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wa seh. Today wake up, found out that i had muscle aches all over my body.

forget to tell u all, we swam at pam's hse ytd. Omg, i lyk... 11months nv swim lerh lor, den ytd suddenly swim, den now my whole body filled with aches. WAH... >.< haish. today didn't really do anything, played seaworld amusement park tycoon. A great past time dudes. hahas.

built a pretty nice place.... hmmm..... ltr got time i go take a screen shot for u guys hahhas. But it's kinda too easy. lol. Tycoons are easy when u're totally on ur own. No objectives. Hahas, juz keep making money. The thing can run by itself even if u leave it over night. I guess i'll be a millionair overnight XD.

And hmm, eliz ah. It's not buay tahan. It's that, i cant find a reason y i'm feeling lyk that. so it's wierd. Well, can't find an explaination of y i'm feeling lyk that. So... though it's far, i feel it close to me. Understand? XD.

hmm. let's see... I think i'll stop being emo in my psot lerh. Doesn't helps me in anyways that i can see. XD. So... hmmm.... unless alot of u wan to noe den i write lorh. Or else the nxt post will juz be... the... usual me XD.

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HMM. Went to glen hse today.
is his hse big or enormous?

wtf lah. If u anyhow walk can get lost derh. =.=lll
den still got personal lift. Omg, fucking rich can? ah! If my hse lyk that, i'll play hide and seek everyday with my friends. XD

Oh wells. It seems as though glen and eliz is steading. XDDDD. Don't u guys agree? =p

ah, today kana poked by eliz, pam, jas and mingli. NOT FAIR. >.< And ah!!! jas dun always sit down or sit at the stairs. NOT FAIR!!!! =p

Argh, today over all was fun lah. Dun nid go into details, dun think u guys would be interested anyways. hahahs. And ahh... I nid counselling, my troubles are so far away, yet it feels so close. why?

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juz a normal day.
boring.

haix. Downloaded maple again. Played it. For quite a long time. Den play o2jam. B-O-R-I-N-G.... hmms, suddenly heard that tmr nid to go to sch... So gonna slp quite early today... 11pm. hahas. Which is around now?

Forget to post the whole day. Too engrossed in playing. So now i chionging the post. hahas, shld be quite short bah.

Oh wells. Really dunno wad to sae lerh. Juz slpy.... slpy... And AH. CHIA XIN NI. BLEH =p. i not that bad in o2jam eh? muahahaha. nxt time u DL all the songs and change to broadband lerh den play wif u bah. More fair. hahas.

Oh wells. nth else den cya currently posting at 2.04am.

Was watching shows on internet all the way from... 9? lols. Ah hahaha. 2nd day i'm slping so late. bleh. Gonna slp soon. My eyes are dropping.

WA SEH, but i feel so HYPER at nite!!! Crap sia. lols. My mental order has some disorder lerh. haix. XD.

I'll reply the tags here. Dun wanna flood my taggie =DD

Shannen: yea man! We're still besties. hmm, emo lah emo lah. BE LYK ME. =p
Mei[= : haix haix haix. I lazy explain luh. XD
Eliz: =p BLEH... Too bad MUAHAHAHA.
Kar Wing: Duh, i got that idea from him, u think eh?
jas: OH, too bad i have explain yet XD
JunL3: HI HOTTIE. Keep the flame up MAN!

Zoey: "4giving + understanding + gd communication= solution"
for my case
"4giving + understanding + bad communication=end of the world"
can't communicate lah!


Wa jas, envy u eh! U can cry lol! I can't cry. My tear system kana jammed. Too long nv activate liao. HMM. Not anyone fault lah. Blame the damn government for sperating me and shannen into diff sch lor. XD. And COME ON!!! If my friendship wif shannen is that weak... I guess u better worry abt our's XD.

Ah. I'm bored. Even so. I shall take a quiz for my blog.
MY 1ST EVER QUIZ. lols!
(can't believe i'm gonna do it)

3 things tad scare me:

1. undead zombies swarming in non-stop
2. unexpected pokes
3. total darkness

3 people who make me laugh:
1. all my friends
2. some dumb people
3. some lame people

3 things iie LURBE :
1. warmth
2. cars
3. technology

3 things iie HATE :
1. body aches (anywhere)
2. loneliness
3. rejection (dun apply to BGR)

3 things iie dun understand :
1. the meaning of life
2. DLL, DATA, EXE and all file types
3. y loneliness hurts so much

3 things on mio desk :
1. computer
2. alarm clock
3. fan

3 things i'm doin right now :
1. listening to music
2. msning
3. drinking hot cup

3 things iie wanna do b4 dyin :
1. feel love again
2. find out the true meaning of life
3. die without regrets

