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ah... a box of get well soon msg.

And filled with words lyk
"pk arh?"
"tried climbing over a wall?"
"dangerous stunts"

Did i mention that i tried climbing a wall? -.- Even if it's a misconception... It's kinda. too. too. many ppl people thinking the same way. -.-lll

anyways, i was running, slipped and fell. Unless u have extreme curiosity for the details, that's about it. And that unless you're my mei, or whoeva which is somehow of a good friend. Den u wan to noe den bother asking me. If not it'll be. I run, slipped, and fell. =p

And oooh. So nice of Ming Li to get the box for the msgs. Ah, so touched.. Oh wells.
I shall express my thanks here to those who gave me the letters.

THANKYOU.
.MINGLI
.SHERMAINE
.ELIZ
.PAM
.JAS
.VIVIEN
.TERI
.JIA HUI (hah?)
.Annonymous

And those who visited me.
(hos)
.JAV
.JOS
.QIN
.BEN
.YAN
.KAI
.MC
.ADRL

And oh, thx for zoey n siow may for comin my hse to visit me. EVEN THOUGH. (sm made me do her art work) Blah. XN didn't come. ><

And AH. Those who smsed me instead of a letter, thx too. hahs. Can't rmb all of them. Just all who know abt what happened. XDDD. Ah wells. That box rite, got write, javier, yan hao, qinhui, deon & ben THE FROG. But somehow someway. I see the msg all only got girl. HAIX, seems lyk guys are juz guys after all. I look at that tag and wondered, OH WOW. QIN HUI WOULD ACTUALLY WRITE? IMPOSSIBLE. XDDDD.

Oh wells. I'm too lazy/tired to say out in sch. So i just write out here. I probably look lyk a ghost today in sch. And didn't reply much to what you guys ask/say to me. sry ah. But i already at my limit when i go sch today le. Hahs, when i say i'm giddy, i really mean that i'm giddy, can barely walk properly. Staggered abit on the way to sch today.

oh wells. Fine now. I guess. Wonder how long this crap will last. It's irritating when there's this fucking buzzling sound 24/7.

zzz. I lazy sae anything else. To end this post.
i shall say this again.

THANKS AH BUDDIES!!!

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last day i can stay at home b4 going to sch.
rewatched shuffle. There's this really sad sentence.

"my first and last love"

argh. sad rite. blah. Supposed to do my hw. But nv do. Feeling giddy since i woke up 10am till now. 6.39pm. 8hrs of giddiness. Fuck it lah, can't do my hw. Really can't, can't even get up and walk properly. I hope it'll be okay tmr. Wanna go sch le, missed sch too long. Hahas, though it isn't bad at all to stay at home, i think going to sch is one part of my life that is hard to miss.

Anyways, that sentence is very sad, becuz, that girl is going to be sacrificed, and she gave the present the guy she loved to her best friend. The present is the symbol of her first and last love. Awww. Okay lah, i know i probably sound kinda gay. But OH WELL. CAN'T A GUY BE SENTIMENTAL?!

Oh wells. I'm probably turning gay. but blah, it isn't that bad anyways. Girls isn't the center of my life. (probably NOT YET) But oh wells, i look forward to the day when i'll bravely stand out and sae

"GIRLS THE 1ST THE THING IN MY LIFE,
2ND GIRLS
3RD GIRLS
4TH GIRLS
5TH ON STILL GIRLS!"

but i guess i have mature to that stage yet. OH WELL. For now, comptuer, computer, computer, computer, computer and COMPUTER!!!! Is the center of my life.

Recently, i wondered, if whether this is a passion for learning / doing computer stuff, or is this what people call addiction? I wonder if i'm addicted to using computer. I've been using computer pretty much nowadays... oh wells.

cya guys in sch tmr huh. BLAH~

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still stuck at home.
doodling with the computer. Refusing to do work which is supposed to be done 5days ago.

