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i guess this is it. The end of year 2006.

The last day of the first year as a secondary school student. I guess this year would hold a great importance to all sec1s, as we made many new friends in our school. The first and last impressions of this year. The memories we've shared with everyone.

There are many things i couldn't let go, i guess. For today. Mayb tomorrow as well. I'm inserting music into my blog. There's this song which kinda expresses... probably the feeling everyone else would feel while thinking back at their memories.

sry. but since it's a rushed thing, u'll haf to play it urself. hahas. try listenin lah. not a bad song anyways, haas.

this year, there are many things which i regreted doing, and many things i regreted not doing. Well, i guess this will also mark the 1st year of blogging. At least, my memories are in a valid source. hahas.

nowadays, i haf some kind of slpin disorder. I slp at around 6 or 7am these days, den wake up at around 2 ~ 3pm in the afternoon. I wonder what's gonna happen when sch starts. I hope i'll recover by then.

for tmr's so called party. come at anytime u wan lah. not too late can liao. no presents needed. I don't really treat it much of a birthday party. It's smth more of a... come-my-hse-and-play thing to me. Anyways, if it gets boring tmr. Dun blame me for it. I am totally clueless to what i'm supposed to do. And i'm too lazy to plan anything. Since there isn't much i can do. If i plan to go out, den it's meaningless to come my hse.

And if we go down and play, surely would not play that... "closely" in a sense with each other. So it defeats the purpose of having fun. SO... I decide to let nature take it's course. All of u noe lah. I'm not that kind of person who plan smth and do things that chronologically. Even if i did plan smth. It surely won't go accordin to my plans. hahas.

I'll try to get the permit to use both my bro's com, and the xbox as well. So we won't be so bored. My mum wanted singing. She saes that my friend would want it. =.=lll So... if she REALLY is gonna on karoke tmr... Dun blame me for nething. LOL

Anyways. I wanna talk to someone. My birthday wish, is to get myself out of this confusion. I'm really really REALLY confused over alot alot of things. My mind is really a blank. I want to talk to someone abt it. Someone who is really firm on their own thinkings. I hope tere'll be someone who would offer me his/her help.

So den... let's countdown to 2007 den. sayonara, 2006.

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omg. i so long nv post liao. sry ah guys.

But i'm kinda lazy to post nowadays. And don't have much chance to post... haix.. I slpt at 6am ytd. Cuz watch anime too much. And had my ex-class 6A's bbq. I'm too tired and lazy to go on explaining further.

I may not post tt often in the following days. So... well.... i hope i get the mood!

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okay. I lyk very lag lyk that.
But.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

haix... i reply all the tags here first.

xinni: LOLS. yea, after all these years. wakakaka~
sha: merry xmas!!! nth for me to love about.
sean: happy x year! merry new mas. =.=
mad: -.-? ok nvm. merry christmas!
xinni: ok... u think so? me too. =] LOL
jas: oic. i'll do that ASAP. cuz i really really don't have the time to do blogskinning. merry x'mas~! oh relax, cheer up. know that at least this guy's christmas is surely going to be more lonely den urs.
zoey: merry x'mas! oh, too used to calling ur full name HAHAS.
greena: merry x'mas~!
siow may: eeeee, last time sae until so nice. hoax sia! LOL. jk. it's okay, i'll feel bad if u brought any presents. hahas.


anyways. sry ah everyone! didn't post ytd, cuz didn't have the chance to post. i'm now posting past mid-night again. okaes. Anyways... I oso have nth much to sae. today (referring to 25th dec), i went to city harvest church in expo.

Well, i lyked the drama. It was nice. But den again. I hope i'm not offending any christians. But i dun really care. I juz feel that, after the wadeva "service", all those words of... "holiness" is some kind of crap. Which can be further defined into common sense + nonsense. Really, not joking. Mayb i'm too scientific. Mayb i'm juz limiting myself into disbelieving smth which could actually be true.

