i can use is, my parents dont' approve and i can't really afford the time.

Anyways, benedict. I know u AP alot. But sry for today. But seriously, sometimes u don't have to be that sensitive. Though i "sorta" understand why, but there's no use doing that.

Well, there are many reasons for my slpy face, stress is one part of it. The others would be too difficult to explain, even if i did, everyone would probably think that i'm stupid or smth lyk that, but well. I though it was stupid too. But it seems that the desired results is coming out. So it's not THAT stupid after all.

Argh~ Thinking too much.

Oh yea, i practically can't do any of the maths quiz question today. Only a few. Dammit, have to revise. Lyk CRAZY.
Sigh, that's all for now, nid to chiong the proj.

I've named it project_HE.
It's important, how quick i complete it determines what time i'm gonna slp today. that's all. Dismissed.

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oh yea.
the compo is over.
Actually, for me, the most stressful is the compo. The all other papers don't really matter to me. Since compo is the only thing which will really.... (....)

Oh wells, at least i got through it with sufficient time to slp. And attained the pill of jealousy from people around me. Who seemed to be struggling till the last 20secs. Though i don't really understand why everyone took such a long time to write, i can't really compare those normal people with an insane guy like me.

Well, wasted some ink doodling on the extra piece of paper where by we're supposed to "REDUCE, REUSE, RECYLE"

Sigh, guess i totally forgot abt it. Well, more lyk, "I-DON'T-WANNA-RMB-THE-FUCKING-GEOGRAPGY-CRAP" Hmm... Finished watching Air Gear. Another nice show. Downloading full metal panic. Heard tt it's a pretty nice show as well. Hope it don't let me down.

Watched the latest Bleach 123 as well. Well, bleach is a nice show. If it weren't for it's draggy storyline that's blocking out all the nice fighting parts.

Hmm, anyways, i have a question for ppl who even bothered reading this. Do u have stress even when u can't seem to find any problems? Seriously, i feel stressed, and i went through all possible cause of it. And couldn't find any. I'm pretty sure i wasn't troubled by the past, neither is the present giving me alot of problems. So what izzit?

Does anyone has the answer? If not, i guess i'll try asking coach Daniel again. hmm, seems that i still can't restrict myself to only 5hrs of computerting time. that's a sad thing. But it's quite a enjoyable thing as well. =/

Sigh, home-ec. I'm gonna do 2 copies for the Power-Point. One is the Data form. The other is Kao-bei form. I'lm gonna show everyone what Microsoft Office PowerPoint is actually a very powerful / incredible program. Yea, i'm gonna do that, provided that i have enough time. =D

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long time no see
not really long, not really short either lah.

oh wells. Didn't really have much mood or time to post nowadays. sigh. Tmr exams liao. Wonder how i'll live through it. It's living hell for me. *sobs* Too bad sia. I'm gonna pia all subj. with EVERYTHING i got.

For 2 weeks.

Let's see what miracle i can perform. yawns. Still sitting comfortably on my bed watching my anime. Oh wells, i'm gonna perform some sort of upgrade to my blog again this time. It would be sorta invisible to everyone lah, den mayb the blog would load slower.

haix. damn sian nowadays, guess i won't be posting everyday le. nth interesting happens anyways. >.<

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hmm... Finally, managed to set up my network properly.
Though somehow my brother's one got a problem now.... Can't connect to internet. Up to now, 1~2hrs, still trying to get it fixed...

Oh wells, it doesn't matters anyways, internet overall performance for me have increased quite abit. yawns, found my tablet pen. Should be able to create better blogskins now.

Sigh, lesser ppl seems to be coming my blog, but the number of tags seems to be increasing. I wonder if this is gd or bad... Either way, dun really matter now. I'm just focusing on writing my "diary" and making gd blogskins.

oh yea. Went to the new shopping mall at Amokio Hub

It's quite nice. It has Singapore's first interesting supermarket. Called.
"FAIRPRICE XTRA"

Well, i can see that it's XTRA all right. It can rival to Vivo City's GIANT~  Freakinglish huge, for wadeva god damned reasons. Xtra is pretty nice. for for some reasons, it doesn't sell ANY paint AT ALL at the STATIONARY Section. And at the electronics section. It has a HUGE AREA. But INTERESTINGLY, the only things that they sell are, TVs, Cookers, Irons, Some lame appliances. With a HUUUGE variety of each product, it's just that the variety TYPE has around 6~10. And each TYPE has around 20~30 different VARIETIES. =.=ll

Guess they stressed too much on creativity rather than usefulness.