Listening to music.
TRYING to msn. (when everyone's in sch)
Fooling around with com stuff.
Thinking of what to do next.

that sums up what i've been doing for the past 6hrs of my life. Wasted lyk this. >.< Abit too tired to learn computer stuff. really felt lyk slping which is smth i most probably would do after this post. If there isn't any more interference in what i want to do. No lunch, no proper breakfast. Lookin forward to a good dinner. Which would come at around 8. 6hrs from now.

=.= Nth at home to eat, currently no one at home. I wonder what my parents actually expects me to do. Probably go down and buy food for myself to eat. (at least tell me -.-) or do they want me to cook my own food and eat? Or shld i just starve.

recently, i wonder if it's the interesting post, my charm, or izzit because that i didn't go to sch that cause the sudden increase in visitors coming to my blog. Okay okay, not a bad thing at all. But well, i'm feeling kinda happy, since more ppl are coming, (more regularly) to my blog.

Hence, to reward everyone who came regularly. I shall put up more interesting stuffs. And try to make a new skin asap. This time i would do the same thing. Basic XHTML + CSS, BUT, this time, i will try to optimize the web loading time, so that you guys can load faster. Since i heard some "complaints" that my blog is loading kind of a slow for some people. But compared to the previous skin, i guess it's loading alot faster eh? XD.

This post would probably be boring and really long since i'm typing it out to entertain myself. Bored at home =X.

ANIME RECOMMENDATION:
Da Capo

Yea, that show is nice. Another drama romance kind of story which has no logic. Quite nice, got a few funny/ecchi scenes. I'm glad i've learnt to appreciate drama/romance type stories.

okay, Zoey and Siow May visited me. (finally got girls) anyways, not a HAREM ending yet. too bad. >< oh wells. that's all for today. tata

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Done. Windows XP OS X.
A windows XP home edition, with a MacOSX look. lol, not smth new, not smth THAT old either. It's nice ya noe.

New look lah. okays, as promised, this is a screen shot of how it looks like.



i noe i noe. looks kinda nice. What's the price of it? All data lost. Meaning, i reformatted my computer. Cuz it's some kinda hack customization. So i kana virus, so i have to reformat everything, my image editors, HTML, brushes, backgrounds are all gone. Pretty frustrating. But the results isn't that bad, so i guess i'll juz get on over with it.

And yea, it would look better if u enlarge the picture. This is enough to make normal people believe it's Mac already rite? hahas. The previous design i did got to the brim of windows vista. With the new flip3d effect integrated inside, though it caused some problems, it still look terrific. hahas. But now i use another thing, more practical, but alot of sense. here's a screen shot.



Oh wells. But thx to the reformatting, i regain all the diskspace, which kinda allows me to do smooth transitions lyk these. I can't imagine if i still had all my data, it would look horrendous. Anyways, the reason why me n my group didn't tell anyone abt my injury is because we aren't really proud of it, lyk, we don't mind telling people if they ask, but we don't bother telling people about it, unless they found out themselves.

Oh wells. but it's kinda sad ya noe. I mean, IMAGINE, ALL GIRLS CROWDING AND FUSSING OVER ME. oh jk. XD. (but it would really be nice~ wouldn't it?) wahahaha.

Guess i still have alot of time to spend with my computer. But there's this irritating, eye sore-ish pile of shit which is piling up everyday. And it doesn't seems to piling everyday, papers just keep being sent down here expecting to be scribbled over and sent back again. ><

oh wells. i guess that's fate, but i have damn lot of excuses up my sleeves if the teacher pester me for anything. hahas. i dunno i got write in the previous post anot, but i'll juz write it down again.

My left ear has some kind of atmospheric difference in pressure. So it feels lyk i'm constantly in a plane which is either ascending or descending, and yes, not only the feeling, the pain as well. It's freaking feeling to have that feeling 24/7. Oh wells, juz have to bear with it. Besides, it contributes to my excuses. =p That's all for now.

but b4 i forget.
ANIME OF THE WEEK:
ZEGAPAIN

watch it. It really rocks. An anime comprising of action, romance, sadness and mystery. But if you're a person who can't understand a heck abt what FF7 Advent Children is about. I recommend you don't watch it as if would cause brain damage to your brain which doesn't seems to exist. okays, that's all. tata~

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1st step towards a cool desktop.
Theme. - Done.