But, den again. After a few encounters, i've realised that it's useless talking abt such stuffs. Since it's what that person really believe from the bottom of it's heart. There's no point trying to shake that believe away. Juz lyk my believe for science. hahas. anyways........ since christmas is over. I'll tok abt some emo and crap stuff again.

you're not forced to read or agree.
i repeat.
you're not forced to read or agree.

cuz one day when i was in jas blog. juz lookin around. i saw the bar at the bottom (sry, i wasn't really focusin on ur main content LOL). Den it read smth kinda. -.- sad. well she changed it anyways. but if i'm not wrong. it said smth lyk...
"if everyone else doesn't care, why should i even care? smiles..i wanna live happily 4eva..can i??"

ok, this is gonna be long. juz take it that i'm bored if u're reading this.

Wells, if EVERYONE ELSE REALLY didn't care... yea, i guess u're right. You don't have the need to care. But there is ALWAYS someone else who cares. Both non and scientifically. Be it care or love. There'll never be a day when there is none. It is just HOW MUCH of it others can give you.

I think i've told one of my friends before. It's all about humans. I've also said this before.
"it isn't LOVE which is the start of everything, it is the ambitious and conquerous heart which humans posseses which starts everything."
and that
"there is no such thing as a pure human being."

why so? If people gave u smth consistently. A thing which you will NEVER run out of. Smth which you have NEVER worked hard for. Smth that EVERYONE ELSE has. Is there a value in it? Nah~ What would be the "duh" response? "i want MORE". When smth captures our attention, our interest. What's our first INSTINCTIVE reaction before critical thinking skills come in? "i WANT this"

Isn't it so? If said scientifically. Care, concern, laughter, is nth more than a mere social skill. Of cuz, if someone really said that seriously out loud, it wouldn't be tolerated by others, would it? If it was treated lyk an object, rather den a feeling of emotion, it wouldn't be tolerated by others, wuold it? Even so. It is wad everyone has been doing. We always... ALWAYS expect something MORE from others. When you lyk another person, you don't usually think of, "i should pay more attention to her/him" but rather "i WISHED/WANT her/him to pay more attention to ME"

Self-centered isn't it? Of cuz, this whole society is runned by our self-centeredness. If one day the world's top class group of scientist came out and tell everyone what they've been doing, it'll cause total chaos wouldn't it? Even as i'm speaking. I feel that i've been selfish. Why am i? If you had been reading all along, ATTENTIVELY. Then you'll realise that you have certain doubts, disbelieve along the way. But i eventually cover it up with POSSIBLE "fabricated" tales, stories, lies. And probably some evidence. Which is COMMON SENSE... Now, READ AGAIN. And tell me what you think of what i've said so far?

It feels lyk i'm trying to cheat, trying to psycho all of you ain't i? Sry to sae. But religion works the same way.

To me. AT LEAST to me. I feel that there's no such thing as a SOLID TRUTH!!! Truth is defined by mankind. Truth is WHAT mankind CREATES. Truth, in this society, can only be compared to honesty. Isn't it? Think of how people have used truth up till now. I know that throughout the whole thing. Some parts feels kinda out of place, but that also shows how much confusion my mind is facing everyday.

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heys! everyone!

this is a short post.
On 27th. Anyone wan to go escape with me?
Pls inform me by calling/smsing/tagging.

ty~ HOHOHO. MERRY CHRISTMAS. (early)

3 more days to christmas. Don't really look forward to it. It only brings me closer to doom. Oh wells, but really. I don't really THAT much of a WANT-IT-TO-COME that type of feeling. Since it doesn't really holds much importance to me. Hahas.

Anyways ah. I holdin my brithday party (for the first time) -not really according to my will- at either 31st dec or 1st jan. I'm inviting this list of people. If those you see you dun think they'll read my blog. Please help me pass this message to them.

6A:
Adriel
Edison
Gabriel
Darren
Kuan Yu
Sean
Siow May
Xin ni
Zoey Phee
Zheng Xi
Shannen

Sec 1C:
Qin Hui
Benedict
Deon
Pamela
Jasmine
Shermaine

ARGH. Sry ah, those i nv invite. I thought abt it. And these are the "unconfirmed" friends

-vivien accompany
.mingli
.teri
.joan

will invite if others can't. Cuz if invite le will exceed the limit. (20 ppl) and that it will cause a global inbalance in the difference of gender.