Headache, still not really going away, if i stress my brain or eyes abit too much. The fucking ache will come back. yawns.

haix. still cannot connect for my bro. I give up. Damn tiring. The router has a problem -.-

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i've always wondered.
What exactly am i streesed abt?
I don't know what i'm stressed abt. So it means that i'm not stressed at all, isn't it? I'm quite sure i don't have any reason to be stressed about. But somehow, someway. It appears to me that i really am fucking stressed up.

Went to see the doctor today. Explain what i felt. She told me, "ur headache is tension 'smth smth' "  Oh crapz. zzzz.

Sianz, seems lyk i'm gonna adjust my time schedule abit more. And take that stupid medicine to reduce the tension in my head.

yawns, for now. I guess i'm gonna rest and continue watching my anime... teeheehee. -.-

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hmmm....

Seems lyk it's impossible to do it. Having a major headache yesterday and today. Can't take it, gave up in class, told the teacher and lie on the table trying to slp. But couldn't due to the pain.

I've already slpt at quite a normal time, 10.30pm ytd. And woke up at 7.10am today. Still got it. Dammit, i wonder if i'm sick. Smth lyk fever, not confirmed. Wonder if it'll get better tml. If not, i'll probably not go sch again. Cannot tahan.

I think i probably hit my head when i'm squirming around in my slp... Since it hurts when i SORTA jerk my head.

No mood to do anything. Left sch straight away, reach home, awhile ltr... *pops 2 panadol pills into my mouth* Applied alot of "feng you" on my head. Went to slp, woke up. Didn't get any better, slpt again. Until around 6.30. Woke up. Still hurts like hell. Gave up, re-watch "Tsubasa Chronicles"

tat show really is addictive, i only meant to watch 1epi. But ended up watching 4epi.

Man. It fucking hurts and i guess i'm stopping here. *curses* _|_

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replies to tags first.

15th April
Everyone ELSE but Ben: ty lots. =D
Ben: guai lan.

16th April
everyone: okay okay, i'll post abt that more generally on my post.

17th April
Sha: okay, i'll reply u on my post.
pam: too bad sah. xD
Matt: the materials for it, yes, but i  did it on my own. zzz


Ah, ytd, blogger has fucked up. I type such a long post and it fucked up.
Anyways, i'll reply to ben's guai lan explaination for what he said first.

Firstly. There isn't just 1 guy pic. The 2 beside have guys too. The last one which u can't see also has a guy. The 2 beside the GUY is a FanArt from Ragnarok. And there isn't just 1 guy inside. Thankyou. If black doesn't suit the pics, den please find one other color which suits perfectly. The font is abit WHAT? And i choose that girl for my main pic is becuz she sorta signifies "love". At least to me. (the unedited copy) okay. done.

Well for sha, the theme is smth more lyk, i let u all decide what it is. It's actually supposed to be "spread the love"(for anime). Den the side one is "my first and last love"for anime. But i didn't really bother to add in. Since u'll be QUITE clever if u can infer from the design, the layout is to make up the theme, not that the theme make up the layout. okay?

Well, that's all for now. 2days nv post. Damn tired. so am i today. Damn tired. Freaking, fucking tired. Exams are coming. I hope i can settle down and study.

Besides, i've suceeded in doing smth. Abit happy over it.

yawns, that's all for now.

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yea.
finished.

like my new layout?

Not that girlish, not that guyish too. Quite uni-sex le. Shld have no complains right? The picture quality may be abit low. Sry lo. The loading spd shld be abit faster for everyone now.  If not... Den i think of other ideas bah.

Yay, got breakthrough in graphic designing for me le~ Now rest of the page looks equally gd le. =D. I kana enlighten when i see in deviantart that ppl can paint such a nice picture from a program. So i started testing out with my little weak photofiltre. and managed to get this. Not bad le lah.