2nd step on.
Accelerated customization.

My plans for a cool XP desktop. I'll be changing my computer into Windows XP - Mac OS X style. I know i know, sounds crazy, sounds impossible. But give me lyk a few days? I'll try my best, i may even complete it tomorrow. When i'm done, i'll do a screen shot to show u that i don't give empty threats. XD

so... i'll be busy with the upgrading process now... Will post again at a later time. cya~

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okay, itai (dun really noe how to spell) means ouch or pain in jap.

Haven't been posting for two days, been missing in sch in 2days.

Guess some people would be wondering what happened to me if you still don't know. Didn't mean to tell everyone what happened lah, but i wan to keep it as a memory.

Okay lah, i was hospitalised. Cuz i some how fell and kana concussion. So was kind of sent to the hospital through the ambulance. (wasn't conscious den). And i realised the difference between fainting and concussion. Faint means u faint and you hit smth on the way down. Concussion is u hit smth on the way down and faint. lol.

Was really really freaking giddy 2days ago. (when i juz got in hos) So even when i tried to sit up also feel very giddy den nid to lie down. And by some freaking reasons i cannot eat, cuz scared i vomit. So drip lorh. 1st time in my whole life in hos, 1st time kana the drip liao. >< And got an injection on my left arm god knows when they did that.

oh yea, i wan to write this down, since i dun really rmb this, i forgot how i fell down after i woke up lah. Den qin they all sae that when i fell down that time, den after awhile got blood come out from my ear, den they kinda shocked, so asked me questions see i still rmb anot, but den ltr after i touched my ear, i kinda suddenly blanked out and stared blankly into the space not replying them at all. Which kinda freaked them out. (i dun clearly rmb this part)

The 1st time i sort of gain ABIT of consciousness is when i'm on the ambulance, i know that there are quite a few ppl beside me, but i can't tell who, got my little bit of consciousness for lyk 1min or less den that, i blacked out again. When i finally reach the hos, i was stuck in the stupid emergency room (which isn't that much of a emergency to me) for 6whole hrs. -.-

During the time i keep waking up and somehow faint again. >< So dun really rmb much inside other den the doctor and the air-con which is freaking cold. I was finally out of the emergency room and was told that qin, jos, jav, ben, yh, waited for me for 6hrs outside the room, since they can't come in. Den they visited me, though i wasn't in a clear state of mind, damn giddy. =X

Anyways, they left at around 8.30. And i slpt fot the rest of the night (waking up and going back to slp again). There's this freaking nurse who don't even let me have sips of water cuz my lips are so dry. (long story) Anyways, i gaf up on her and secretly took a cup a filled a cup with water when i woke up in the middle of the night.

the nxt day which is ytd... Woke up pretty early in the morning. Around 7 or 8. Was informed that i have to bathe and change. (oh sry, i already changed into the hos clothing ytd). Didn't felt so giddy already. So was able to walk to the toilet to bathe. haix, finally. The doctor came by at around 10~11. Told me that there's nth wrong with my brain.

okay, i cut short, after that qin, jos, yh, ben, kl told me that they're gonna visit me ltr. But meanwhile i went to the ENT doctore (ear, nose & throat). Nth much wrong with my ear, juz that got blood clogged up inside. Nid to take a few weeks to clear. Which is fucking irritating. Imagine a person standing beside u 24/7 saying this,"yiiiiiiiiiiiiiii~~~" It's damn freaking irritating, and of cuz, a certain amt of pain embeded inside.

Fast forward, i met up with them and my mum n 2nd bro. Den 50mins ltr they left (not my mum & bro) Den around 7.30. Jav and mc came. Waited with me all the way until i was finally discharged. Since i wasn't really conscious when the tubing got injected into me (the tube to feed in the food / water) i didn't realise actually how LONG it was.

it was abt this long

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yea, no bluffing. It was really THAT long. -.- Which jav gave that really wry look of pain. XD.

okay nvm, after that had dinner with jav mc my mum and my 2nd bro. Went home, rest. And here i am.