3 things iie can do :
1. play computer games pretty well
2. make people laugh
3. act cute

3 ways to describe my personality :
1. crappy
2. lame
3. fragile

3 things iie can't do:
1. solve my own problems
2. sing nicely
3. OPEN MY EYES xD

3 ppl iie wan 2 do dis survey :
1. jun yi
2. sha
3. Anyone else

Ah! Very tired now. But still hyper. Oh wadevas. Gd.... morning... XD. it's 2.50am

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hmms, teri ah. Long time nv go read ur post. but caught up on it anyways.

sigh. Do u noe really wan to know y i juz dun seem to care abt the class? In short. I place it in one word. "troublesome"

don't u realise that i always only help when u guys faced with a situation u can't handle? When people have opinions, they have their own set of thinking for that particular issue. And if i raise any other solutions, it'll probrably cause another aruge in wadeva manner it may be carried out.

I juz dun bother getting myself into arguements anymore. Even though i win the arguement in the end. But what's the use when no matter if i'm there anot, the ending is still the same? Lyk u will get that end solution in the end rite? But u guys agree quickly with it. Why? Becuz it's because of many arguements and discussion that u got the answer. So of cuz u guys agree with it.

But if i suddenly tell u guys the solution, and it's juz that u all won't believe me THAT easily, so still nid all those redundant "resistance". So it's better if i leave u guys alone right? Since u will find the solution in the end. it's not that i'm blind to the extent that i can't see what the class comm has done for us. But sigh. Let's put this bluntly.

Since im not the class comm, i'm lazy to plan anything. And when u guys tried to get attention from the class. I'm lazy to shout for the class to quieten down. why? I don't see the point. I don't even see wad use i have for being in the class. And that, even though the person who wants the attention may appreciate my help for getting the atten. for them, but the others wouldn't lyk people shouting at them when the person isn't the one nids their attention.

I'm lazy to explain why abt that too. Hmm, i think i know the impression i gaf u guys, but well. As i've said. It's too troublesome to change it. Wells, since nxt year i'm gonna change class, den see nxt year den gif them another impression lors.

Wells, even though i'm lazy to do alot of things. But i think i did contributed my part in class. That's y i'm lazy to care abt other things.

sigh. too many things, too little time. I'll see u guys' replies b4 i continue hahas. shannen, u can't be a boring person. At least no to me dude! Come on, jas may be fun to talk to, but... There's a significant difference between u two. It's 2 different personalities that i like. Well, u both are interesting in different ways.

=.=lll Even though u're forced to agree with me for CRAP. I'm forced to agree with u for some sensible things eh? And umm. Dunno larh, mayb my sms sounds pissed nowadays. But COMM'ON, i won't be pissed with u.

oh wells, we ARE drifting apart, but it doesn't means that we can't pull ourselves back together rite?

wells, if u sae closer to sec sch friends... It depends on how u look at the situation. uh... Becuz we're in sec now rite? So when we go out, we usually go out with our sec friends, when u wanna invite ur pri sch friends, they'll invite their sec sch friends to come along too. So it's lyk 2 diff groups. And usually, they don't merge that well.

Wells, it's life, juz live it. You can't change the fact that, not everything will stay the same forever. Even though that one day we'll be juz friends. The memories of us being best friends won't disappear eh?

wells, lyk i've said. Blame it that jas's a kid.XDDD hahas. no offence ah!

well, people change, it's juz a matter of time. So wad's left is for u to CALL ME MORE OFTEN LARH. =.=lll and eh. dun cry. i dunno how to handle such situations hahas.

oh wells... hope u understand that. we are STILL best friends. Juz cherish the time we have yeah?

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wow. Time really passes very quickly. Last day of sch lerh! I guess i'll be missing those days in sch where i'll feel tired and slp. Hahas.

Wells, got back my crappy results. Bad larh. Hahas, that only thing i can sae abt it is. It's too troublesome to think more since it's over. So let's enjoy our holidays eh? (though i really dont' noe how i'll survive 2 months without my friends being around with my all the time)

eh! Got any outings ask me... XD, i don't wanna die of boredom.

Today let out more of my pri sch self bah. I guess it's the last day don't really care anything le lah. hahas. Leave some kind of a better impression? XD. Poked jas alot today, asked yan hao, deon, sher and pam to help too ask i've promised. XD.