Shannen, if u see this. DON'T BE SHOCKED EH!!

Oh yea. Had a freaking long talk with my father last nite. Talk until lyk 1.30am. Talk for around 2hrs+... Told me about his life story.

There's this short part which is quite funny. Cuz he's still a minor at his office at that time, but he contributed quite alot, got promoted quite fast. But still quite low compared with the GM mah. Den one time, the GM call him in the room.

Den he sae "wa lao eh. Basket ah! I go in the room, everyone GM, director, manager, some crap qualified engineer. I lowest down there lah! Den everyone on the hand got a file, keep writing down things, he 1 person sit down there stare at everyone not doing anything."

lol! It's quite funny la, when he tell me that time, sry if it's not funy when i write lo...

here's a video to share.
the super farter.




 

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hey guys.
LOOK AT THIS.

Nice poster isn't it? Found it while surfing DeviantArt.

Haha. Sex education. Important isn't it? The time is going to come soon. Without seeing that poster, i would have forgotten. Science. Chap6 ~ 7.

I wonder what will happen. hahas. The best part abt tt poster is the light bulb being screwed into the bulb holder. xD. I'll look out for more interesting stuffs lyk these. Oh yea, u may think i'm nuts or bo liao or wadeva. I'm currently doing another layout. For no particular reason i guess.

If u wan a reason, it's probably becuz i'm displeased with this layout. Well, it SHOULD be better than this. In fact... it IS.

Finished Code Geass. Waiting for it's 3rd season.

Well, there's finally one person. TAN MING LI. Who complained that my blog takes a very long time to load. (probably another reason why i wanna change the style).  Oh yea, i suddenly gave birth to a very very strong interesting in art. Mainly graffiti, anime n another type which i don't really noe how to describe.

I think i'll take up graphic designing in computer as well. Heck care programming!!! Time to walk the artistic road.

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finally.
My beloved hp has returned to it's master.

ah... Turned on. Realised that there's 10sms. (around there) Abit surprising. Abit pleasing. heh heh heh. Well. Can finally sms again.

Didn't go to sch again. Yawns.
Woke up late. 7+ Didn't feel that well, so decided not to go to sch. Wonder if i shld juz buy a mc from somewhere i think my friend mentioned or shld i juz write a parent letter myself and let my mum/dad sign it.

Haix. Slpt n watched anime for the most of the time today again. Somehow, this kind of life kinda feels very relaxed. Hmm.... Somehow, i feel kinda displeased with this layout. lolz... It's going through my head if i shld do smth abt it. (oh wells)

I missed a whole day not looking at girls at all. What a waste of my time. What a waste of the valueble youth. Oh yea, my bro showed me n made me realise smth VERY 
VERY INTERESTING thing i could do on microsoft powerpoint. It's so hmm... WOW that i'm gonna use that skill when i have the chance.

Even though i know how to do all the effects i've seen on his presentations. It's really amusing to me how he figured out that doing so will produce such an effect. And the order and sequence is too. I guess it's better to be King of smth rather den the jack of all trades.

blah. oh ya. I suddenly tot of this interesting idea while tokin to 
Deon on phone today. " The reason why i didn't just lyk an choose a girl is because i want to SPREAD THE LOVE. "

Lolz. I think in my nxt layout. The theme would be.
-Spread The Love-

Nice eh?

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sigh. a day without my phone. Feels so boring. Since can't sms anyone when i'm feeling bored. =/  This sucks. Haix.

Code Geass

The anime im' currently watching. Not bad indeed. The only bad thing about it is that i'm watching that show in chinese subtitles. zzz. It doesn't matters anyways, i understand quite abit of jap and chi, i have a mini translation theatre in my head.

Cuz somehow, i seem to be watching the show with english understanding.

Oh yea. English remedial sucks. It SUCKS MAN. -.- I can't believe i spent lyk 45mins of my life sitting down and looking through english crap which is unbelievable crappish. I regret rushing my test in order to slp. =|

Well, there's a lame hw for the remedial. I'm gonna do it all correct and kao bei her!!! Damn bui song lah, in the room not doing anything that is gonna help me in anyway. At least maths can practice or smth lyk that. Eng is... -.-lll idiotic.