-other friends (other schs)
.mad
.sherri
.jerome
.anyone else i forgot (at this moment)

my mum duno u all mah. I'll have a hard time explaining to her. -esp. girls-

-other classes (RVPS or AHS)

too many people liao. My hse only HDB not a bunglow lyk Glen's. lolz. Sry ah!

anyways. It seems that i have invited alot more of my pri sch friends. Kinda imblanced. But i think some wouldn't be able to come. Den i can call the other group. Sry ah, vivien's accompany. My pri sch friends is at least 2years together and above, usually 3years and above.

Cuz i'm in a fix if you ask me to list out the people i'll invite from my pri sch. which there are still some people lyk, gar wai, hui ting, hui min, jing yu, mei tian, yu jun. Zzz!!! please understand my circumstances for the choices made.

And PLEASE. reply me ASAP. Preferably by SMS. Thx. i'll update again when i have the chance

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10th dec.

junni: yea... i'm back. lols. i hope my bed miss me!
mad: finally. u're the only one. hahas~ ty~
teri: ok lorh. point taken. yea. thx for comnig! hahas.
michaela: okay. i take it as i didn't see anything.

11th dec.
poo: WOA. you gd seh. really tag me ASAP eh!
sha: yepz. hahas. how sad. u're gonna miss me rite?

12th dec.
mad: hahas. cleaning? i'm too lazy to do that.
sher: hahas. okay lorh~ hmm... but my life is so boring? it's really tiring to keep spicing it up with fanciful words and tones. yep! i'll keep improving my blog.
junni: don't worry. she won't come back. (i think)
pam: you got dog meh? i dunno eh. LOLS. eeeee. sounds wrong.
eliada: it shows the depth of my knowledge the the lousy standard of my english.

13th dec.
siow may: okay, i'll do that ASAP.
teri: uh huh....
sha: does it seems lyk i've updated? lolzzzz

14th dec.
junni: sry lah... Can't help it. it's beyond my limits! hahas.

15th dec.
pam: ya lorh... i over-exerted it too much. hahas. not i dun wan lah. but troublesome for you mah!

16th dec.
jas: my com beyond repair. i changing com lerh. ok loh. nth gd, nth bad.
pam: NOT I SPAM DE LAH!!! my stupid friend keep pressing "post" zzz... will trouble u mah... hahs.
spiderman: woa, who are you? =.=
debra: HI debra. i'm fine, just bored. sincerely yours, kkh.

17th dec.
xinni: 5 posts. DAMN that darren.
greena: HELLOS. argh... lame. -.-

19th dec.
zoey: finally hor!!!
teri: hahas. nth gd, nth bad. it's fine. hahas.




YAY! finally replied all those tags. (i'm so proud of myself!) argh. i'm posting past midnight again. 1.33am this time. See? i'm making such an effort for my blog. -applause- okay anyways. i guess it's time to start attacking my hw. I have a rough 14days left before school starts.

And anyways. Anglican high ah. what have the sec ones done wrong to you for you to torture us this way? you start by telling us that we will split class. And you can't tell us our god damned class when school is already about to start? Zzz!!! If they don't tell us our class by then... Which class should we walk into?

grrr... my time schedule is totally wrecked up. I think i'll start doing hw tmr. Ladies and gentlemen. Please kindly turn your HP on at all times. lols.

well then. i'll leave my wonderful blog building campaign till my own (new)computer arrives. till then. i'll CHIONG for my hw. I don't really wanna slp through my sec2s ya noe?

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as my post title have said, so pathetic.

I'm posting at 4am now. Secretly posting. Becuz i can't use the computer in the day. Haix. even so, i'll try to post as often as POSSIBLE...

Oh wells, i'm back in the tycoon buisness. Currently playing Airport Tycoon 3. Can't watch anime. Cuz no time to wait for the stupid video in youtube to load. Oh wells. have been goin to adriel's and darren's hse quite oftenly nowadays. Stay at home nth to do mah. hahas.

Oh yea, btw. I've finally finished learning XHTML. Look forward to a new and nice skin. I hope, if i got the time and opportunities to do the skin. hahas. So i'm learning XML now. Which is kinda the new standard for BLOGGER beta. But omfg. XML is alot alot alot easier to use once you've learn how to use.

At least u get to choose and define the for yourself. Hmmm, even after i've learnt XHTML, i dont have the chance to even try to see if what i've learnt is correct anot. I guess i'll juz have to wait for my chance... hah~ And yea teri, the chalet was okay~ Nth gd, nth bad. hahas.

