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As you can see. This is the logo i've created.
Edited ABIT with photofiltre to make the color more... distinctive.
But it's hand-drawn, and i resized it to become smaller, or else it wouldn't be black enough if i didn't do anything to it.


Well, i think i'll settle for this logo, the nxt time, i'll draw the logo as the base and use my com to edit until the lines are... near perfection. hahas.

Anyways... Still freaking tired, and if i tell u guys EVERYTHING that happened within this period of time that i didn't update, it'll probably fill up the entire page of my blog. So i guess.... mayb i'll do that.... after my dinner? And i lazy post again, so mayb juz leave it here for awhile and come back again....

okays, back. Eating dinner n posting at the same time.

Anyways, don't really feel lyk stressing my brain so much, so i'll juz briefly explain wad happened. Wells, made a present for my "daughter". With zoey, xin ni and zhen yang. Den den.... hmmm. Alot of funny things happen lah!!! Den the nxt day me, ben, qin, jos went PKing.

IT'S FUN!!! We jump from shelters, which is around.... 4/5 of a storey high... hahas. Den ltr we climp alot of things lah, very fun can liaos. lols. I look forward to more PK stuffs, but having kind of a serious muscle strain. Ache lah, but is not sore, it's overstrain, cuz we keep jumping from high grounds.

haix. The rest. TOOO LAZY.

ANYWAYS!! getting counselled tmr!!! so excited, wonder wad he'll tell me. I don't think i'll think of wad to sae to him, i'll just wait for what he'll sae to me!

oh forget it. too lazy to type. cyas~ oh wtf. I'm in the com lab posting now.
And that kang lei spent lyk around as much time as i used to type 3people's chart for his 1 chart. LOL. Oh wells. Kinda bored now, so juz chiong one post. For fun. PK is fun. But somehow someway, in this computer with something wrong with it, can't display the post i posted yesterday. Oh wells, wth.

Now jos and kai liang beside me, and jos is complainin tt i didn't link him, which is smth that i would do. If i eva think of him when using my computer.

Besides, i've made a logo for my blog. Hand-drawn, i will put it up ltr, den when i got time, i'll use computer to make that logo. So that the texture is refined..... Oh wells, the new blogskin. Is taking a long time to do, since i want to make it to be able to support IE7.0, firefox, netscape and opera browsers properly. =D

that's all for chionging my post. tata~

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first thing.
Reply to tags:

23rd jan:
jos: no, it means that i don't have THAT much interest in girls than u do.
mad: hahas. ty ty.
zoey: yo daughter! yep yep, ty for supporting my theory.

24th jan:
qin: when i got time, i will relink, on my new blog, i really too lazy
sheena: hello, sure, if i got the time...
mad: hahas, okay lah, new exp, new life? hahas
jos: ya la ya la. -.- stated kinda clearly.

25th jan:
cf: kkaes, i think i going. And i noe i noe i noe, i noe u love jay, but seriously. ME TOO! but shhh, dun keep tellin me abt it. I'll try to sms u, if i rmb... lol, STM.
xn: hahas~ oh, i'll explain ltr.

26th jan:
zoey: yepz~ explain ltr.
mad: my ass!!! lol
xn: probably XDDD
sha: hello! ya lorh, i oso long nv visit urs, really no mood to go blog jumping XDDD
pam: >< my ass lah-.- lolzzz.

27th jan:
jos: it isn't THAT popular ya noe?
mad: gd.
xn: mamee in my stomach. shhh.

28th jan:
teri: duh, lol. train lorh, COOL OKAY?
jos: JUMPING KING!

aiya, u noe ppl jumping around? over railings, cross buildings, on walls. That's PK, if u still dunno wad i'm talkin about. watch this video

okays? sry for not replyin the tags sooner. And if i got time i would post again. tata!

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Ah hah. We're are gonna start a PK club. Those in AHS sec2 who know me and have interest in joining the club. Please inform me.

Still deciding on the name. Oh wells, it won't be those crazy stunts, but if any of u have been in a PK club, can just lyk, pass some knowledge to us? hahas. Makes things easier. So far, qin, ben, jos had agreed to it. I wonder how it would turn out.