1 more thing. I won't be returning sch soon. Okay lah, NOT AS SOON as you think. I got 1week mc. So you would be seeing me lyk around wed? Till den i'll still update regularly de lah. So den... It's still pretty early now, i guess i'll go back to rest now. buh-bye!

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One of my master pieces.
Go http://2dossage.blogspot.com

View and comment / rate that layout please. ty.

finally finished the stupid class blog. The layout looks better den mine. Which is pretty frustrating, because i'm atually generous enough to let my class blog have that layout. I can probably say that that is one of my bests' layout ever. Ever since i upgraded, things have been looking good. Though it's still confusing.

Anyways, i hope that my classmates would tag at the classblog and post to keep it alive. Or else waste my effort of making a nice layout.

Argh, windows vista ultimate final is out! Fuck sia, i want to buy, Got ang bao money mah. Shld be enough. but my bro discourage me from buying it. I want to get that freaking 64bit system b4 i get Windows Vista as my OS. And i also feel lyk getting a MAC OS X. Argh!!!

I can hack to get windows vista, but, i scared ltr my com can't work. I dun wan to spoil my com lyk this. Wad a freaking way of torturing my computer. So i guess unless this OS can't really support the things i wanna do anymore. Den i try askin my parents for opinions. Btw, everyone is operating on a 32-bit system, juz lyk me. A 64-bit processor is approximately 16,000times faster den 32-bit.

That freaking major reason why i wan to buy it. And some really unfortunate things happened to my friend during chinese new year. And i realised that that sentence i said awhile ago really does.... Make sense. "In order to gain smth, you MUST lose smth as well, it's just HOW much you lose to gain the thing u want."

For example, i realised that those happy/sad memories, experience, fun joy and laughter, the final price for them is death. And last time, though i didn't voice it out, i realised again that it is kind of true. Memories are just a facade of time. Oh wells.

Anyways, i'm freaking stuck in a dilema now. I dunno whether i shld spend the ang bao money on clothes/shoes/bag or shld i spend it on software / hardware. Serious stuck. Dammit man. Becuz if i buy abit here abit there, i sure won't get satisfied de. So i have to devote on one thing, wad shld i do, wad shld i do, wad shld i do? Anyways, i'm gonna devote ALL my time now on Web le.

No time for programming liaos. I've juz gotten a host and will soon create a proper web with a domain. I'm gonna learn CGI scripts. After i master web, i'll go server / data. Argh, too many things, for example, i already had MySQL Server installed on my comptuer. I feel lyk there's such a lack of time in what i want to do. Even when i used every single bit of free time trying to improve, i still feel very empty and have damn damn damn damn damn damn damn freaking freaking freaking freaking loooooooooooooooong way to go. >.<

wadeva. I guess this is long enough, hahas. buh-bye. oh b4 i forget. I dun wan always to be stuck in a layout where by it's very boyish and metallic, wan to try diff theme/style of layout. ty.

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Finally. The skin came out.

Okay lah. Not THAT bad right? A super super rushed work. Though i spent alot of time on it. Searching for materials/brushes/programs to do this job. So well, "new year, new look!"

When i got the time or mood / some special occasions, i'll change the layout again.

It's fairly simple, but i got quite abit of problems making XDDD. Anyways, i've leveled up in my computer knowledged again. Succesfully upgraded from gimp2.2/photofiltre/inkscape, to Adobe PhotoShop CS3.0.

So now the graphics would be better. BY ALOT. Anyways, sry for not posting these 2 or 3 days. Damn busy making the skin and smsing and msning. lol. CNY mah. If you were lookin forward to a post ytd, sry lah!

Anyways, hope u lyk the layout, pls inform me of any code / aligning defects in the layout. ty. I realised that i'm better in anime layout after all. I tried 3 different layouts. The major reason why i took so long. Anyways, this time, my blog is fully structured with standard HTML/XHTML. So i don't think it would cause much problems to different browsers. Since i tested it with Firefox / IE7.0 / opera. Didn't bother to try netscape. XD

Chinese new year. Also another lonely one. For some kinda fukin reasons, my family doesn't go visiting, and by some f---ing way, i can't get more den 2ang bao. -.- Which make me terribly miserable. i guess. But the gd thing is that i can stay at home and concentrate on IT for the WHOLE day. haix...