Hmm, seems that i have a lot of animes in my to-watch list. sianz~ Hmmm, so far, the comments i got so far is, the board not bad, but not really gd either. Oh wells. Kinda sad, but it's true anyways. =/   Guess will have to touch up on it. Yawns. Really tired today. Feeling kinda sick now. Dun really feel lyk going to sch tmr, but since it's fri tmr, i guess i'll go anyways.

hmm, still piled with hw. Hate this. It's tiring these days. Really tiring. I could barely move my body now.

AHH. Since the start of my blogging. I have nv read back my post b4. Mayb i will one day.... =DDD

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sobs*
smiles*
sobs*

YESTERDAY...
I took a wrong bus.
Walked back, take taxi to sch.

Today...
Damn tired, woke up late, nearly late.

I finally posted. Abit busy these days. So well. I've finally done the "graffiti art" on my class's back notice board. So people from AHS, feel free to go n look n gif comments. I'm sry if it looks plain. Since i'm lacking in money, and only bought 4 colors. White, Black, Silver, Yellow. I think i'll be going down the sch hill to buy some more colors.

Most probably, Blue, Red, Green. So i'll probably decorate the other side of the notice board. Mayb i'll touch up on the current one as well. Please give me constructive comments when u see the board. ty.

well. anyways. I lost my handphone.
I kinda too tired. slpt on the bus. the hp slipped out. Den i chiong down the bus without knowing that it's not with me. Sobs. So when i realised. It's too late. So when i reached home. I call my own hp. A girl picked up. Not too old. Sound not bad. How i wish it's a chio bu n will meet up wif me. okay, anyways, somehow, someway. she left it at amokio police station.

So tmr have to go pick up. So can't sms or call for tmr. Really not used to not havin my hp wif me. Haix.

That's y it's
sobs*
smiles*
sobs*

haix. Gd luck nv come twice, bad luck always come in pairs. xD Sigh. Pam's birthday's over. Jas's nxt. I actually plan to make the same big big card. But somehow, it would kinda make pam's bday gift sorta insignificant. So i'm thinking lyk siao wad else can i do. But it seems lyk can't find ley. Sigh. What a tough gift.

tt's all buh-bye. SOBS. MY HPPPPP..........

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Title: Lilium
Os iusti meditabitur sapientiam,
Et lingua eius loquetur indicium.

Beatus vir qui suffert tentationem,
Quoniqm cum probates fuerit accipient coronam vitae.

Kyrie, ignis divine, eleison

O quam sancta, quam serena,
quam benigma, quam amoena
O castitatis lilium


Translation:
The Mouth of Justice meditates wisdom
And His language, the tongue is made clear.

Bless man which suffers temptation.
Since, he, with striving, will have received life’s crown.

Oh Lord, Fire Divine, have mercy!

Oh, How Holy! How Serene!
How Kind! How Pleasant!
Oh Pure Lily!


Opening song from Elfen Lied. A very sad show. Accompanied with a very sad song. I kinda love the melody. But it's freaking sad. I nearly cried when i watched the ending of the show. I recommend everyone to watch that. provided that u're matured enough to watch porn and violence.

This show doesn't censore and body part at all. And that are alot of bloody scences. It's not horny. It's has a nice storyline. Well, starting u'll notice the nudity, but as u go along, u'll concentrate more on the storyline.

Anyways, i've been collecting alot of animes lately. I'm thinking that when i get enough, i'll be able to rent them? =D  ($$$) I'm broke okay. =/   But i doubt there'll be alot of ppl who would want. hahas. But i'll juz try when the time comes.

So anyways, i didn't do my hw after all. Seems lyk i'll have to chiong. With technology, i have no choice but to edit the picture for my science project. The editing isn't hard, it's what i'm gonna write abt it. I have no idea. Sigh.

Lesser ppl is comin to my blog, lesser ppl is tagging. Sobs. >.< Hafta try my best to bring out smth interesting again. Yawns. Wells. i haf nth to sae again. I think i'll put some pictures nxt time to liven up my blog. hahas.