Oh wells. I look forward to what things we would do together.

Well, i'm still learnin my javascript, period. I don't care abt other things liaos. Too many interest. No long torturous posts for u today. tata~

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oh. Before i start anything. AHS people, remember a tiny slip they gave us last year asking if we have and troubles we wanna tell someone?

Do u rmb? You dont?
Me too.

I suddenly got a call from coach daniel. Sec4 SC, asking me about that. And arranged an appointment for me to meet him at the "counsel" room if i'm not wrong. And i was kinda blur and keep saying. "ah. ah. ah. ah. ah." And hence it was settled. Well, subsequently, i remembered abt that little slip they gave us. Which was kinda LOOOOOOOONG ancient history.

Wells, and hence, this landed me into a counseling session.

Honestly, i do not know wth would happen, and i hope it would be a nice experience. lols. oh wells, forget it for now. Today qin hui dropped a beaker during sci lab, and payed $5.50. Which is kinda LOL when he made so much noise. lols.

Anyways, i'm gonna chiong finish jscript before i start on C++ since jscript would be kind of a basic programming that i'll learn...

hmm, oh wells. Work hard everyone. (so that i can copy)
that's all. cya~

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okay. i won't critisize anyone here. But neither would i be phrasing it in the best way i could.

You see, i don't really care THAT much about what you say about me. I'm not trying to say that u're wrong, but neither am i saying that you're right. It's your opinion, fine, no right or wrong.

But most of the times, our opinions are judged by the people around us whether if it's right or wrong. Sometimes, it's just better not to write out what you think that directly. But then again, at least to me, i don't mind people critisizing me. As long as it's not out of the point.

Next time, if u really have any opinions about me, just tell it straight at my face or msn. I won't be fucked-up by this. But if you want the whole world to know what u're thinking while u hide your thoughts in school. Think abt it again b4 writing it down.

The feeling of irritatedness you got when ben KIND OF "invovled" DJ into this matter, is the same when ben read your blog. Close friends understand each other better. What he knows about DJ isn't what you know abt him. And what ben knows about me isn't what YOU know abt me. If you know that DJ gets really irritated when people talks about him and you. Why not try to think that sher might think the same too?

Even though there's no 2similiar people, many people may have the similiar thinkings, no matter how slight they are, that is what makes us friends. I dunno why, but i think you have a bad impression of me.

Strictly speaking, i know i sound lyk some kind of childish guy probably trying to act mature, but that is what I say. It's everyone's choice to believe it or not. Even though i didn't read ur posts, i probably know what you've said in the posts. And i'll explain it here. So that next time anyone wants to talk abt this again. Think abt it.

I swear on my name that, even if i DO seem lyk flirting, chasing girls around, talking to them merrily, or whateva behavior that may be deemed as flirting, i have no intention of doing so. The kind of feeling i have towards girls is the same as i have towards guys. If you notice, or think back, the things that i do with the guys is the same as the girls.

Honestly, i do not have any interest in girls. (relationships/wateva) I just want everyone to stay as good friends. I came with the intention of a friend, not a foe. Even though i may like a girl, i still treat her as a friend. No matter what. Though it's true that i like to hang out with some people more, it's the same for everyone else, isn't it?

At least for me, i think that a girl and a guy can remain as good friends forever. I know that practically everyone else would disagree with me. But this IS what I think.

I'll stop here. Until further questions arises. I'll repeat again. This is what I think. You may disagree with it, or choose not to believe in it. But that's all i have to say.

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oh wells.
I'm re-doing my skin.
Reasons:
It didn't turn out the way i wanted it to.
It looks too cartoonish.
It didn't compromise the effect i wanted to have.
It didn't have a nice drop-shadow.

Those are the reasons for me to redo my skin. Oh wells. I wonder how would the redo look lyk. Haix, since my current class don't really have any interest in the class blog, i guess I'll juz leave it the way it looks until someone actually suggest what theme they want. hahas

Nowadays, juz can't seem to find the mood to do my hw. I'm finding myself prioritising my privacy more and more. I just seem to get pissed when my parents just barge into my room and check on what i'm doing. Argh, i wonder if this is just some kind of wierd attitude i have or is this just part of growing up.