Argh. For a short write-up of what i'm doing when i don't do my hw, i use the computer from the time i come back until i sleep. Rewriting, reviewing source codes, msning, smsing, occasionally playing o2jam for around 20mins. Den read up on computer notes. For example, javascript, "how a microprocessor works"/"computer's components"/"RAM specifications & capabilities".

Oh, isn't that wad an IT rep is supposed to do? Juz carrying my job out. Too well. Lol. Okay, everyone, if i'll write this here, but i'll also write it on the tagboard. EVERYONE. Please check the links section. Those who i have not link or relink. Pls tag ASAP and i'll update it. Ty.

oh. and lastly.


HAPPY CHINESE NEW (PIG)YEAR!

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okay. My hair being short, isn't THAT bad, but it looks stupid. Cuz b4 tt my hair was blooming with bushes and bushes of T-H-I-C-K hair, now thorn to pieces. Though it kinda sucks, i kinda lyk it as well. It saves me the trouble of combing my hair down every morning.

So now, somehow, i've reverted back to the name of "hamster". Gah, do i really look lyk hamster with thin hair? Though somehow it is a compliment, and does not SEEM lyk a compliment AT ALL. Oh wells, it's another, "depends-how-u-see-it" thing. Gahx.

Stupid javascript. So hard to learn. Taking slowly step by step. Made too many plans too early. Now feel lyk keep on no time to fufil wad i want to do. Cuz straight after javascript. I'll be doing DHTML. Arghx , dammit.

Haix, actually going vivo today to buy my new shoes. A pair of sneakers. MY VERY FIRST PAIR OF SNEAKERS. I lyk very sua ku lyk that. Oh wells. Taste changes, don't they? Anyways, my mum has finally think that i'm matured enough to buy my own clothes. So nxt time, i can go out wif u guys to get some clothings/accesories. GAH~ I wan to get my OWN clothes, not some stupid clothing that my mum thinks is TRIM AND PROPER.

argh. I think i'll try to boost blog traffic? lol. If i got the time... I wish the june holidays faster come. Den i haf 1month's time to do wadeva i want.

zzz... last statement, girls are emotional.

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HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE!

Sry for those i didn't send that sms HAPPY VALENTINE to. Cuz i figured it was too troublesome. XDDD, my sms baoed anyways. So well. Happy day everyone!

Okay, so well. following is extracted from wikipedia

Saint Valentine's Day or Valentine's Day is on February 14. It is the traditional day on which lovers express their love for each other; sending Valentine's cards or candy. It is very common to present flowers on Valentine's Day. The holiday is named after two men, both Christian martyrs named Valentine. The day became associated with romantic love in the High Middle Ages, when the tradition of courtly love flourished.

The day is most closely associated with the mutual exchange of love notes in the form of "valentines." Modern Valentine symbols include the heart-shaped outline and the figure of the winged Cupid. Since the 19th century, handwritten notes have largely given way to mass-produced greeting cards. The Greeting Card Association estimates that approximately one billion valentines are sent each year worldwide, making the day the second largest card-sending holiday of the year behind Christmas. The association estimates that women purchase approximately 85 percent of all valentines.[citation needed]

In the United States, the marketing of Valentine's Day has tagged it as a "Hallmark holiday." A recent trend has been to refer to February 14 as Singles Awareness Day.[citatio

OH wells. Lonely valentine. Haix. But it wasn't so bad at sch. And for the 1st time i've experienced how..... how. somehow valentine's day is important to people. With so many people going around giving cards, sweets, letters, hugs. And all sorts of... .... things you would give on valentine's day.

Well, overall. This wasn't such a bad day. I guess, since we could somehow pop one or two refreshers into my mouth. lolz. And i guess that keeps my fuel burning. Though somehow rather weakly. Too little energy = not enough energy.

not enough energy = need more energy
need more energy = sleep.