Quite fun being childish again. hahas.

my mind is a blank now.... No processes is going through....

haix, nxt year sure change class lerh. My results is lyk shyt lor. Diff from everyone. Dunno whether be happy or sad. Wells, if really change ah. Change lor.. wad can i do? hahas. Too troublesome man~

This post seems short. wadeva. hahas. chunks and chunks of words again. happy new year. cya

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oh. my 200TH POST... Finally.

but, this one is unusual. Don't have my normal celebration. Aiya, no time to prepare. Den not much mood also. ?But for once after such a long time, this post will HOPEFULLY be not emo. Who knows wad i'll think abt as i continue...? XD

Today enterprise day. So... Didnt really do much, other den that i woke up 5am in the morning. 1st time, alarm clock, i put snooze.... Den after that, jas come and call to wake me up... So punctual sia! (i told her to call last nite de XD)

den she sae she lyk 4 wake up lerh, can't get to slp... (no wonder the timing so zun3)

uh huh. Den take taxi, reach sch at 6.20. Bought 2 packets of ice from 7 eleven outside sch. AFter that, i didn't do anything else. Don't u find it lame? Sigh....

Den ltr we played soccer. Nth much to sae too. Arh, wanna slp lerh. lol.s mayb i'll have a belated celebration soemday. BLEH =p cya

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i think from now onwards. This blog would be filled with my emotions. I have to let off some everyday.

Anyways, i'm crying now.
And again. WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG?

For dinner, my mum wants to bring us out to eat. But i'm tired, i'm dizzy, my arm is injured and i don't feel lyk going out. So i ask her to order take away for me. Den my dad comes in scolding me and forcing me to go out and eat. Den after awhile, he said it again... "all because of you"

WHAT DID I DO? don't i have to right to stay at home? is ordering take away so difficult? IZZIT? My mum came screaming in, and shouting "GO NOW, GO AND CHANGE" It's lyk, why do i have to do this when psychologically and physically i can't take it?

I got screamed and shouted at juz because i don't wanna go out and eat. What kind of a rule is this?! Den after that, my mum say ask nicely for me to go out and eat. Do u noe how FAKE it sounds? It makes me feel as though my mum is FAKING her love for me to try and make me go.

Furious, i asked her "u expect me to go after u screamed at me when u juz came in?" She ACTUALLY told me this "i didn't scream at u hor, i veh nice ler" HOW CAN I TAKE THIS DOWN, HUH? I shouted "u call, GO AND EAT NOW(SHOUTING) talking? Den i talk back to u, I DON'T WANT, IF U DON'T WANNA BUY, DEN DON'T BUY"

Den she shouted back even louder and said "OKAY, DON'T BUY FOR HIM. DON'T ALWAYS PAMPER HIM, IF HE DON'T WANT, LEAVE HIM."

I really felt hurt, so what have i done wrong? why can't i juz choose to stay at home? Why izzit that when my brothers juz tell my mum one time to help them buy, she listens? And no matter wad i sae, she juz SCREAMS AND SHOUTS BACK AT ME? WTF am i to her?

I juz hope there's someone i can cry going out today... so may post ltr at nite... hahs

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reply to pam.

Hmm, so u're the 1st one that i succesfully made to fully understood wad i meant. Yea, in class. I MIGHT AS WELL DON'T TALK. U felt that u've done smth wrong and don't feel good abt it right? U felt that same feeling of rejection from me.

Even though i'm abit irritated by how u replied. (lazy explain out wad u thinking) I turned the situation over now. By telling you sorry if i've made u feel bad. But u felt bad abit it, when u showed ur feelings to others, and others juz don't lyk it. That's wad i've been feeling in 1C since the start of the year. Why do u think i talk so little? (when i'm so talkative)

It's the fear of making mistakes and making people feel bad. I don't wan any more of my friends to feel bad because of me. I don't want to make them angry. I didn't even want to think abt wad they did that will make me feel bad. So i slp. understand? hmm, today when going to sch. At a bus stop, saw a bus 27 at the opposite side... Den behind that bus is another bus 72. Den i lyk, rub my eyes and see correct anot lols. I was lyk o.O unusual hahas.

hmmms, i'm wondering if what i've been doing up to now if it's correct. What do u guys think? I juz feel so lost doing the things which i think it's the best for me and everyone else. Mayb i shouldn't think so much, but it's juz that watching people around me, i juz dun wanna make any more mistakes.

sigh, sometimes, i find understanding really useless. What use does understanding has if u can't do anything about it? If u choose not to do anything about it, conscience will bug u. But if u do smth wrong, it'll cause more problems.

Hmm, since this is the end of year le, dun mind telling u all smth abt me lah. DUN SAE I EMO HOR.

You know why i always slp in class? It's not because that the lesson is boring, if it is boring, i COULD make it interesting. BUT, sry if i'm mean or wad, but it's juz on my mind for far too long, tis isn't meant to critisize or insult anyone, i juz hope that they'll change for the better.

