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It's really getting seriously irritating these days. There are many of a times that i stop talking to one person abruptly, and sometimes, i don't bother to answer ur questions, for my mother, i don't even bother talking to her.

Yah, i noe. Rude rite? But seriously, i do have a reason for doing all these. I'm getting sick of explaining myself, i'm sick of explaining every single little thing that i do. I want to write a note to my mum, but i don't have the courage, to write smth lyk that, and since i'm aware of my rude behavior, i'll probably explain it here if i've offended anyone.

You noe, all i want to say is. BELIEVE IN ME. I'm not young anymore. I know that 14 is still young, at least to my parents. Since they could easily multiply their age with mine. But so what? I CAN THINK.

I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING. Please, everything / every choice i make when i'm not joking has a reason behind it. Can everyone sometimes just stop question WHY am i doing such things? Can you just believe in me that i have though abt it and i think that it's the right choice. When i tell you to get out, it's not for the fun of it, when i say smth like, "i need to concentrate now, pls don't bother me"

My mum especially, don't care abt what i say. Almost everyone takes it as a casual remark and u can take ur time doing the things u want INFRONT of me. She would continue naggin at me, and when i shout, i'm the one at fault. I'll always be the one at fault. So it's better that i don't make any relationships worse that it is now. I just can't take it when i need to explain EVERYTHING that i do.

Why does it seems that the closest family member don't understand one-bit of me? Why does it seem that i'm JUST 14 rather den i AM 14? Do i make irrational decisions? No matter what, there is always a reason behind what i'm doing.

And one more thing. I hate giving ideas. It's too troublesome. It's too irritating. If you know that that idea is gonna work, and you couldn't get everyone to the point when u sae it. You have to explain everything out, you have to overcome everyone who oppose to ur idea. I know, it sounds lyk i'm self-centered. But sometimes, i dun give ideas because i know that no one would agree with me. Even though that idea is a possible solution to the problem.

So why bother giving an idea u noe that will be sent right back at ur face? I'm just sick of telling everyone why.