LANTERN FESTIVAL
Saturday, September 30, 2006
WOOOTS, IT'S LANTERN FESTIVAL AGAIN.
The once in a year play with fire activity has finally came. Ltr going back to my pri sch. Can meet with all my old friends. Ahahhaha. Anyways, jas keep sayin she not P2 kid. Ok la, den u P4 oso dun wan. P5 can right? XD...
Anyways, wonder if i'm gonna play with candles again. I LOOOOOOOVE campfires. But always got people stop and scold us. Haiz, how sad.
OH wells, xin ni keep complaining sae i nv include her name in my posts... So i shall.
CHIA XIN NI
saw that??? XD wad to sae abt her. For such a long time since i talk to her on the phone. The 1st impression that she gave me is. LAUGH LAUGH AND LAUGHING OUT LOAD. Den i =.= =.= =.= =.= =.=............... LEng diao can. Juz kee plaughing lyk xiao zha bo lyk that. hahas.
oh wells. exams are coming, i'm the only guy in the whole class who haven't start revising yet. I think i nid to start. pretty soon. If today isn't too late. hahas.anyways, i go revise le la........ that's all for now. Think i postin again tonite or midnight abt my exp of lantern festival. LOOK FORWARD TO IT. You can miss your slp but not this post. hahas!!! jk~
posted at 3:19 PM
another misunderstanding
Friday, September 29, 2006
now i'm really really really tired. lol. and dun feel lyk explaining anymore. But it shows why i didn't want to explain it at first. hahas.
And that loooooooooooong post can be summarised by that word "crush". Am i a genius or wad. Anyways, aiya, she special case la, so dun take that word THAT literally. Most correct la, juz some parts sounds wrong. Haiz, now ah, dun care le dun care le, too troublesome, think what you want la. Lazy explain le.
lol. anyways, it seems that either alot of people come to my blog, or alot of people know jas. lol. My friend said that her friend de friend noe her, and another friend of hers de friend de brother de friend noe her. Complicated? I dun wanna know anymore. lol. Oh wells, life resumed as usual.
I got mood den continue abt my life. haha. for now.... i think i'll juz keep thinkin of smth nice to write hahas.
posted at 5:12 PM
i guess it's time
Thursday, September 28, 2006
great. i think it's time i could sae out the reason and who my so called "crush" is liao le. Finally got the mood to type alot out. lol. And the issue has quieten down anyways.
Let's see. since i keep u all in suspense in such a long time. no use beating around the bush. oh wells. it's obvious. jas la. XD.
Well, kar wing betted my balls on her. =.=lll anyways. Please read finish the following and understand the situation.
Let's see. I told shannen abt her la. so, my 1st's reasons of lyking her is becuz. AT LEAST she listens. or wad so eva. i think the whole class only she will abt.... 95% of the time reply my sms in 5mins lyk that. Den will talk alot. ok la, not talk alot la, AT LEAST she listens.
Well, anyways. i shall elaborate abt the smile part and her looks 1st la. Ok, see ah, i lyk her smile because she has that innocent smile of a kid. XD. It's like... how i explain it.... hmm. a pure and untainted smile. i guess. Anyways, den she's lyk a.... hmm... pri sch kid lyk that la... hahas. LOOK very serious during work, juz like those P2 kids u noe? I think i lyk her partly becuz of somehow i think she's innocent la...
So den comes the other reasons. I like her, as in a best friend-to-be situation. So far got 2, shannen 1st, zoey 2nd. But i couldn't always talk to them de mah. And JUST NICE there's this girl with almost the same qualities as them. so?
Shannen asked me: "why don't u find the guys to be ur best friends den?" Let's see. not trying to be rude, but i shall elaborate on why i couldn't talk to them freely. (guys)
GUYS (according to reg. no.)
23. DJ - someone who doesn't really talks alot
24. Ben - can't talk on the phone, quite ap
25. Yan Hao - childish, don't really understand alot of things
26. Deon - critisizer, won't understand me
27. Kang Lei - doesn't talk alot
28. Me
29. Ho Ming - a guy who broke up in a BGR, and don't noe how to handle
30. Sheng Yong - a guy who takes everything by his stride, and always sae. "UH...."
(from here on, the sequence not sure right anot.)
31. Ming Guan - can't talk on the phone, quiet.
32. Jia hao - don't get along that well.
33. MC - a lame guy who acts lyk a gay.
34. Qin - crappy guy, will listen, but not the one who will really understands.
35. Jia Hong - don't really know him that well
36. Brian - a really lame guy, who doesn't care abt u
37. Jia Sheng - forget abt this guy. (hopeless)
Now, who can i talk to? I can't really find the one. Mayb becuz i dunno them well enough. But that is gd enuf of a reason y i didn't make them as my best friends. right? Some wad the same thing with the girls, but diff reason. But for girls, it's either that they can't talk at the time i could, or i can't find the same quality lyk those i found in sha and zoey.