I guess that sums up wad i did today. Anyways, tmr got THAT FREAKING IDIOTIC maths common test. I have some kind of problem with algebraic expressions. And i just can't seem to show my workings neatly. Don't have the habit of writing wad that equation means. lols.

Okay nvm. Received hugs today! From deb, eliz and mingli. Oh wells, felt really tall when hugging. Well, eliz would noe wad i mean by that. LOL. Okay anyways, haf to go off for now. nth on my head. Forgot all of wad i'm gonna write. oh wells, write them when i rmb. bb

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tired.

played soccer until 6pm in sch. If i can train everyday lyk this, sure will get very strong in a time to come. PK + soccer + alot of exercise, not bad not bad. hahas. I wanna get my 6/8 pacs!!! I see my friend got so jealous. So cool eh. Javier's one. Though the spacing is kinda distorted.

Oh wells. I'm getting back to "make-my-layout" business again. I've decided to keep my style of looooong blog layout. hahas. Cuz can't make a nice multi-paged layout. Tried le. Dun look nice. So stick to my old layout. hahas.

Got inspirations from my new desktop. I'll do smth lyk that. hahas. Much easier... Thought the picture...........

Okays, anyways. My hair is really freaking long. And i can't spike it if i go sch. Cuz it'll look to damn freaking obviously i did smth to it. Oh wells, so i look generally guai now. lol.

ARGH. Dammit, Benedict jumped from the 3rd storey of the car park. Beating me in jumping. Haix, can u imagine? 3rd storey of car park. Really very high. Around 1storey + abit that height. Haix, big impact both on me n him. lol. Oh wells.

Too tired for theories, if you're hoping for them. TOO BAD~ I'll be having a lonely valentines tmr. SOBS. ><

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The class blog has been dead for quite sometime now.

Bored, mayb i'll go meddle with the class blog after i'm done with my own things. Oh wells. You don't nid to have a gd layout to have a good blog. But no matter wad, a gd blog always come with a gd skin. LOL.

So i have no choice but to make my skin ASAP. Or else i wouldn't have a gd blog.

And oh yea. Fell aslp juz now. At around 7~8 there. Woke juz awhile ago, thinking that i've juz dozed off. Den look at the clock. wtf. already going to 10. haven had my dinner, starving sia... Juz made instant noodles for myself. hahas.

Argh. Feeling really pissed deep inside now. dun feel lyk postin anymore.

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b4 i start anything.
Replies to tags first.

4th feb
jos: no way. =p

5th feb
pam: hahas! too bad lah~

6th feb
deb: =D
mad: oh okay...

7th feb
yx: =D

8th feb
cf: uh-huh. uh-huh. uh-huh. too bad u can't go. i got time i help u wif ur blog lorh... and umm. thx for tagging? lol
yx: woa. i noe u have gd imagination, but dun let it run wild

9th feb
tingen: ya lorh ><><
teri: hmmm... i dun haf the habit lah, juz lyk to use that word to emphasize on some meanings. hahas. Cuz nth gd is happening everyday. Oh, i can't help it if my body is attracted to a guy, could i?


oh sry. I posted b4 i wrote my post. lol, now editing...

Ah, i'm back to IT business again... and since i'm gonna do IT, i decided to gif my desktop a new look. Well, last time didn't care so much. But i guess style is that important as well now. Since i'm quite into designing. This is a screen shot of my desktop.



not bad huh? =DDD Enlarge it, look nicer.
Well. This is the base look lah. Still got other things haven't / lazy configure. oh wells... Now my computer finally looks lyk smth which has alot to do with computer science.

Wakakaka... Now.. I think i'll just devote all my time in web designing. I BETTER!!! I keep thinking wad i shld devote my time on... Which ended up with everything here abit there abit. >.<

Oh wells. No matter how i think abt it. I'm still freaking frustrated that i'm poor. Can't buy so many f------ softwares.... Haix... I'll probably save up some money and buy some kind of pirated software. >< Oh wells, too many things i wanna do. Too little time to do them. I guess i just have to rely on patience.