Hmmm, had this "wierd" conversation with cheryl on sms today. She said smth lyk... in chinese lah~ "treasure the things around you before they're gone"
i replied: " no matter how much u treasure everything, you'll still regret the same amt or even more when it's gone"
cheryl: "that's y we have to learn to let go. So that we won't regret so much"
me: "den it makes no difference if u treasure anot, you just have to let go, don't ya?"

I guess it's near impossible to live one's life without any regrets. How could we learn to treasure a thing (anything) which we had always taken for granted, and NEVER worked hard to get it before? Oh, i'll stop here. I don't want to give any theory lessons. At least not now. hahas.

HEY BUDDIES!
I NID YOUR HELP!

my hol hw haven't do yet... hehe. Get wad i mean??? can't do luh. No com. So one day if you're the lucky one which appeared in my phone list instead of the others... please give me your full support and cooperation. I will thank you deeply for your efforts in saving my life.

ok den... its 4.15am now. I think i'm going back to slp. really realy very slpy. So till den, byes~!

posted at 1:50 AM

computer crashed

Saturday, December 16, 2006

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YO GUYS.

Didn't post for around a week lerh. Sry ah~ I think i watch anime non-stop for lyk at least 12hrs a day and non-stop for around 1 week. I guess that's the price i have to pay.

My computer power box the fuse FUSED... And my graphic card is burnt. Aww man. Den juz ordered a new computer which will arrive around 1 month ltr. It's a pentium 4. (finally... my previous com was a lousy pentium 3) upgraded with 256 graphic and 80GB hard-drive.

I now at my friend hse. Cuz my internet connection also down until 19th of decemeber. Cuz subscribe new network, den my old modem can't support the new connection, so they will help us change the modem FOC.

oh wells. for the time being. I'll try to update my blog as oftenly as possible. hahas.

Hmmm, the chalet... nth much to talk abt oso. lols. It's a long story anyways. The 1st night slept at 6am... Zzzz....

posted at 11:18 AM

FINALLY.

Friday, December 08, 2006

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At last.
FINALLY.

the ticket is booked, i'm going back to SG tmr. YEAH~ At least i can finally take a nice trip back to my cosy home. Zzz... I still miss my bed alot sia... So sian around here can? It's not lyk there's anything bad abt malaysia. It's just that there isn't anything GOOD abt it.

-.-? Oh wells, i still haven link junni who tagged me a few days ago. lolz~ Have been going on MSN these few days.... but still sian infront of the com. I still lyk my own com. HIGH-SPEED CONNECTION (BHB) lol.

oh wells, i shall tell u guys smth wierd. and lame when i get back tmr. BUH-BYE

posted at 7:48 PM

i miss my bed

Thursday, December 07, 2006

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AWWW MAN~
I MISS MY BED!!! my bed is so soft, tender and juicy~

I miss my room so god dammed much. It's so boring around here. But, i have increase my patience level TREMENDOUSLY. I can now sit down and not move at all for at least 15mins. Oh wells. I can keep myself occupied for around 3hrs before feeling a sense of boredom.

That's a great improvement from last time. Isn't it?

And i learnt how to be a REALLY quiet person. Lyk someone in the anime who don't say anything unless it's smth important or for manner's sake reply another person. Nice seh? I find it so much easier to keep my mouth shut. LOL.

Oh wells. Nth much has happened anyways. Looking forward to go back to SG. Anyways, it seems that i've been ranked as a despo person liaos. OH WELLS, it'll be alot easier to find a GF in the future. OH WELLS. HAHA. But, hmmm.... steadin is kinda troublesome. isn't it?

posted at 4:36 PM

opps, i'm bored again.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

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aiya, i reply to tags here, too lazy to tag back at my tagboard

junni: oh, kkaes...

Pam: awww. but this one not too tall or fat or skinny eh!!! And he very cute de lorh! WASTED sia~ You have hatred for love? =O I have hatred for everything that is too troublesome. =p. You lucky nv die lorh. I MISS U LYK SIAO EH. lol. looking forward to the chalet...