So the one with the best chance that COULD become my best friend is jas. Clear enuf right? And den, i dunno how, but her time schedule is somewhat similiar to mine. As in, around... lyk. 8~10 can talk that type. Well, she listens. too much. I think she may find it wierd y i'm changing her to talk more. Cuz i guess it's to confirm my gut feeling. According to how she does her maths. She does understands, but she juz can't get the reason why.
And if she does, i hope she could voice out her opinions. Communicate. Rather den juz be someone who lets other people dump their worries and walk away. And partly the reason why i didn't really talk abt my family to anyone. Is becuz i dun want anyone to change their point of view of me. I don't want anyone to try to understand or not to hurt my feelings. You kno?
I guess that for the points i stated up there. Anyone could be my best friend. But the thing i'm finding is natural. Someone that will listen and do somethings by instincts, not because they know they nid to do it. And so far my 2 other best friends has some troubles, one has a tougher one... Which has been bothering them. From what i can tell, jas's problem, isn't that much of zoey's one. Mayb the same as sha's, but i've told sha too many things, i know she'll listen. But it's juz that.... i can't find the opportunity.
And one more thing. When talkin to jas, sha, zoey. I can find my old personality i had in pri sch. I feel free in speech. There's been time i want to sae it out to jas or sha, but i juz can't find the chance.
But u noe, this feeling sometimes make me feel stupid. I've wondered. What's the use of telling other people? You're simply bothering other people and not helping urself. So what if they understand? So what if they felt ur pain? so what? I dun get it. i really don't. Yet everytime i try to find that inner peace within myself by tryin to tell other people my problems. Hoping that they'll understand. Even if it's pointless.
And anyways, abt her right. Actually i didn't find much point in hiding it, so i made it as obvious as possible. The hints la. Den all was left is my acting to waver their confidence in their answer. They know it, juz that they're not sure of it. hahas. I guess she noticed it as well. XD.
i told u all it's so long i lazy to explain. So i summarised it to "crush" 1 word. understand? =.=lll
Sigh, so troublesome, nxt time dun put on my blog liao. haiz, tot can keep as memory mah... XD.
since u all noe le, DUN BOTHER ME AH.
posted at 5:28 PM
stupid bra strap.
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
dammit sia. -.-lll today ah. Stupid sia. the pam that damn bra strap seems to be sooooo out of place i tell her that la,. den jas sae it's ACTUALLY SUPPOSED TO BE LYK THAT. Den i =.=lll ........ It's beside hte neck it's wrong can!!!!!!!!! =@ .... I dun believe i'm wrong. =.=lll
stupid stupid stupid..... Den i point to the shoulder there tell her. cuz i can't sae out. Sounds really wrong to me anyways, den i sae softly, she can't hear me, den i juz point la, can't expect me shout loud loud: "EH! PAM, I THINK UR BRA STRAP WAI DIAO."
no rite. HAIZ. crap... tis is the most retarded thing i've faced today anyways.... lol. sigh, den today english lesson everyone slp.
I slpt, woke up turned around and smiled at ms trina. Den she smiled at me. Den i turned back and slpt again. xP... hahas... i'm so freakking bored. sigh, nth else den. tt's it. byes
posted at 8:32 PM
replying of tags
Monday, September 25, 2006
Shannen: Yea sure... i'll find u up someday. hahas, i forgot to tell u abt it. I told zoey b4. well, at least part of it. well, if u hear it. I guess u'll understand why i feel this way anyways.
Teri: hmm, im not really sad la, got over it sometime ago but juz that somethings juz evoked my emotions
Zheng Xi: den??? i really dunno when can talk to u eh, den when i think of wad to talk to u abt. My mind blank lla. Den i will =.=lll no point.
Kar Wing: sry la, u got into the firing range mah. hahas. sry lah~
Junni: yea i understand. thx anyways.
A person who cares: Thanks alot. I understand ur kind intentions in ur words. But how can i sae this... HMM... Dun take the "i hate my family" that literally. It isn't that much of a forceful meaning. I've put myself in their shoes b4, i noe it's tough, and i didn't treat them badly. (NOT THAT BAD) I'm thankful for them bringing me up. Anyways, i didn't sae anymuch abt my parents on my post. And unless i explain the whole matter to you, i dun think u'll fully understand. I know the post seems to make me seem lyk a rebellious child who didn't care abt anything anymore. But den, that post is juz a spur of moment, juz that when i was feeling down a and smth came to excite me. yea... so... thx for ur advice anyways
posted at 8:31 PM
eh! no ideas for class blog's layout. SIANS.Haiz, seems that i'm running low on ideas. Nth much has been happening. Other den the fact that i flung my history test. I think somewhat 6/30. =.=lll Expected expected, the answer i guess de lor. lol. Forget bring my textbook home, can't revise. What can i do?
Sigh.... So sad. =( ................. Crapz, i hope that i can get serious. though i dun really see any possibility of that happening. wells. O2jam is fun i guess. After 1week of playing, i guess i kinda got the hang of it.