Oh wells, i'll noe it sooner or later when i grow up. Oh wells, i also nid to kick the i-dun-care-abt-anything attitude soon too. lols, i really can't seem to be bothered by anything, though it's smth gd, it's also smth bad? haahs.

Recently, another of my friend went into a relationship downfall again. Actually, sometimes i wonder if it's courage or stupidity to keep trying for something which hurts you? Izzit the courage or stupidity which causes people to do that? And one day, i saw smth on the typing speed test dialogue.

"When one door closes, another one opens. But often, people looks regretfully on the door that has closed and didn't notice the door that had opened."

This is life ain't it? I'm still tryin to find a way to live one's life unregretfully. (even though it's kinda impossible) Actually, there are many things i regret writing on my blog. Lyk after i wrote them, i thought abt it for the night, and kinda find many things i missed out, things which i think people will misunderstand. And somehow, i just felt confused and regreted posting. Do anyone else feel this way???

Anyways. I suck in designing, so i think that the upcoming skin won't be THAT great as i've said again...

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It's really getting seriously irritating these days. There are many of a times that i stop talking to one person abruptly, and sometimes, i don't bother to answer ur questions, for my mother, i don't even bother talking to her.

Yah, i noe. Rude rite? But seriously, i do have a reason for doing all these. I'm getting sick of explaining myself, i'm sick of explaining every single little thing that i do. I want to write a note to my mum, but i don't have the courage, to write smth lyk that, and since i'm aware of my rude behavior, i'll probably explain it here if i've offended anyone.

You noe, all i want to say is. BELIEVE IN ME. I'm not young anymore. I know that 14 is still young, at least to my parents. Since they could easily multiply their age with mine. But so what? I CAN THINK.

I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING. Please, everything / every choice i make when i'm not joking has a reason behind it. Can everyone sometimes just stop question WHY am i doing such things? Can you just believe in me that i have though abt it and i think that it's the right choice. When i tell you to get out, it's not for the fun of it, when i say smth like, "i need to concentrate now, pls don't bother me"

My mum especially, don't care abt what i say. Almost everyone takes it as a casual remark and u can take ur time doing the things u want INFRONT of me. She would continue naggin at me, and when i shout, i'm the one at fault. I'll always be the one at fault. So it's better that i don't make any relationships worse that it is now. I just can't take it when i need to explain EVERYTHING that i do.

Why does it seems that the closest family member don't understand one-bit of me? Why does it seem that i'm JUST 14 rather den i AM 14? Do i make irrational decisions? No matter what, there is always a reason behind what i'm doing.

And one more thing. I hate giving ideas. It's too troublesome. It's too irritating. If you know that that idea is gonna work, and you couldn't get everyone to the point when u sae it. You have to explain everything out, you have to overcome everyone who oppose to ur idea. I know, it sounds lyk i'm self-centered. But sometimes, i dun give ideas because i know that no one would agree with me. Even though that idea is a possible solution to the problem.

So why bother giving an idea u noe that will be sent right back at ur face? I'm just sick of telling everyone why.

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my current skin looks lyk crap. So does my upcoming skin. I couldn't get it the way i wanted it to be. So sry luhs. Anyways, for the tags arh. Real sry for not replying ur tags lah...

But as u noe... I look liao i too tired to reply. I'll reply to them ASAP kaes? Sry for those who come and tag regularly.

Nowadays, sch isn't that bad. It wasn't bad at all. It just isn't good enough. I have such a nice chinese teacher who talks alot of crap, and splurt out pervertic things lyk they were everyday's normal stuff. Though we shld keep an open mind, a mind that is too open isn't that welcomed in Singapore.

If you just go around telling people anything that isn't smth u hear from a person normally... There'll probably be a commotion abt how sick you are. Rather then just discussing those crap topic and making a fun out of it.