Didn't go for dance. Wasted. Dammit. Blame on my damn unlucky luck. And tmr nid to chiong some kind of STUPID total defence project in which i think most of the class is unaware of.

oh wadeva. I wanna freeze the time but den everything continue functioning. Den i have all the time in the whole universe to do and learn, earn, buy EVERYTHING i want. Forget it. I'm going. bb

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WOAAAA.
I wanna cry liaos.
i missed out the fucking fun!!!

Juz heard from eliz that they lodged a police report. Cuz they followed the idiot pervert (assummed) to be throwing the bra and panties at the back gate. -.-

They followed him for around lyk 2hrs? from 6 - 8. Haix, i missed out the fun. Anyways, i wonder wad'll happen to him. She also stated that he saw him poking the bra. -.-

Haix, 2D isn't that bad. Since everyone's so horny. There are girls who don't mind guys pulling the bra straps, and there are guys who don't mind pulling it. -.-lll But well, overall. It was funny. I guess. But ah... Nowadays, so freaking tired. Don't even feel lyk opening my eyes.

OH YA. You noe wad, i got gastric flu today.
Reason?
I didn't eat my breakfast.
Neither did i eat my dinner last nite.

Reasons for not eating my breakfast, no appetite in the morning. Dun feel lyk opening my mouth.
Reasons for not eating my dinner last nite.
TOO LAZY.

Juz as i've said b4... Sometimes i'm too lazy to even eat. Haix... Asked my mum to help me get my dinner... She scolded me and didn't do anything. So i also lie on my bed. Too lazy to go get... ><

haixxx.... No mood to do anything. And i didn't get out of table tennis. Dammit. anyways, i go off lerh... mayb come back and post ltr

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watch this everyone!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u46eaeAfeqw


It's a wtf. wtf. wtf. F that guy who made that video. U can practically call him god or wadeva. Anyways. That time when everyone misunderstood that charmaine cried. Wells. Actually, i just wan to point out smth. Well, though i dunno what it will make me sound lyk, i'll just type wadeva's on my mind.

Well, i mean, it's almost impossible for a person to cry over such things? Being pissed is perfectly fine, but cry? No way, charmaine is quite a strong girl too. So wells, just find it wierd y people hmm.... Can't think LOGICALLY.

anyways. have alot more to sae, no time
tmr, geog test. left 2 or 3hw haven done
9.14now. bb

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don't read. For my own reference only.


feeling extremely extremely pissed off now.
Feeling extremely extremely down now.

Just feeling tired.
Everyone says that
They're tired, take a break.
I'm tired,
I'm bored,
of everything that's going around me.
Sometimes i feel that no one cares.
But it's not true.
Whenever i want to say that there's no one for me.
But it's not true,
ppl says that i don't wanna open up.
But could i?
And is there a point?
I can't express myself out loud.
Neither does telling someone in secret helps.
Neither does wallowing in self-pity helps.
Keeping everything to one's self is hard.
But telling everything to someone,
is alot harder.

Not a poem. Just a post wif too many line breaks. Feeling really pissed off by many fucking things happening now. I really wonder if i should try even harder, or have i already done my best? Just when i thought that the worst is over, little did i expect that the aftermath is worse den i thought. Pathetic as i think i am, there's nth i could do about it.

For those who actually read it despite what i wrote. Forget abt this. I'm still fine, for the time-being. There still isn't a need to care.

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oh my gosh. I just have to recommend this anime!!!

Those people who well, lyk to watch those drama type of anime, or don't mind crying. Watch this anime.
Title: Air

Woa, just watched finish today. Tears did well up in my eyes, didn't fall out though. Really really really really freaking touching. If even a guy lyk me says that, u better go watch it. =DDD Cuz well, i kinda bet that u won't regret it?

hahas... The whole show is overall sad lah. But it is embedded with many sweet and sour things inbetween. So for this week, i HIGHLY recommend you guys to watch " Air "

Haix, wtf. Now i'm feeling kinda empty again thx to the anime. Just too captivated by the storyline... ARGH. Dammit~ Can't get it off my mind.