And aiya, thx to SOMEONE i will post abit abt the "crush" again la. u noe that time i sae abt the song which describes ALITTLE BIT of how i feel is.
This is a small part la
I don't give a damn about you
No nothing can change my mind
No way
I'm happy just to let you walk away
Don't think about you at night
I'm happy to be alone
It's ok
But that was yesterday
Meaningful eh? hahas. Well, only A PART of it is true so dun think so much. lol. Sighs. There's this stupid question which bothered me alittle, shld i care abt how i look? =.=lll ya la, i noe lame la. but seriously i dun care at all how i look den... Cuz of my mum's stupid comments and some comments my friends said, i'm thinking of whether i shld start taking care
lol. I dun wan to change to qin hui anyways. XD. Wells. ANSWER ME LA. DUN ALWAYS KEEP QUIET ABT MY QUESTIONS LEY!
posted at 8:10 PM
uh, my apologies.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
EH, SRY AH.
That post seemed to be so emo. lol. anyways.
i'm tryin to sae that i'm alright. Juz that i expressed myself too well.
so sry for any worries caused. =(. lol.
And that annonymous person. If u can tag to sae that i'm irritating, why don't u juz leave ur name down. Eh? mayb i could try to understand why u find me so.
Sianed. I think sooner or later i have to open a new blog all for myself. lol.
Anyways, freaking art haven't finish yet.
and i have nth to sae. i guess that's it. hahas
posted at 6:30 PM
pissed
Saturday, September 23, 2006
i guess i'm simply pissed by hui ting, currently in AHS 1B.
Anyways, thx to her i have smth to post abt.
I really wonder why sometimes people ACT to understand or know u so well they label u. She called me "immature" wad do u think? And she said that i think too highly of myself, saying smth lyk.. wait let me think...
"you think that you're so POPULAR during pri sch, when u come to sec sch things have changed so DRASTICALLY"
I dun get her, mayb she's another yvonne. She actually TRIED to "understand" me. I guess it can't be help. Let's end the thing abt popularity shall we? I dun GIVE A DAMN abt popularity, it irritates me during pri sch. Didnt really had much fun attaining it. I chose to be quieter, and there's no way i can attract attention.
Anyways, i guess she's having fun while quarreling with me. If it's normal joking type of jokes, even if it's serious jokes, i can take it. what i can't take it is.
I HATE PEOPLE WHO ACTED SO MUCH THAT THEY UNDERSTAND ME TOTALLY WHEN THEY ACTUALLY DON'T EVEN KNOW ME AT ALL.
There are alot of things which alot of people haven't experienced and i have. I have been through breakdowns and many other things which will slow me down or make me sad. When i sae sad, i mean the type of uncontrollable emotions which gushes out, it makes u cry no matter how hard u try to stop.
Even when i'm thinking abt it now, my eyes are welling with tears. WHY? I CAN'T SAY IT OUT. I CAN'T. It's the pain of knowing it, and can't do anything or tell anyone abt it. NO ONE UNDERSTANDS, unless they had a similiar experience, which is SO RARE. It isn't smth i could go around telling people abt. IT'S PAINFUL HIDING MY PAIN.
I may seem happy always, cheerful, mayb sleepy. But they are just covering my inner self. Physical wounds can heal, but it's those PSYCHOLOGICAL which CAN'T. That's why when i'm irritated or flare up, i look scary, IT'S MY PAIN U FEEL. even so, i tried hard, to keep things to myself. The reason that i'm MAY be more matture that other people of my age is because that i can UNDERSTAND wad u're going through. And i can contain my emotions better.
I guess time doesn't heal all wounds. i simply hate my family.
posted at 11:00 PM
fine fine...
Friday, September 22, 2006
So jasmine told me to post abt my stupid crush. cuz she's chasing me away so that she can do other things. HOW BAD can this guinea pig get?! And that VIVIAN ANG.
I'm truely amazed by her bravery and stupidity of keep asking me who's my crush. Non-stop. Oh man... She really knows how to pester people for answer.... I wonder how he managed to subdue her.... Dude, he really made me looked up to him after my conversation with her.
She juz kept saying, tell me eh. I guess curiosity will kill one's sanity. Sigh, i really dun have much to sae abt my crush except my that LOOOONG explanation which i would summarise that day when i'm writing it. So much so that it's simple and easy to understand even for the stupid.
I guess i'll sae after exams or wadso eva. lol. Cuz now really lazy to talk abt my so called "Crush"
Wells, i guess i really can do it if i put in effort... My studies i mean... I guess i'll juz have to put in more effort for chinese... I've kinda scored better in maths. Now wad's left for me... To chiong finish the upper 3/4 of the year. All subjects.
Study, memorise, den prepare for EOY exams. I know i can do it. I guess i shldn't put so much hope in myself anyways. But i guess no one in the class will expect me to score well anyways. nvm, I'LL PROVE EVERYONE WRONG.