I AIM TO BE THIS BASTARD!!!!

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7th april 2007   -     7/4/7
I mark it as lame day.

It started with going out with pam sher n sher's cousin, adrian.

That bastard guy seems to keep his mouth to himself, n refuse to use it. A dao guy who keeps running away lyk a (....)

So anyways, his girlfriend or izzit his mei or whoeva that is came. A girl, pretty cute. But not my type. So anyways, my pam sher at LJS eatin, den he went outside LJS to meet her. And MIRACULOUSLY, his mouth OPENED!!! OMG, CAN U BELIEVE THAT? HIS FUCKING MOUTH OPENED!

And he started playing with the balloon flying aimless on the floor, he PICKED IT UP, and played with it, INFRONT of that girl! ISN'T THAT AMUSING? Then he got bored with it, he tired talk to the girl. But still keeping that act cool attitude. NOT BAD RITE?!

Omg, i'm freaking AMUSED by his tactics to approach that girl. But SOMEHOW, SOMEWAY, the girl doesn't seems to be amused at all.

So well, in the end, we split up. And they went to watch a god-knows-what movie. Well anyways, it became a 3-man group. Me, pam, sher. Walking around. finding a place to sit down and talk. but somehow, we went to the void deck, and came back to the mall and walk in circles. And finally, pam's parents came and we went to toys r' us to hide. And hence i think we spent lyk around... hmm. not sure how long. Hiding.

Well, it was quite funny anyways. So i don't really mind.

Anyways, we took a neoprint b4 all those. Well, all i could say was. I'M NEVER EVA GONNA TAKE ANOTHER F*CKING NEOPRINT.

Omg!!! I look so damn freaking spastic in that i strikeout my mouth. >.<
Wells, i wonder if it's the machine's fault? Everyone look really spastic in it. Oh wells, it surely became a really lame day. Oh wells, what can i do, =.=lll

Besides, it wasn't that  bad. Seems lyk today i hear some interesting things. And it's pretty amusing to see sher n pam fooling around. It's not that bad after all. (i guess)

So it ended rather lonely, since i went home myself. But i met teri on the bus. Seems lyk i'm fated not to be lonely today after all. So we chat till reach my bus stop. When i open my door. I was told that my bro juz came in, closed n lock the door, the nxt second i open the door. Isn't that interesting? (no)

Wells, that's the lame day i had today. I'll look out for other special days like this. I hope i'll keep my blog foreva n rmb this. =D

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finished watching another anime. A 2 season show. 24episodes in total.
It's nice, bloody and vulgar. A pretty nice anime where u can hear "SHIT"  "FUCK" "DIPSHIT" "SLUT" "WHORE" and many more interesting descriptive words and certain postures like, shooting the middle finger right infront of another person's face.

Oh wells, it's really entertaining to watch it.

Well then. I recommend u guys to watch it. Since it isn't really perverted or wadsoeva. lolz. It's GOOD FRIDAY today. No matter how i see it. It isn't that good to me. 

ANYWAYS, I HAVE ONE MORE THING TO DECLARE.
Wheneva i say. "i'm tired"
I mean it, and don't tell me fuckin things lyk, "u're always tired" Please don't shoot the shit out if you don't know why i'm tired. Besides, i'm gonna be more expressive from now on. On my blog that is. Since that anime i just watched give me such good inspirations i'm gonna shoot all the bloody languages outta ma' mouth!

Suck it. I'm feeling kind of tired. But i guess it doesn't really matters. I'm going to do the site for anime now. It's gonna be one heck of a difficult crap.

So then, if u guys have any f*ckin problems with the language i'm using now, feel free to to shoot ur mouth off. But please criticise strategically, or heavy measures would be taken.

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guess i'm still not totally over it yet.

it's getting on my nerves. My emotions that is.
Seems that i'm still kind of far from controlling it properly yet.

Anyways, it's finally good friday tomorrow.
But the sad thing is. My computer got problem again. i wonder what it is this time. Haix, nowadays is really getting really irritating.

Anyways, i'm gonna learn to control my emotions and feelings even more. It makes things much more easier. Hmm. It's juz lyk quitting drugs, quitting is hard, not quitting is harder. hahas.