Always when there's a chance to create fun in the class, vivien will show that very pissed of look and tryin to tell u that "u're disturbing the whole class" It's kills the whole mood to do anything else, den her friends around who THINKS that she's right, will do the same. Well, of cuz she's right, but there's always a boundary for the amount of lawful things u shld do.

For eg. , sometimes people also litter right? Don't tell me u nv littered b4. And that when this LAW ENFORCER is in our class, it realli kills the mood to do anything out of the ordinary. So as time goes by, people find the lesson really boring and people qin started talking back to the teachers in order to enjoy the lesson.

U know the enterprise thing? People always choose to believe what they see rather then what others tell them. This lack of trust is really IRRITATING ME. When i listed out the problems with buying instant noodles, vivien and teri came giving me the, HEY THERE'S NTH WRONG impression.

After that, i'm totally pissed and i didn't cared abt it at all. What use is my advice if people don't even listen to it? The time u all have spent thinking of solutions can be better used to have fun if u all have done it efficiently. I simply refused to gif any more ideas and juz listen to them, thinking of what they'll encounter and what they haven't discussed.

I'm not trying to sae that i'm clever or what. It's just that i can think things straighter and clearer. Even if my thinking is bad, at least listen finish it b4 u make any comments!

It's juz how irritating that people juz label you when u're not given the chance to explain urself. Some people in 1C may think that i'm not helpful lyk i juz sit around giving comments thinking that i'm great. rite?

u noe, the 1C video has proven how u all have treated me. When it comes to things you guys DON'T KNOW AT ALL, u all listen to me cuz i know how to do it. But when u guys even have ALITTLE BIT OF HOW TO DO THAT DAMN THING, u didn't even cared abt wad i said.

I felt lyk being treated lyk an outcast but i DON'T CARE.

The other reason of why i slp in class. I don't wanna think anymore. I juz don't wanna care abt anything else. Slping can knock me unconscious, at least when i'm aslp, i don't have to deal with feelings and my thinkings. And at least i won't feel irritated, at least i won't get angry at someone, at least i won't cry abt something.

Even when i'm not tired, i force myself to slp. All this thinkings is bothering me, this is only part of it, there's still a large chunk bothering me. I JUST DON'T WANNA CRITISIZE ANYONE. But i can't bottle these things down quietly anymore. If i don't voice it out, i think i REALLY REALLY wished that i change class.

If u really felt unjustified abt what i've said, THINK BACK. I'm not denying that i've did anything wrong. If i did anything really wrong. TELL ME, I'LL CHANGE. But pls don't tell me that everything u did is correct after u've reflected.


And pam. Lyk i've said. PEOPLE ALWAYS BELIEVE WHAT THEY SEE, AND NOT WHAT OTHERS TELL THEM. I HATE THIS LACK OF TRUST. THIS FEELING SUCKS. WHEN U'RE TRYING TO HELP ANOTHER PERSON, THE PERSON TURN BACK AND STAB U IN THE HEART, THIS FEELING JUST SUCKS.

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OH wells. i'm downloading games again. And installing. (duh)

So far, i've complete downloading audition, psychic-doom, o2jam.... And still downloading maple and silkroad.

I can't play o2, audi and PD. All 3 installed cannot. o2 my windows don't really support, audi got missing file, PD cannot find EXE. file. How worse can my luck get? damit lah.

So boring. And tired. Don't wanna slp, but feel lyk slping. urh. I made up my mind. If i change CCA either change to computer club or EDC. hahas. cuz both not that stressful... Didn't consider photographic society cuz i dun have interest in it at all la. Hahas.

=p

oh yea, didn't go for ms wee's birthday party. Cuz that day i played soccer with qin, deon, adriel, yi kui, ming guan. Den TOTALLY FORGET abt her birthday, sry ah XD. I got SSTM de mah... bleh.

1 very very interesting thing happened today. Jas got "molested" XDDDD.
I was laughing my ass off when i saw her sms. Cuz there's tis little boy, 3~4 years old rite, go hit her butt. XDDDD Den she sae when hit still sae "PIAK!"

omg, he damn sick and funny can! XDD Arh, i jealous i not the one to hit, can't hit anyways, too low le. BLEH XDD.

Hmm, i duno wad to do nowadays, juz wondering aimlessly in the hse and smsing, msning people. So bored. Soooo bored. There's alot of things i shld do, but i forgot abt them. hahas.

oh wells, people, if u're bored. CALL ME. TALK TO ME. I'm seriously rotting infront of my computer. XD tt's all... byes

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oh, thx to all my buddies who tried to comfort me i n a sense. But i guess there's juz to many things i don't understand which causes this feeling

Xin ni asked why my post are so emo nowadays? Actually, it's juz that. I find it quite meaningless juz recording down my daily life. And that, i juz sae smth more general abt my feelings, don't really wanna go specific into it...