I MUST TRY.
Alot of will power in it eh? Sigh, i guess i wouldn't be THAT ego in class. Got to wait for after exams. Den i'll show u all my true colours. MUAHAHAHAHA. Anyways... I've found another song which could fit in ABIT of my feelings towards the person. Too lazy find now. Show u all on the nxt post. hahas.
Well, i guess i'm gonna redesign the class blog's skin. I'll try to make the best and the highest amt of tech that i can put in. KAMPATEI to myself. hahas.
posted at 7:53 PM
family communication
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Today's assembly talk.
FAMILY COMMUNICATION
what a ironic topic to talk abt.
They told us abt how to COMMUNICATE with our lovely PARENTS.
They said that u shld ALWAYS talk to your parents and don't SHOUT at them. Yea, sounds logical. But in my situation. I guess it's a different story. please read and think.
M = mum
K= me.
M: Go and bathe now.
K: later la, i now very tired, let me slp awhile first.
M: so smelly, the bed oso stink ah. GO BATHE.
K: later la later la, really too tired liao.
M: dun care, u muz go bathe. or else very smelly
K: i also nv pespire alot, juz let me sleep can anot?!
M: why u raise ur voice at me? i'm not shouting at you
K: juz let me sleep lah~!
M: show some respect for me. dun shout. go bathe now.
K: LET ME SLEEP LA! GO AWAY~
Now u understand? It's so hard~ So hard to communicate with her. As in. She tries, REALLY ALOT to communicate with me. But i guess her way of communication is to ignore wad the other persons says. And concentrate on wad she's wanting to tell u rather den wad u're gonna tell her. lol.
Example.
M: what u want to eat? i buy for you
K: aiya anything la.... hmmm, chicken chop!
M: so oily, so heaty, dun want la~
K: kkk, den chicken rice den
M: keep on chicken rice chicken rice, dun wan la. choose smth that is... healthier.
K: chicken rice
M: Eat fishball noodles la, got soup better.
K: juz buy wad i want la.
M: set, fishball noodles.
=.=lll uh...... how should i put this................ hmmm.... i dun lyk it. =X
And den there's my father. Who always is the mr nice guy.
But he always lyk. Grumble at me because my mum grumble at him? Den i will lyk.... =.=llll wad has this got to do with me... Aiya, den always sae "ALL BECUZ OF U" wth. -.-lll Why can't adults juz solve their own problems. I'm juz a teenager who has yet been in contact with the world. OH man. And he said to tell out our problems, FAMILY problems to other people. U can trust, but it aint' that easy saying it out ain't it?
If not we wouldn't be bothered by such nonsensical thoughts. lol. Anyways, throughout the whole thing is boring, but i manage to listen finish it without sleeping. I consider that as a great acheivement.
Well the greatest news that we MAY BE able to wear sports shoes to sch nxt year if our conduct remains gd!
posted at 4:30 PM
aiya, nid to explain.
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
what trouble. WHAT TROUBLESOME has this thing became. Seems lyk smth which i dun want to be troulesome turned out to be sooooooo freakkish troublesome after all.
Actually it IS crush. How to explain, u lyk that person right. Den i very lazy to type out the full reason. so summarise to the word crush. SINCE THERE'S A WORD that can summarise everything to almost the same thing except for some misconception which SOME may have occured.
Aiyeer. It's such a long story. I think i'll explain it when i announce la aiya. So long so long. I explained to someone le. So dun ask me anymore. I dun wan repeat myself to many times.
Juz wait, den read my blog. lol.
Today played soccer. Kana cramp. Sads. So anyways, i dunno why i always injured. It seems that i'm healing and being injured at the same rate.
Hmm, my posts are getting shorter. Alot shorter., GD for u right? no idea. lol. Anyways, i think i have to resume my usualy life. Though it's already very usual. Sigh, i guess i'll retreat now in class. I think i'll leave all the crap job to qin hui le. So bored. No one to talk to. Talk to qin will die de. Suddenly crap lyk siao, suddenly do his hw.
Have to concentrate. I want to prove to myself that i can do it if i try. I know i can.... i hope i can.
posted at 8:17 PM
sumemasen
Sunday, September 17, 2006
SUMEMASEN. (sry)
Goumei na sai. (i'm sry)
lol. After some thinking. And talking to shannen ytd. I think i shld conclude tis thing.
Well, i guess it isn't that much of a crush based on wad i feel. I think that i feel that she's juz a person who shld be better den a gd / best friend. yet not a crush.
Understand? Cuz it's inbetween, so i kinda got it mixed up. SO PLEASE. dun ask me anymore.
posted at 8:39 PM
heys, chester, matthew, stop "spamming" my blog with ur "comments" liao le la. lol.Anyways, it's normal for u to think that i'm a noob. Mayb i shld join adriel and chiong up front instead.
Anyways.
BGR topic ENDS HERE.
suan le, shouldn't talk abt it anymore. My blog is seriously getting spammed. lol.