Besides, ben, if u're reading this, let me tell u this. I don't pk or do wateva shit to show-off. Even if i seem to do so, it's not intentional. It's partly becuz i'm boliao/bored. The other important factor is that i have nth to do/sae to anohter person. And one more thing, don't force ur way through things. it's not gonna do u any good.

Many ppl may not believe when i say somethings are science. But it's really too troublesome to explain everything. If u're have that much lack of trust in me. Then please tell me. I will explain every single thing that i say which u CAN'T understand to u. During a "quarrel", i dun fight back becuz there's no point for me to do so. It's not becuz i can't do so. I find it meaningless to talk back to another person who doesn't believe in u.

What is the point of trying to convinced another person when he is so convinced by himself that he's right? Ya i noe. It's irritating to me as well. Since i'm also a person who is so convinced by myself  that i'm right. That is why i'm ALWAYS searching for that is right. As long as i know that the right i found is accepted by people around the world, then it's right.

The summary of the whole thing is. I'm telling u guys that. I'm a stubborn fucked up guy who doesn't seem to give a shit abt what u're talking abt if i think that u're wrong. that's all.

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After school. 2.55pm.
Reason?
Science retest.

Mission Alpha
Destination: Eagle's nest
Objective: Revise Geography

(mission in progress....)

Obstacles faced: 1. Other PAC room is locked
                              2. Everyone want to play
                              3. so do i

Hence, we all played pool. Big one. hahas. Well, i improved. Hmm, probably not. Oh wells. The most interesting event of the day is. TABLE SOCCER.

Pam-Edison VS LianKai-John
Score: 1:infinite

I LOOOOOOVE edison's DIAODED expression. Cuz the other team always score in a place where u can't defend. Well, in a sense u can call that lucky, but it keeps repeating, so i guess u call that SUUUPER LUCKY.

Well, the tables turned when Qin changed with pam. The score turned to INFINITE : 0

Yes, without a doubt. That is true. Qin went berserker mode and thrashed the other team lyk wtf. It's really interesting to see how he RAM that little ball with the little things so hard. Impressive wrist strength showed. No intelligence showed at all.

Well, studied abit with pam, jas, jav, mc, adriel. Den qin, deon came n joined us. Then went home together. I suceeded in doing smth. (pk) And it has became convenient for me to take the shortcut from MRT station to sch le. Hence i guess i'll take that route everyday to sch le. Save me around 1~2mins of time.

finished watching Negima!? It's nice. No regrets watching. Just that the ending is abit, plain. oh wells. Gd luck for everyone who is preparing for the SYF. Cya

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omg. How long has it been since i've double posted.

god knows when.

ANYWAYS, I CUT MY HAIR. not on my own this time. It has became damn short again. Yawns, kind of sad. Cuz i love/miss my long hair. Since... uh, i have different taste? lol

Wells, i hardly find anytime to do my blog other, spend too much time on anime. And i think that my post are getting boring nowadays.

Hmm..... BUT BUT BUT BUT. i'm gonna stop for awhile. Cuz i finished watching lyk... 20animes liao. (downloaded) Now waiting for the nxt batch. 7 in download. So well, i'll take the chance to brush up on my studies and do some com stuff other than anime.

Okay, i'm getting seriously very bored nowadays. SOMEONE PLEASE TALK TO ME. can't seem to find anyone to talk on the phone. All lyk so busy. Well, mayb i'm the only free person. Since i'm the only who is willing to sacrifice my time and effort for some boliao stuffs BELIEVED to be useful for my "future".

Well. that's all. 10.16pm. Gotta slp early. I dun wanna miss sch again. xD didn't go to sch today.
Kinda sick.
Too tired / lazy to tahan the thing n go sch.

Keep backing up my animes in DVDs n in my XDD. Wasting time. I guess i used more than 4hrs again today. BUT CAN'T BLAME ME LAH. =|

I think i look forward to this year's talentime. If everything goes smoothly. I guess we'll look forward to quite an interesting talentime. =D   

Having quite alot of headaches nowadays. I wonder if it's from the stress or lack of slp. Nowadays, i REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY wished that i'm in a fantasy world. Even though i'm not really THAT satisfied with my current life right now. I have no complains if this carries on forever.