Jas: Eh, u sure u dun wan anot? Or izzit you have liao? Hahas. He's damn cute and childish lyk u de lorh. Perfect match wad. XDDD

Mad: HIGH-5. Blog HTML is the only thing i'm familiar with, so i'm now learning HTML to create websites. Now can make a plain website lerh. hahas. That's y i wanna learn XML to further increase my knowledge. HAHA


Eh, i've recently realised what XHTML is, cuz last time i thought that XHTML is the upgrade from HTML. Well, theorotically it's correct larh, but XHTML is the evolution of HTML and XML combined. Cool eh? I will chiong to learn finish these 3things and create a personal website. hahas.

Ya know, i'm reallly pissed when people just ignore what i says and tell me another thing.

I ASKED FOR OPINIONS WHAT TO DO WITH THIS BLOG

izzit that hard? I don't think so, yea? So please, GIVE ME UR DAMNED opinion. Oh wells, even though i'm in malaysia, i'm still taking time off to watch anime.

OH YEA, ytd i went to genting, for the first time. =.=lll sua ku eh. Well, overall it was quite fun larh, to a certain extent. I juz don't get why my cousin is screaming his head off while taking the roller coaster when it's fun and not scary.

Actually i was tensed lah, but i "calculated" the amt of G-force being pressed down and the angle of inclination, so it isn't that unexpected and scary to me. More of, ic ic, i "calculated" correctly. hahas. There is only 1 ride i have taken out of the rest which is unexpected. The amt of force experienced is more den i expected. So i find that more fun. hahas.

Hmm.. I can take the heat from the sun, but i can't take cold. I dunno why. I juz hate coldness alot alot alot. =

posted at 12:52 PM

posting again!

Monday, December 04, 2006

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yay! Can use the com again. Shiok. Looks lyk my fate with computers isn't gonna end that fast... I'm at KL now, in my 2nd aunt's hse. hahas.

Then tmr most lykly will go genting. Oh wells, hope can use computer tmr. As i have expected, this trip has been boring so far. I don't understand a single word of dilect they use. =| I sit there nv sae anything at all, watching them talk.

Luckily, i have 2 cousins which 1 is my age and the other i think 2years younger. EH! Pam! Jas! Sher! I've found a BF for u guys. My cousin oso 13years old. Around ur height & size. XD~

And wow, my aunt can make buns. Uh, meat buns, vege buns. If u get wad i mean. And it actually tastes very nice~ hahas. Kinda surprised. Hmm... I'll keep this short. So, BYE!

posted at 1:39 PM

posting in malaysia

Sunday, December 03, 2006

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WOOTS~ im' now posting in malaysia in my cousin hse. LOL.

So freaking slpy after the stupid bus ride from JB to KL. Zzz, feel lyk dying already, lucky there's this computer to revive me. Hmm... I think i'll juz post for fun and do the recollection after the whoe trip, i guess it'll be whole lot funnier.

Anyways, i gaf my mum a bubble gum den she tried to blow it, den make a really small on e den make the make a funny mouth shape, smth lyk, if u stick a bamboo stick into the person's mouth. Yea, smth lyk that. I laugh lyk siao lorh... Hmmm, dun feel lyk typing liaos byes

posted at 4:47 PM

sayonara~

Friday, December 01, 2006

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YO YO~ I'm going off to malaysia for around a week...
starting, TOMORROW

Let's see, i probably can't post for the rest of the week. Hmm, since i'm going off, i chiong finish 1 more anime today. hahas. Shakugan no Shana. Nice anime =DDD Oh wells, but tsubasa was better, becuz tsubasa has 28 more episodes den that show haha!

Omg, i can't believe i have to part my beloved computer for so long!!! Anyways, borrowed 2 books from the libabry ytd. Went with shannen hahas. Oh wells, it's abt HTML, XHTML, CSS and XML.

My mum knew i borrowed some books from the library,. but dunno wad type of books, so she juz ask me to bring there and read. Seems lyk my bond with computer is too strong after all. But it's kinda thick and heavy, so i'll think abt it. hahas.

I would try to make this post as long as possible. So dun read it all in 1 go. I think u'll die.