So... I guess i'll end this topic by. I agree with wad u all have said in the class blog.
Hahas, anymore will cause unnessasary attention. lol.
so the nxt post will concern nth but my.... wadeva crap i may post. lol.
Till den cya
posted at 2:13 PM
it seems so.
Saturday, September 16, 2006
hmm. It seems that my table tennis seniors think that im not gd in soccer.
OH WELLS. It's juz too troublesome to run. Since u all like to run so much, let u run la. lol. Come on la, matthew, MAYB the only thing u can win is rammin cuz u're older, but dribbling? I have doubts.
Anyways. Had a talk with Mr Tay (dichotomus key) last night. Or rather, this morning, 1.30am.
We talked abt BGR on MSN. How cool. He told me abt his sec sch experience. And den, he said that he'll stay up at night to make little things for his Gf. HOW SWEET RITE?! omg.
Den after some discussion. Hahas, he thinks that i'm doing the right thing by not telling. hahas. And he doesn't go against steading. How cool. He even encouraged me to tell her at the starting. But after explaining, he thought otherwise. hahas. Tis is wad that made him change his mind.
"i not scared fail. Fail fail la, still friends mah. suceed den troublesome le"
Den he said " oh, den that's a diff story"
hahas. Well, wad he said make sense. hahas. He said " dun tell without knowing wad to do nxt"
aiya, dun feeel lyk typing CYAS
posted at 1:20 PM
part 3
Friday, September 15, 2006
i'm suprised at how u can find my blog. lol. wad a SACARSTIC remark u made. chester. =.=lll
anyways. thank god the situation died down alittle. Sigh. I dun understand why my classmates continue guessing even if i keep shut all along. No wonder they score so high, GREAT CURIOSITY. Hmm... If people ask me wad does having a crush felt lyk. I guess this song could explain it...
It's juz... alittle exaggerating. lol.
Title: Falling For You
Semester's coming soon
So I would like to mention
I work up in my room
Alone -
You're always welcome
Next week my mums away
So now my future's bright and
I'd ask to have you stay If I wasn't so frightened
I - I'm really falling for you
I hate what you're putting me through
What have you done to me now
I just can't sleep at night
My bed is wet
Don't know how
Will someone please turn out the light
You showed up at my door
Just like in a teen movie
I said you are the wh*re
I paid to come and f*** me
I guess she found it funny
When I said hello honey
The piercing in her belly It turned my legs to jelly
I-I'm really falling for you
I hate what you're puting me through
What have you done to me now
I just can't sleep at night
My bed is wet
Don't know how
Will someone please turn out the light
Taking no ruined my life
But I don't seem to mind
And there's no stopping you
Taking me on a ride
I-I'm really falling for you
I hate what you're putting me through
What have you done to me now
I just can't sleep at night
My bed is wet
Don't know how
Will someone please turn on the light
Will someone please turn on the light
I-I'm really falling for you
I hate what you're putting me through
What have you done to me now
I just can't sleep at night
My bed is wet
Don't know how
Will someone please turn on the light
Hahaz. I've put up tis song below my tagboard. Press play to listen... It's nice. My friend told me that, if u think it's too troublesome to tell the person that u lyk her. Den it's not called genuine love. I shall roughly type out wad's our conversasion. Identity is confidential. I shall put him as X. and me as K
K: But there's no meaning to start smth if u already know the ending. When u do maths, u dunno u will get wrong anot, u do ur exam u won't know how much u'll get, tat's why u do it. But since u already know the ending. Why start?
X: But u won't know if u try rite? U can lyk. stop it from breaking up, it's ur own choice. It's not DEFINATELY that u'll break up de right?
K: sure break de mah. U think la. Den u get stead now planning to marry her ah?
X: mayb?
K dots.....
there's one part la. Too long to record le. But wad i said made sense rite? And now Kar Wing think it's teri, at 1st hink is jas. wth. lol..
Anyways, thx to jas for lending me to copy her HW. lol. And lending to... the rest. XD. I appreciate ur kindness, EVEN THOUGH u didn't really get it correct due to the lack of understanding to the question. lols. Read properly nxt timte LAH~
And pam, if u eva read tis ah. When i'm doing my work, den i tell u alot of times dun ji xiao me liao right. Don't do it anymore. Now u understand ah? I think i told quite alot of people that when i angry very scary. And that i dun lyk people irritating me when i told them not to... Well, i think pam fully understood wad it meant.
posted at 2:55 PM
huge reaction.
Thursday, September 14, 2006
wth. Wad the hell is that reaction i got from that post?
How big izzit?
Hmm, i think i'll reply all the tags here. Too many. lol.
Zoey: Interesting? Mayb bah. But really troublesome la, BGR. lol.
Claudia: wth? i suck for wad?
Jas: Got crush and got stead DIFF DE KAES? haha. it's normal to have crush de mah. but BGR ah. i guess ltr.
KW: Uh, i'm brave mahx~ Juz that having a crush is enuf. hahas. anything else is too troublesome.