Anyways, one of the funny/quite dumb things i notice that people normally do is that. When smth lyk electronic devices didn't work as well. The first reaction is to whack it. Lyk, when u type smth and that letter juz couldn't come out, u'll slam at that button expecting it to work...

The person will usually hit if first before actually checking what's wrong. Right? I really wonder why humans think that by hitting things, instead of spoiling it, you'll repair it instead. Oh wells. And that many people would walk around the whole room searching for the remote controller for the TV juz becuz they're just too lazy to walk up to the TV and change the channel.

Sometimes, when the class is noisy, and we want to make an announcement... Usually, we would not wait for the class to quiet down, we'll just try to use a higher voice to capture the class's attention, not thinking that it'll actually make the class noisier. No one ever tried telling the class to keep quiet before telling the msg.

They'll just shout of the msg, expecting everyone to listen to him. But instead of listening to him, everyone would just use a even higher volume to talk to his friends in order for them to hear.

Well, juz pointing out 3obvious things that i find people do which is quite dumb.

Cuz so long nv post lerh, so juz gif a long one lorh... This one would be really long. And then again, i stress that you do not nid to read the rest of this post anymore. Since this is my blog, i juz want to keep memories of what kind of thinking i had at this moment, this time. So don't bother reading if you don't want to.

I've just realised that everyone is equal. I don't mean gender. I mean, every single one. I mean, no matter u're a guy, girl, tall short or wadeva. We're all the same. Same as in, the amount of things we go through. The ratio is the same, not the amount, but the RATIO.

For an example, a clever person would enjoy knowing more things, winning other people in various things and subjects. They could get a girlfriend, or get a job wif a fat pay. Enjoying life the way they want to.

For a normal person. He would be able to lead a normal life without a very big change in his life. Like having a family and leading a peaceful life earning enough for one's self and some entertainment.

For a low IQ person, he wouldn't be able to get that much of a desired job. But still, he could just live by his days with JUST enough money for his family. And leading a NOT so pleasant lifestyle.

For the above 3. I can conclude that the things they go through is almost the same. Probably 100% same. As we always want to get more, if each of them got a rise in the salary, let's take 10%. All of them would be happy. And the amount of satisfaction wouldn't be any lesser for anyone of them.

A person with high pay may be able to enjoy life better, but they take lost/downfall more seriously den other people does. For a person without a gd life, they are able to enjoy and appreciate the little things that they gain, they can appreciate things that those rich people can't! They can also accept losts more easily. And they know the importance of not giving up as much as those rich people do when doing business!


A clever person may noe more things, but they also know the cruelty of the society and suffer from the knowledge of it. But they made it up by making use of they IQ to strive in it. For a lower IQ person, he may not know things that he (shld) noe, but he also don't know things he shouldn't noe! He will be able to live happily with only troubles of his own, and not others.

For example of people who had gone true some tough situations, they will experience more pain then others, but so would they be able to enjoy happiness more then others as they've experienced it before. For those who hasn't gone through much, they would have quite an equal amt of both pain and happiness. And hence, this equals the ratio between them again.

So wells. If you had read it, what do you think of my theory? I find it quite true. Do you?

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YES YES YES!

Finally my new computer!

Upgrades:
Intel Pentium D Processor 820 2.8GHz (2x1MB L2 Cache, 512MB DDR, 80GB HDD, Read & Write CD & DVD with Lightscribe Technology, Double layer (8.5GB), Integrated ATI Radeon Xpress 200 Hypermemory supporting up to 256MB.

Pentium D, sounds nice huh? Hahas

I'VE FINALLY GOT A COM THAT BELONGS TO ME AND ME ONLY!!!
Ah wells. Finally i have the time AND chance to finish my blogging activity and do the 2D class blog.... So... well, i'll try my best and do my job as the IT rep... so dens, cya~

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ah.... so long nv post liaos!

Sry ah! Those who come to my blog. Cuz nowadays not much mood to post, and can't stay long at the computer too. But i'm trying my VERY BEST to create the new skin. I won't publish it until it's perfect...