Anyways, 4test up coming if i'm not wrong. Haix, maths test tmr. No test preparations made. No mental preparations mad either. It's either that i'm not prepared for the test or i'm prepared to flunk the test. >< OH WELL.

Lyk wad mad had said. It's really too crazy to create my own image. Toooooooo time-consuming. And i nid some kind of extra interest to drive me on. Since i nowadays i turn on my com just to do some boliao stuffs lyk playing game. Though i dun really lyk the game... but wells, dun feel lyk doing other things mah. I wonder what happened to my resolution of working hard for this year. I guess it's just too hard to study without my computer. I'll rather type EVERYTHING the teacher says rather den to read/write down important notes.

Besides, i find it too troublesome to pick up my stupid pen and write down anything. I'm usually doodling away during lesson time making some kind of stupid design for fun/interest. Most of the times, i dun gif a damn abt what i wear or how i look lyk. But SOMETIMES, i kinda get very "worked up" aka hyper abt my decorations. lol. Sometimes get kinda jealous abt what other ppl wear. And i've decided that i'll probably save up some money for clothing rather den computer stuffs... hahas.

And i know it's kinda late/lag to type this out now. But i though i'll just make this as a note.

2007 resolution:
1. Advanced DHTML
2. Advanced JavaScripting
3. Basic C++ programming
4. Intermediate Graphic Designing
5. Totally understand everything the teacher is talking about
-->includes listening more in class
-->includes study at home
6. Save up some money
7. Be quite pro in PK
-->includes being able to do a flip ><
8. Try learning a new instrument
9. Dun be so sleepy
10 & beyond. Forget it, i dun have so much time.

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haix, there's too many things that i wanna sae.

Just too many things. Sry for those people who come my blog regularly to read my post. Wells, some ppl told me that my posts are getting more and more. LESS INTERESTING.... I wonder wad you guys would define as interesting.

Well, my theories and philosophiess and well.... Quite a few ppl would tag me with smth lyk, @.@ -.-lll oh wells.

Anyways, abt the counselling session thing, i guess i told quite alot of people liaos. Well, i talked to him for around 2hr? haix... Talk alot lah, dun ask me wad. Too many thing to talk abt can liaos. And for some kind of wierd reason he scheduled my nxt session on tues. Haix.

But i'm seeking him help for CAREER GUIDANCE. I'm wanna be in the IT industry. hahas.

Besides. Everything else is a loooong story. I really can't be bothered trying to remember them all. I'll just try to get the mood to update daily again. Anyways, i shall express my thanks for those who come my blog regularly again =DDD

Since you all came and got tired with my life. I'll create a new sentence of the week again!!!

I find this very true anyways lah.
In order to gain smth, you must also lose smth. The important part is how much you lose in order to gain the thing you want.

Right? right? Haix, if u don't agree with what i sae, try to list examples in which my sentence contradicts itself. =D Anyways, i'm really sry for all those late tag replies, cuz well... well... sometimes i don't visit my blog when going online.. (hehe....)

Oh anyways, my form teacher, ms jessica ng. We (me & deon) had this teacher & student conversation with her today. We set a nice record. 2hrs. We talked that long to her. 2D peeps, try to beat that man! XDDDD Wa seh, talk alot lorh. So much crap, and i requested a little tuition from her on the spot. hahas... Hope i do well for my exams. 4 upcoming nxt week if i'm wrong.

OH YA. Today ah, i take bus 89 to sch. And by some kind of RARE occurance, i slpt on the bus. And missed my freaking stop! Where did i land? Downtown east. WTF. But anyways, it is not DIRECTLY at downtown east lah, so i was able to run to pasir ris MRT and get to sch JUST IN TIME....

And yea, for those that i didn't go ur blog and tag ah. Sry lah!!! Cuz i no interest in doing blog things nowadays. Wait lah, i'll cultivate the interest tmr. Den i'll go around tagging people.

Anyways, i GIVE UP making my own image. I'll just get an image on internet and juz edit it. It's just toooooo tiring and troublesome to create my own.

And anyways, this part is done the second day. I fell aslp while listenin to music... Den forget to off com. Woke up juz realising that i haven't posted yet. that's all. lol