Greena: actually, she isn't THAT MUCH of a chio bah. I like her smile. =D
Yunxin: u dunnid to know la. Won't be da sao de. U can wait another 2 years. lol
INTERESTINGLY, my seniors know abt this issue. obviously someone has been to my blog. How honoured can i be? It's lyk. a BOOM news. =.-lll
And AIYA, dun bother asking me la. Cuz it's gd enuf i posted it here. At least u people out there know smth abt me. alamak. Actually i wanna be straight forward de. But u see. hmm.
DUN SAE I BOASTING WADEVA CRAP. TOO FULL OF MYSELF OR SMTH LYK THAT.
I think i MORE scared of being accepted. lol. reject k la suan le lor. but ah. If accept, things will get troublesome. Well, there IS a chance. Unless there isn't any chance of me being accepted den i'll sae. But since i have no chance, i won't even bother to sae anyways. LOL. So the moral of the story is. If i decide not to sae anything. Dun bother asking me.
Anyways, i expected this. I EXPECTED IT. dumb thing. It juz happens and u can't do anything abt it. Crap, i became a gossip topic. But. I guess it'll die down in .... the MOST 3days bah. hehe, people get sick of things easily. OH YEA. sry type wrongly juz now. too lazy go change it. I think is there's no chance of me being accepted. So i won't bother telling that person anyways. XD.
Haiz. And wtf la. PAMELA. Dun keep tooting and pinching me eh. If not i use force i scared u injured ah. relax. tone down. u're not gonna die, why rush?
posted at 8:17 PM
super freakkishly.
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
no one seems to reply my question. Anyways, each time i have a question. i'll post it as a post.
AND REMEMBER.
ANSWER IT IN THE COMMENTS SECTION. I DUN WANT TO GET MY TAGBOARD FLOODED
UNDERSTOOD?
Great. I think i'm startin to get back my interest in blogging now. Esp. when i can RANT AND CHANT all i want. I just realised that tis is MY blog after all. =D.
I suddenly realised that wad i've done so far is meaningless. Tryin to attract traffic... all that. But then again, really thanks to those who visits my blog.
LURVE YA ALL. too emo. LOL. Oh wells.
Since it's my blog. And it's public. no harm telling some secrets ah? XD. Well, i got a crush again. OH WELLS. But i doubt i will do anything abt it anyways. I dunno why lor. I guess that's why they're call feelings rather den emotions.
XD. BUT AH. No point askin me who la. Dun wanna make big tis matter. What that is supposed to be kept a secret is better left as a secret right? Hehe. Doubt that she'll lyk me anyways. XD.
Oh wells... But den again. It's really irritating in fact to have a crush. u noe? Esp. when u nth to do will think of that person. -.=lll Can't get it outta my mind. LOL. Guess my solution to tis is slp. Well, i guess it won't distract my studies. Well, partly self-control lor. The other point is.
I DUN STUDY. XD
posted at 9:20 PM
so slpy~
Monday, September 11, 2006
ah huh? I'm too emo for a guy??? LOLS.
Tell u ah, that previous post ain't what i feel abt myself, it's wad i think and hope that such redundant feelings won't be there anymore la. Cuz it'll be alot easier to communicate mah. rite?
Hahas, and u noe y my post emo anot? Attract people mah. If i type my daily life in, alittle bit of funny things. Would that be interesting? No rite? lols.
Crap seh. After CCA so worned out. Reached home at abt 6.50. Lie on the bed.... Can;t help it. Fell aslp. Woke up at 9pm. wth. Crap. Sian, so late le, too lazy go eat dinner. -.=
Anyways, is my blog lagging your computers? I need to know ASAP. So i can try to resolve the problem, though i'm not sure how since my com isn't affected by my blog at all. =p
And is MSN encountering a problem? I can't sign in at all... wth. Crapz. I think if i got time during the hols. RMB. HOLIDAYS. I'll put up a photo blog. Cuz missing too many photos on my posts le. lols. It's words n words n words. And thx to those loyal visitors. =D tt's all
posted at 9:55 PM
pam's BBQ
Saturday, September 09, 2006
Went to pam's hse for BBQ today. OMG, wasn't it fun. =.=lll (it wasn't, at least not THAT fun) Well, she live in condo la, den ltr we went down to the MINI playground. Den got the... Merri-go-round. I spin Debra, Ming Li, Deon, Teri, Qin, YQ lyk SIAO. Wells, Debra and Mingli obviously went giddy from that spin. Uh huh, den there's tis nice swimming pool beside. With some trees around.... And at the side of the pool got the drain and a VERY TINY pavement. So we walk along there and moved to a..... Square area which contains a small grasspatch and a tree. So we sat by the side of it... Den when we walking back. Pam went down the pool. There's a long step la. Den she told us that it's not deep. So Teri tried and went down to walk... She walked a few steps. den PLOOSH~
I illustrated the swimming pool. The Legends are below.