So it could take some time, hahas. And ummm. I also haf nth much to sae lah. but if i'm not wrong, my new skin would finally be the first skin i make that has that "map" property if you guys get wad i mean. Wells, i'll design it as much as i could, so that it'll look lyk a cool web rather den a sec boy's blog. hahas.

So den~ byes~ i'll update AMAP (as much as POSSIBLE) XP

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crap. i'm rushing a short post. just for fun before i slp. oh wells.

To those that i haven't link. I'll do that when i have the time and i rmb. lols. But ur link will be up there when my new skin comes up. So rest assure.

Sigh, so slpy. Tmr got sch again. 1 new week with new troubles and problems and hw. Sigh, is this cycle eva gonna end before i end sch? haix. forget it. i haf nth else to sae buh-bye

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sleep is all i need.
and sleep is the one that is missing from me.

argh. Damn this. If only humans do not nid to sleep. Life would be so great, dammit. Anyways, i'm currently working on a new skin. Since i've grown to hate this current skin. And somehow i'm growing to hate blogger as well.

It simply ignores the HTML style rules i type out. fuk this new system lah. Keep dao-ing me one. Zzzz!!! if only if i were rich. I'll do soooooo many things out there lah. Haix.

So well... this time, you can really expect a blog work which isn't a rush work. hahas. oh wells. I also have nth much to sae now. So byes den

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Finally. Oh, i'm finally 14.
Isn't that great? My mum gave birth to me on this fateful day, and hence i have to celebrate it each and every year. Oh wells. It does give me a sense of seniority in my class. Even though there's no practical use of it...

Anyways, i think i nid to get a teacher to counsel me liao. Need to straighten out my thinkings. Oh wells, forget it. I can barely keep myself awake these days. I'm half-dead in my class. Half-dead when using the computer, i'm barely awake. It's just such a fine line between being awake and aslp.

Even though an emo post is alot more interesting. I don't think there's much use of it. I guess i'm going to create a personal blog and vent everything in it. I guess that solves the problem much much more easily. The only problem i have now is to wait for my stupid com to arrive. HAIX.

I shouldnt have used so much computer in the holidays. Now i can't use my own computer. What a torture.

Anyways, this is in my MSN nick and personal msg.
" is time or money more precious?
if you had all the time in this world, you'll die with no money,
if you had all the money in this world, you'll die with no time. "

am i rite or wrong? oh wells. Think abt it. hhahas

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ah~ stupid sch.
Why has it become such a hardworking sch all of a sudden? Everyone was slacking, taking time off here and there, and they came to us with such a heavy blow.

Even a person like me has to do his hw now. How unfair can the world be? And my form teacher is a trainee teacher. who is now a permanent teacher this year. A teacher who teaches us maths. Preferrably called a "student" who teaches us maths.

She got stuck today in her first time teaching 2D. She called a question "lame~" when she dunno how to explain to us. Den in the end, she made mistakes in her working and the class was correcting her mistakes. So it's really a LOL event where-by we're actually teaching the teacher. I think there's no future for maths in 2D. (tt's wad everyone else saes)

Ummm, so i haven been posting for the past few days. Cuz no mood, no time, and yea. i guess taht's it. Have to wait until my dumb com arives den i can sit properly on my bed using it without the fear of being chased out of my room. So hmmm...

So it's expected that i won't be posting really oftenly these days. haix... I gues i haf to work harder this year. Which is theorotically impossible. haix~ I miss the computer so much!

Hence, i've volunteered to be the IT rap (which i would haf became anyways). Juz love (rather miss) typing too much~ I love computers. I love slping. Since sch starts, i've been really really really slpy and tired. Even during PE, after 10mins (mayb 8... due to some unforseen circumstances) of continuous running, i sat down immediately and nearly fell aslp.

Oh wells. look forward to the day where by my com arrives. till den... JUST LOOK FORWARD LARH

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oh~ unable to post ytd. WASTED...
haix, and it was 1stjan too!!! crapz...

anyways, had my so called "birthday party" today.

uh. i very tired now. have headache. wil try to post the details tmr