I guess i'm juz a moody person after all. wadeva... HAIX.

NOWADAYS AH, so damn sianed. nth to do, nth to think, nth to eat. oh wells. ltr i going adriel hse to play.....


HMM. Ytd ah, stupid eliz, come and untie my shoe lace den tie them together when i'm trying to slp... Den go check my ear, den sae wad. GOT ALOT OF EAR SHIT EH! den i lyk =.=lll......

and oh yea, MING LI!! wad u mean by i'm a person who can't act ARH??? I can act very well de okay?! wadeva, i'm lost for words le. cya

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dun understand why i'm feeling down nowadays.
It's just so hard to continue pretending, it's tiring. Just feeling really down and can't find anything to talk abt. Really, i don't understand why... It's been fine all the while... I guess too many things have simply just happened

I've been pushing myself to the limits nowadays. reason?
During sports, i can forget everything. That momentary pleasure is enough to make me over-exert myself. I find many things that my friends do quite meaningless now... In a sense that i don't really understand why they do that...

and love. I really can't understand why so many people willingly put themselves through the torture. I really feel confused. The confusion in my heart is starting to sway my will. I'm really confused as to how i feel, what i want and what i need.

Is understanding and concern what i need or want? I can't answer that question.

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haix. FINALLY installed windows back on my computer. Took me lyk 3 & a half hrs last nite. Personal record. Quite fast eh. hahas. Now got to take time reconfigurating my computer... AND ALL MY PAST BLOG SKINS ARE GONE. boo hoo hoo~

argh, crap. That means i nid to redownload naruto. Doubt i will DL the past episodes again. hahas. Well, the gd thing is that i can post again hahas.

BUT AH. Crap ah. o2jam cannot play now. dunno why. Mayb it can after i restart my computer lol. Oh wells. Too pro in computer le larh, HAIX.

HEYS. I've been keeping this question for quite awhile and i seriously nid comments.
PLEASE.... reply to this question.

SHOULD i join computer club or chinese drama????

i'm seriously thinking of quiting table tennis. Nth much to do, nth much to learn. Juz play. play. play. nth else. It's boring me out. Can't take it. I nid to learn smth new larh. Doing the same thing everyday over and over again, it's a rather "SYSTEMATIC" way of life.

and man~ My mum is really getting on my nerves nowadays. And it's hard telling someone. As they'll probably laugh it off. Cuz it's funny on the surface. Yet deep and hurtful on the inside. In sch, i guess it's really alot easier to give an expressionless look. Rather den acting. It's juz so... much, simpler. how i wish my life was too

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oh wells. GOT BACK THE RESULTS.

Am i gonna die? I guess not since i already am. Haix, failed my hist. Expected. See liao didnt have much reaction. But den when i get back my maths ah, feel lyk crying sia. Lowest i ever gotten in my life, mr hamdan said that i could do better. Oh wells.

Den the rest get around 60 lyk that lor. Den my sci miss A1 by 1 mark. wtf. Wanna kill myself. My results NONE get A1 eh. Pro rite, next year sure go express den sure go into other class ler lah. Expected it anyways.

Oh wells, wad i can do nowadays is only to prepare for the worst and hope for the best.

And erm... I probably won't be posting that often. My computer went down, i'm using my bro's one now. Hmm, gonna reformat the computer lerh. Sian ah, den all my naruto all gone... AIYA, den gonna find everything again. Bad luck ah. shooo~~~

feel so bored when playing games, they don't really hold a meaning to me anymore. I play o2jam juz to listen to the music and stretching my limits.

oh yea, talkin abt my limits, i've been stretching my body limits and doing quite alot of physical activities, though i'm aching. Hmm, it's boring to noe alot of things people at this age doesn't. Make me explain so much, waste so much saliva. lol.
boring, nth much amuses me anymore. Well, at least for the things that people do at this age. hahas

oh wells. look forward to my nxt post and i don't really noe when that'll be

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oh. forget to post ytd. So post today abt ytd.

i went to VIVO CITY. oh wells. The 1st comment i can make is... DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN BIG.


the front of the building.. hahas.


the 1st view is saw when i stepped inside. Big eh?!


i'm at the top of the building. And it's so big u can put lyk... 4 or 5 soccer fields there??? hahas



i saw this interesting "statue" there. XD, when the wind blow right, the thing will swing here swing there. DAMN FARNIE~!


another funny thing i saw there.