Anyways, i would be sharing what happened there with my relatives when i come back... which is... 9th dec... I think it should be quite fun, hahas. Miss my cousins... Hmm, mayb not, dun have much impression of them. Well, i guess it'll be fun nevertheless. Wonder what would happen there... hmmm~

Miss me??? XD. jk~ I really really hope that i can use the computer & internet there. If i could, i'll be giving u guys live update... Hmm, i sound BHB hahas. Oh wells, i apologise if the previous post sounded kinda, crude- or wadeva. But zzz. That's all i have to sae for that post. lol

OH YAH~ btw, sha said my hairstyle looked lyk ichigo. MUAHAHA. But too bad it isn't orange hahas. hmm... Mayb i'll juz bring a stack of A4 size paper to malaysia. And doodle about... hahas, if i have the time lah. Then i'll put up all of them. And anyways, the previous drawing right, i didn't scan it. That's y the paper looks kinda dirty hahas. But it isn't that clean alrite...

Cuz i dunno wad happened to the scanner, so nv use, instead i use my HP to take a photo den upload to my computer. Anyways, i want to make a request.

Is there anyone out there whom i know who is really good at HTML and computering and is willing to teach me???

hahas. Cuz i kinda feel that wad i know about computer is kinda, shallow. I'm gonna stretch the limits of powerpoint for my eng holiday assignment. hahas. But sadly, i'm using windows 2000, so muz use my brother's com to do.

Anyways, juz viewed a blog kw asjed me to. uh.. What... museum of twits or wadsoeva lah. The guy is brave dude, writing those stuff. The amt of people who likes him probably amounts to the people who hates him. But den again. JOB WELL DONE.

This is the blog.
http://museum-of-twits.blogspot.com
do view it. It's ridiculously stupid yet funny. lol. Anyways, i realised that this blog is going no where. Hahas, too personalized, but i guess that's what a blog is for anyways. Hmm, i feel lyk concentrating on 1 area and kinda use blogger efficiently rather den to waste a free hoster. What do u guys think huh?

Should i just start a centralized topic? And make this smth more lyk a website rather den a blog? Personally, i think it's cooler to use blogger that way, but hmm... should i? Den i won't have a dairy... Well, mayb i'll create another blog.. Oh wells.

anyways, these are the few options. can recommend me some other things to do with this blog as well.
These are the topics:
1. Anime
2. Life
3. Computer stuff
4. Art
5. Pointing out stupid things

What do u guys think? Please tell me other ideas if you have. I kinda got bored by just updating daily abt my boring life. hahas. I guess it'll be more interetsting for me and others if i make tis into a website instead. Don't u think so? Den i can put what i learn from the book into full use. hhaas.

Urgh, i feel both excited and sad to go overseas. That's y i hate going overseas. SO TROUBLESOME~ but it's okay. hahas, haven met them for around 3years?

READ THIS THE NXT DAY

Let's see. Since this is the last day i'm gonna post. So i'm making this really long. Anyways, i've skipped table tennis training in sch for 1MONTH. I wanted to go back... BUT, there isn't a damned excuse i can find for not going back for so long. Hahas, can help me think of ideas? I ran out of my inspiration to find excuses~

Anyways, i'm gonna play table tennis ltr tonite, with adriel and edison. Haven't seen edison for a damn long time. Kinda miss him, though his kind of a bastard who flirts too much. He was my best friend anyways. haha.

Anyways, the topic eliz could talk to me abt, or so far wad she has been talking to me about. Is that "how despo i am" for a GF. lol. But seriously, watching animes and those lovey dovey scenes make me jealous. Oh wells. XDDD I'm a guy with desires after all. HAHAHA. Sounds perverted.

Anyways, it's been a long time since i had a chat with jas or pam. mayb i'll call them up some day. Has been interacting more with my EX-classmates nowadays. Oh wells, nth much to sae anyways, I don't really have any deep impression of my secondary 1 life

Everything is too normal. But i guess it's fine for it to stay that way. I think the only thing i can remember vividly is the 1C video. Cuz i haf the the video with me. So only that would bring back really deep memories. The rest is kinda "faded", unless someone talk to me abt, or else there's kinda no way i'm gonna remember them.

Anyways, please KINDLY help me with this thing i'm troubled over with. AND PLEASE TAG ME. For god's sake, dun just come by and tell me some nonsensical things which has nth to do with what i ask.

CHOOSE A TOPIC.
1. Anime
2. Life
3. Computer stuff
4. Art
5. Pointing out stupid things
6. (recommend me smth)

okays then. that's all for today. JA-NA! ITEKIMASK~ SYONARA~

posted at 5:51 PM