Brown - Tiny pavement
White - Walls
Dark Blue - Steps.
Blue - Water
Light blue - house
Green - Grass/Tree
Understand? 2 of them fell there. XD. Fantastic sia.XD. The funny thing abt Teri's fall is. She fell while saying "tis isn't deep lah~" Den she misfoot and BISH~ LOLS~
Wells, after is the BBQ. Kinda boring. Shall not elaborate abt it. And....
After that, abt 8.45 went home with teri, qy, deon, qin and mingli... Debra's mum came to fetch her. Anyways. After that i very quiet rite? Suddenly lyk nv talk.
Sigh, it isn't mood swing, sad or wadeva shyt la. There's juz one reason.
I don't see the POINT in talkin then.
I'm startin to see things rationally nowadays... And in the bus while going to tanah merah MRT station. I thinked alot. And realised somethings. And kinda fully realised the reason of why we can't tell other people of what we think, how we feel, why we do things that way.
Though we all know, you may find it stupid, nonsensical, common sense. But how many people have tried sayin these weaknesses that we all face?
I think we're juz afraid of the difference of thoughts. The critism that others may give. We're afraid of rejection. We want to be in a group. We don't want to stand out in a bad way. Also, it's the lack of trust inbetween us. I guess the thing that prevents us from saying out our feelings and thoughts are critism and trust.
Sigh, i guess we're too vunerable to psychological atks. Yet bottling up is ur overflowing thoughts may seem the most painful thing that u can endure. Especially when other's have a wrong opinion of u. U want to change it, yet it seems so futile. It's tough even telling. You know that they'll understand, but the change of attitude is the thing we're scared too. Esp when it turns out too well. And u'll turn out to be the "special" one in the group. As in... U get wad i mean rite?
I really hope it'll come to a day where we cant freely express our thoughts and feelings.
posted at 10:59 PM
160th
Thursday, September 07, 2006
This is my 160th post. 40 more to 200.
Hmm, let's see. Didn't update ytd. Too tired and no mood.
Now got mood le.
Okaes, ytd went to sheng yong's hse. And guess wad? My Ipod suddenly show the sign "CHARGING" Den i was lyk OO? wth? No plug in at all. Of cuz in actual fact it isn't charging. But it said. CHARGING! Cool rite~. hahas, i think malfunction. BUT. I can play and insert songs lyk normal. It's juz.... "charging".
Wells, too lazy to elaborate abt the part of sheng yong. TOO TROUBLESOME.
And i got a new philosophy for myself now... The word i follow is. "troublesome".
Everything is too troublesome to do. XD. Wells. Eliz told me abt a band called. "Cradle of Filth"
And she told me that their songs are SATANIC. I agree. Wth are they singing? I don't know. I only know it's smth lyk .... insane rock. But it's cool the way they sing. I'm sure the lead singer always got sore throat. Wonder how much throat medicine he takes....
Well. That's the interesting update till now. Cyas. And oh yea. Sry ah teri. Nowadays FORGET go ur blog. XD.
posted at 1:49 PM
qin's birthday party
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
totay, a stupid start. With a stupid ending.
woke up, prepared for going to sch and qin's hse. Prepared everything. left the hse, reached tamp mrt station. Turned around and met deon. A thought suddenly dawned on me. I brought everything. EXCEPT my table tennis BAT. wth? so have to pon. no choice...
Well, so i ahve to drag my stupid bag around with my clothes and shoes. So saddistic. Wells, had QUITE ABIT of fun in qin's hse throwing a ball around.
Deon has a grudge against jas. He kept throwing the ball at her. It's okay la, but ending he get very HIONG, den throw very hard. At her and everyone else. Sianz, den y i so suay ley? They tickle pam and jas oso nv kana. I tio tickled lyk SIAO. Sad ritez. Heard that jas will jump if people poke her, but nv see her jump... SO SAD!!!
Wells, i shall not kill u with the boring parts. Anyways, we decided to go to century square. Played arcade, watched movie. (no point elaboratin since it's not interesting). Aiya, alot more happened. too lazy go elaborate again lol. Im on the verge of dieing. Please forgive tis dying man and hop on to my tagboard. After that, u're free to leave. I shall free u from my chains of boredom.
posted at 8:54 PM
oh. qh's present
Monday, September 04, 2006
Went out to buy qin's present today.
Reached tanah merah station JUST in time. Den i looked around. didn't see anyone. I felt bored and looked down. I realised that jas is juz infront of me. Oo. XD. wells, after that. in the nxt 30secs. I saw a small figure running towards us. With a cap on. OH~
It's pam. jas said that she can't recognise her. Den ltr pam said that'a all. 3 of us. Den i was lyk WTF?! How come from abt 8 lyk that become 3?? den lyk uh....