Oh wells, it is really big, u shld go... It's at harbour front. hahas. Their supermarket ah. REALLY supermarket ah. so freakishly big. And den the shopping mall ah. Almost everywhere loook the same. Took me quite sometime to remember the buildin features. Haix.

Den pam suddenly sms me, i told her that i was in vivo n she said that jas went there too. oh wells. hahas, wasted can't see the little kid run abt. =X

Haix, so sian, i juz getting scolded non-stop. I so pisssed by my mum i dun even care wad she say le lah. haix. Eg. last nite, i dun feel lyk slping, so i play the computer, she come in, tell me once not to play... 10secs ltr she scream at me to stop. So i stopped, and went to her room to slp. Den she started rambling to me while lying down and she talk VERY LOUDLY, den sort of shouted all her troubles out. So i used my hp to time how long i will tolerate.

Den she turned around and saw the light from my hp, without asking anything, she straight away scold me, den scold me sae why i nv sleep, still play with hp. I tahan 10mins cannot liao, i walk out of the room, slam the door den go to my room to continue playing.

fucking hell, i experience more stress during the hols den sch days

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haix. so long nv post lerh. Nth to post abt too.
Let's see, i played soccer for 5days straight. Today played 2 times.

XD.

Days nowadays are boring. really boring. Oh wells, i have to compliment myself for my gd acting skills. Fooled through everyone again. XD. oh wells. Days are so boring. I fill them up with soccer.

okay anyways. Alot of people asked me why i put ZERO.

I shall tell u why. Well, it's a complicated philosophy so it doesn't really matters if u don't understand.

Zero stands for void and emptiness, so it's cool to me. When u have zero things, there's nth for you to lose. What's out there is only for you to gain. When u have everything, everything means nth. When u haf nth, nth means everything to you. Understand?

In the buddhist scriptures. (i translate to english lah) void is emptiness, emptiness is void. When u have realised that everything isn't everything and that having nth is the same as having everything, den u'll realise alot of other things u didn't realise last time. Can understand anot??? lols

i think i dun go explaining further. That's the main part of it. cool ritez? I dun think there's anything interesting thing u wanna know abt me anymore. So i'll end here. byes~

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OH YEA~ FINISH EXAM LERHS YAY!

oh wells... Seems that this blogskin isn't as nice as the past one.
but the theme of this skin is
SIMPLICITY

So of cuz it's simple. I'm too lazy to go make a complicated pic or codings. hahas. Mayb the next skin lah, next one. I make a really complicated one. But for now, i'm pleased with my own skin. Wells, it may not look that hard to make, but trust me. It takes a hell lot of time making the ZERO the "E" look lyk an "E" instead of a "B"

Oh wells. I guess i'll juz have to change it quite soon. Mayb.... Start of nov??? see lah see lah

oh my oh my. I love post-exams. Time to get really crazy. my pri sch self. Always there to prove people wrong. lols. The most kana demerit from teacher. Dun nid care le. so happy hahas.

After sch, ATE ROTI PRATA, with qin, deon, adriel, ben, yan hao and yi kui.

Neways, after that we played soccer all the way until 6+. nice? So so bah. I have nth to sae. How is that possible? Cuz in sch. nth happened, in soccer. nth much happened. Juz that i kana injuries again. nth significant. Oh wells.

I hope that tmr and the rest of 2006 would be fun. At least with me in class now. I dun really think that it'll be that boring. I THINK. hahas. oh wells. Sher said that she could make me embarrassed, i wonder how. My philosophy.
WHAT CAN A GIRL DO TO ME??? lol

Oh yea, sure fail my hist. no hope. gone case. hahas. Gd luk for all of ur exam results~

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hmmm. even though tmr exam ends... YAY~ But i guess i'll put up the skin tonite. Tmr den see lah.
Celebrate for the end of exams.
cuz tmr most lykly will go out de mah. So...

oh wells. Played soccer again today. I wonder how tmr would be like. After tmr. On friday. I think i'll unleash my crazy side lerh. hahas, look forward. I THINK. That i won't be sleepy anymore. hahas. Exams are here in a flash, and gone in a flash too.

Ming guan told me this "3days of hell followed by 3months of heaven. not that bad after all" LOLS.

man~ my post are so short. Better for u all right? Oh wells, i saw a longan head when i juz woke up while slping in the exam. Some shld understand wad i mean. Den i lyk =.=lll so small.... den i turn around, i look at MC, den i leng. Den i look and qin, and drew his hair out, den sian le, take out my jacket. Put nicely on the table.... And went to slp again.