It's not bad if i can stay as a kid foreva. I don't wanna grow up. It's good even though my life seems kinda empty and i do not strive particularly for anything. Even though i'm troubled with sch hw, friends and things around me. It's good. Each day passes by as if they're worth nth. I wonder how long this life would continue.

I'm quite afraid of the new life when i grow up. Yea, it's all part of life. But sometimes it's really good if we stay in one stage of our life, isn't it? Yea, that only applies when everyone around us also stay with us. It's actually more painful if we just watch everyone grow up and experience so many different things while we're still staying at the same spot, nv moving at all.

I'm always wishing that my life isn't just this. (i guess everyone else is too). Whenever i meet another friend, i watch shows, dramas, anime. I see those events which happens to them, which we oftenly yearn so much for. But it's impossible to obtain such things. But then again, yet how many people would have yearn for the life we have? I'm stuck. I really do not know if i should strive my best and experience everything i can with the limited time i have, or should i just life it through normally, being satisfied with everything.

It's just too much for me to take. I guess i'm still young after all. I can't seem to make the right decision in my parents' eyes. I know, what they think is probably right. Just lyk when we face a younger generation and quickly seem to analyse all the things they've done wrong and tell them off. But it's hard accepting it isn't it? I know what i'm doing. I'm clear of what i'm doing.

but i just don't know what i did is right or not.
Is there a point in keeping everything to urself?
Is there a point in telling ur problems to others?
Is there a point to sacrfice for others?
Is there a point to act selfishly?
Is there a point to cover ur true feelings?
Is there a point to show ur true feelings?
Is there a point to tell others directly what you think?
Is there a point to hide ur thoughts and contradict urself?
Is there a point to think about this at all?!

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uh. wtf?!

I forgot to post ytd. THE MOST IMPORTANT DAY!!!
April's FOOL!!!

Argh! Dammit, my memory is failing me. >.<
OKAY... ANYWAYS.
I'm freaking pissed offed ytd n today. And came out with an AMAZING THEORY again.

(okay, probably not theory, just complaining.)

Why do our parents, NEVER EVER FUCKING HEAR or TRY to UNDERSTAND what we're telling them... RATHER than keep repeating what they're trying to tell us REGARDLESS of our replies? It seems that. NO MATTER what i tell my mum. She'll continue with what i say.

Just like in anime, when another person dao the other person totally and continue with what he's saying.

And if i reply nicely, she'll just dao me. Until i SHOUT at her, she'll shout back WITHOUT hesistation that i'm being rude to her. heys, i've established and proven 1 theory anyways. It's not that our parents don't understand AT ALL what we feel. It's more like they heck care it.

It seems that, each time they know that we're pissed / angry / irritated with them. They'll continue shouting/nagging ignoring the fact that we're not happy with that. And when they're pissed off by our attitude, they'll just straight away tell us off that we're being rude/not respecting them or wadeva the FUCK is the reason. This _|_ irony has been confirm through my 14years of life. It may not apply to everyone. But i guess it applies to most of us. =D

I'm going to start slping early. I have DARK circles around my eyes le. And umm... I cut my hair today! Abit only. Why? I cut on my own. Trim the top. Not bad eh. Cut quite alot. Enough to shorten my hair enough for it to spike. Hahas.

Not bad lah, quite proud by my own lil work. Anyways, no one has complained about my layout being slow to load or wdv. So i'll just take it that it's okay n shall not do anything about it. And i think that there' s nth interesting to talk about nowadays. So i guess i'll talk abt more theories. though it'll be kinda naggy or somehow offending (cuz it's irritating since it's too long). i HECK CARE u lah.

I'm currently on a campaign to ban myself from using the computer for more than 4hrs per day. It's tough. It's difficult. BUT, I SHALL OVERCOME ALL DIFFICULTIES AND CURB MY INTEREST!!!

Hence i shall try from tmr. I will limit myself to only 4hrs. I hope it will suceed. Or else i can nv concentrate properly on what i need to do!


JIA YOU! CURB THE........