OH WELLS. nth to sae again. Examination juz seems so dead. and i soooooooooooo jealous P6 PSLE finish lerh. HAIX. BUH-BYE

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i love exams.
i hate exams.

i love it cuz i can sleep durin exams
i hate it cuz i have too much time to sleep

brought my jacket to sch. didn't rain. Brought it in the class anyways. In the end, what it is used for? My pillow. I sleep until so shuang can. hahas. My arm not aching thx to my BELOVED jacket. After exams jas juz keep complaining wanna slp. Yea, influenced another person, muahahas

Den pam also kana influenced by my too troublesome philosophy. Oh wells, i guess i can trust pam as much as i trust sha or zoey after all. I guess it just takes one small step to realise the big picture. Oh yea, during exam i slp right, i suddenly wake up, den my head feels as if someone is pushing me down den i juz let my head drop onto my jacket again.

Oh yea, today morning 4am wake up study. GUAI RITE GUAI RITE!!! Hmm, now i understand y they sae i look lyk hamster le. I was washing my face lah, den i see den i hmmm.... it does look ABIT lyk hamster. to a certain extent. lol. After that thought, i leng diao den go make my milo. hahas.

Life seems so quiet nowadays. Though it's boring. I kinda like it. It's great not to care about anything. And when's nth for u to care about. Hmm.... I dun talk alot in class. Reason being i can't find the reason to talk. When there's no reason for you to talk, you dun talk right?
Juz feeling moody nowadays. not much mood to do anything. I find that 1C's guy are more interesting than the girls. Eg. Qin and Deon. Lazy explain why now. Main reason being they talk more.

hmm, the end. nth to sae

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what can i sae...

everyone,
JIA YOU FOR EOY EXAMS!!!!

argh, i've made my new blog layout. But didn't publish it. Why? No point mah... hahas~
I planning wed publish, mark as the celebration for the end of EOY exams. =D So those who haven't been given the sneak preview, look forward to wed. And i look forward to your comments.

Studying is boring. Life in sch b4 exams isn't any better. went to tamp lib to study wif jun yi, pam, kw and zhu yun. Den ltr they come my hse, qin also did. Today was a boring day. Tmr would be too.

omg, dammit. i'm feel so sick and sleepy. i hope tmr nth wrong . den i bringin jacket tmr, stupid ahs pants so short. i wear sure look lyk idiot. hahas. AIYA, SO SLEEP DUN WRITE LERH

I JUST WISH EVERYONE GOOD LUCK FOR THEIR EXAMS!!!

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stupid exams. so fast come again for what?!

haix. then nid to mug for exams. haix. so if i post lesser ah... dun blame me. the last post bery nice right. lol.

hmmm, hate geog, hate history. I hate to study, dammit. Elize, pam and mingli said i very leng, and tell me other people oso think so. Have i changed so much? Can't believe, mayb i juz didn't care abt things too much.

After exams, i swear, i swear i will turn back to my pri sch life. ok, i have nth to sae. bye

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aiya. suan le lah. smth else has happened so i shall expose the truth abt jas. hahas.
i can tell that alot of people is confused abt wad i said abt her, and abt sha and zoey.
very confused? no idea what i'm talking about?
it's okay.
it's meant to be that way.

You see, actually our friendship started from.... hmmm.... forget how le. As long is i talk to her on the phone ah, feels lyk talkin to sha mah. So it's the feel free to talk anything u want feeling. Well..

ACTUALLY. The whole main point is to state publicly that JAS IS MY SEC BEST GIRL THE FRIEND.

hahas. understood right. Cause the reasons for lyking a person is totally wrong if u noticed, and that i jumbled up all the points and included some irrelevant points. That is enough to make any person confused. Further more i stated that it's a crush, hence u will be more confused. It started off with the idea of finding out actually how many people is reading my blog

cuz many people read, but no tags! And that god muz juz nice send her to my life, so well. in a way, a nice story written isn't it? It has fooled through so many people. And you know, when i said : "hahas, i nv see wrong, jas, shannen and zoey understands what this post is all abt"

REASON? I have pratically told them what i meant even b4 i type that post out. So naturally of course they would understand. Simply rite? I guess there's still some kind of mixed feelings for her bah. (jas) hmm how to sae. It feels as though... i felt the happiness of being a father? hahas. hard to explain bah, is lyk. her behavior is so... child-like!!! It juz makes me contented looking at her be happy. XD Understand?? hahas.

Very hard to explain bah... smth lyk.... u have a very cute baby cousin and then u'll juz feel happy to make them happy. yea, that kind of feeling. hahs. (i may sound mean to her XD)

wells. And you know. When i said that qin is a "crappy, lame guy". Seems that it kinda worked. He's juz gd in hiding his feelings. Yea, i can tell that he's understanding, he'll listen to you if u really nid someone to tell him/her ur problems.

Because i am somewhat like him i guess. The expression on his face tells me all. Cuz after pam told me that he didn't want to tell me somethings because that he thinks that i wouldn't really want to listen to him. Well. I tell u, "crappy, lame guy" i wrote that out. Juz becuz i knew that u're not that type of person, and wanted to really see ur actual self. Not all my hypothesis will always be correct.

I need qin to support my thinking of him. Sry qin, dun blame pam. but she kinda told me ABIT abt it. I can somehow tell that u're confused. But... really. if you have anything... juz tell me. i guess i could feel the same way towards u as how i felt towards jas too. =D

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today home econs. SPAGETTI. (dunno correct spelling anot)

Quite nice i guess. Well, so bored during the lesson. Really felt lyk slping. I love cutting up meat or vegetables. Hahas, cut fast fast very fun. Slow oso fun. Cuz can waste time if slow. Fast so nice, cuz can cut into thinner slices. No idea why. hahas. Den sewing. haix. so sian, finish last lesson. So i'm enjoying my free time when suddenly deon came looking for help in sewing.

So my BEAUTIFUL slp is being disturbed. how sad. Nth interesting. let's see.

Pam said that i'm a complicated person. Let's sae i make things complicated so that they would be simlpler. Understand? crap. i'm lost for words. =.=lll

nvm, nth to sae today. juz post for fun. byes

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ah, nowadays always post half way hang. Cuz i doing to many activities at the same. So to make up for it. I'll post a proper one and won't do other things while posting this time. hahas.

Wells, i changed my hairstyle. It's okay bah. I guess at least better den my last time my lame hairstyle. hahas. Oh wells. As long as my friends lyk it. I guess i'm okay wif it. ahahaha.

So bored during class. Finding chances to slack as usual. OMG. I can't believe i dunno wad to sae le. Anyways, exams are coming reeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaalllllll soon. And i'm trying to revise. I guess. i hope. Went to play soccer today. Not much injuries this time. Juz a hard knock on the head. oh wells.

Pain is the price of fun. what can i sae?

=D. Really, sch nowadays are really so boring i can't help but feel so SIANED. Lessons are getting more and more boring. I simply love having casual talk with teachers. Feel so free talking to them. Hahas. Talked to ms trina today. Quite fun. Anyways, i have to say this. It's juz too funny, juz see sometimes got notice anot.

Esp. PE. Abt 3/4 of the PE, u muz look at jas. OMG. DAMN FUNNY. Really, i be "goal keeper" right. Den i see one herd of people moving up and down, up and down. Then there's this little pebble which seems to be stuck on the ground. Suddenly, she squats down. Den fall backwards, land on her butt and sit in a very hilarous position. MUZ SEE AH. Omg, can't stop laughing everytime i see it.

Anyways, qin is very funny. At least to me. Everyday i'm amused by his stupidity. It's juz so farnie i can't take it. Ytd i laugh until stomach pain hand no str, can't do my HW properly. lols!. I hit his head and said "I WHACK YOU BUTTOCK" LOLS!!!.

And he gaf me the pissed of look and i continued crapping with him. Hahas. So fun. Sigh, i wonder nxt time if i shld juz give in and lose. Though it's really fun to me. But i can understand that the person very pek chek. LOL. Boo hahaha. It's fun though. Haix. No motivation to do my hw. no motivation to revise. No motivation for anything. I guess i'm turning in to Shikamaru. (a guy in naruto)

He leads such a carefree life where he thinks that everything is too troublesome. hahas. And he can spend his free time looking at clouds and juz enjoy his life. How i wish my life was so free. Where i wouldn't be stressed up by HW nor anything else. And i can juz sit and relax.

Hahas. Fat dream. Tata for now~ MUG HARD FOR EXAMS EVERYONE. (i hope i have the ability too)

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oh well. Sry ah, ytd very tired after talkin on the phone. lol. Slpt at around.... 1.50am. Oh wells.

Let's talk abt the lantern festival. It's fun. i guess. hahas. While doing my maths, i feel aslp, and overslpt. Woke up at 5.50pm. Crap den rush rush rush to sch. Met Sha and Sean watching them flying aeroplanes. Remote control. Oh cool.

Finally saw that type of plane. Its cool, the way the flys. Very stable, den battery lyk alot. lol. And it can fly really high. And could reach quite a high spd when diving. So nice. Oh wells, chated with them and waited awhile b4 we saw, si min, hui min, shi min, mei tian and xin ni.

So after that we chatted at the fitness corner and den ltr we go to KFC da bao go to void deck eat. Actually thinking back. IT;s quite boring.

After that played with candles. Campfire. haix. post again ltr. now no mood