Crap, in the end, we reached orchard anyways. I really really really have no interest in shopping. I think jas also bah. Suprise suprise. I tot all girls are shopping freaks. XD. I was dragged around lyk a rotting corpse. Pathetic rite?! Den look at clothes. I look really moody. well, same thing. I show NO expression when i'm sian or bored. totally no. I guess that's my usual expression. NO EXPRESSION.
Den pam is lyk sp pissed with me and jas walking around lyk dead people. Wells. After that we decided to call the birthday boy to come and shop himself since we really have no idea wad to buy for him. Well, i have NO SENSE OF FASHION. So dun bother asking me anything abt clothes pants or shoes.
Oh wells. After wad seems lyk eternity, we finally bought 3 shirts for him. Total $48. oh wells.
After that, they went to my hse watch BLEACH. (SHANNEN! jealous ah? AH? XD) wells, den jas is complaing how cold it is. And pam is complainin how hot it is. (i oned the air con) Den qin sat there. STARING at the computer screen as if there is p**n. Den OMG.
everyone from 1C. U shld try putting ur.... sole on jas's sole. As in. "stick" them together. WTF lahs. Her sole is lyk SOOO ticklish lor! Me pam and qin all tried le. Awhile we tio tickled there until cannot take it liaos. Nxt time u all got chance also muz try.
Wells, i'm talkin to deon now. And he asked me abt my opinion of how he looks lyk.
D = deon
K = me
D: tell me how i look like
K: well... u're more to..... the side of cute bah.
D: dun tell me that i'm ugly =D
K: yea. ok. lols.
K: i think u're cute becuz....
K: u have a chubby face and an idiotic expression.
K: LOL!!!!
Omg, it's damn funny at the time i tot of it can?! Think of his idiotic expression. U'll loled out straight away. But jk anyways. lols. Ok, that's all.... i got time put up the RSAF photo
posted at 8:35 PM
RSAF OPEN HOUSE.
Sunday, September 03, 2006
Woots.! Went to RSAF OPEN HOUSE today... (REPUBLIC OF SINGAPORE AIR FORCE)
It was fun. I guss. Yeap. I took some static shots which were nice and clear.
Well. I'll post them in the nxt post.
sry ah. too lazy put up lols.
Oh wow. I think the best part is STILL the aerial display. Wow, the F-16D+ sheer brute power. I witnessed it. Cool seh~. It went from 200+KM/H and did a cool muscle climb.
OMG. Wad a vertical climb. wth. it was lyk.... steady... steady... den BOOM!!! Such powerful engines. It seriously roars louder den anything i've heard so far. But i kinda hate the F-5s engine. seriously, the engine is woa. How many tones of air pressure? So cool~. hehe
posted at 10:49 PM
drunk.
Saturday, September 02, 2006
Had table tennis tonight again.
This time. something happened. AGAIN. Wells, after everything. Well, we packed up. Den i saw my father slping on the.... stone chair. den i was DIAO. =.- I go wake him up. After 5 times. He went back to slp.
Oh wells. After keeping everything. I merely sat down there and waited for him to wake up while i sms jas. Den suddenly he told me that he was KINDA drunk juz after drinkin 3 cups of... who noes wad. Aiya, can tell that he can't hold his liqior well. Oh wells. Den after that he went back to slp.
I waited. and waited.Den i so sian i asked jas to call me. So we chatted for 2mins. When my father's friend called him to wake him up. (one of the uncles who played table tennis earlier on) so FINALLY, i can go home to type this post. Den he was lyk. "WAIT! dun walk so fast." Den suddenly, he put his hand on my shoulder and walked.
lols. this is the first time EVER i saw my father drunk. I was so suprised can~ So my talk with jas lasted for... 4mins b4 she said. "i very tired. wanna slp le." LOL. Wells.
XD. And pam smsed me... i think 3 times b4 telling me that her inbox is filled with willie's msgs. Den i will tell her that my inbox is full of jas's msgs here. But i keep forgettin to tell her on SMS. Oh wells. I so happy u noe? Now jas kana influenced by me becoming more and more crappy le! Yays~
Argh. I love drums! I love drums! I juz lyk drumming with my fingers. HOW GREAT. If i had a drumset~ OH WELLS. I keep that ddream for .... my future i guess.
posted at 11:51 PM
wth. Tonite, i met another sad person...This case is really tough. So i dun really dare tp counsel him.
I think he's under alot alot of stress. And he failed his maths recently.
He's scared of going back home. He's wandering downstairs... He dun want his father to find him... He felt lyk running away from home.
That's the problem.... He's lyk so moody all the time. It's hard understanding him. He felt lyk running away from home. REALLY thought abt it. And he tried to hide from his father when he looked for him. Another reason y he wanna run away from home. He thinks that his father doesn't care abt him. His father rarely talks to him. So he thinks that he's worthless to his father....
You see? It's really hard to tell him anything. Other then tellin him to go home, relax and not think abt it. but u noe? this type of words. usually doesnt means anything at all to that person's state of mind. Why do i keep encountering sad people? ARGH. This sucks.
posted at 1:48 AM
guiness kai hong record.
Friday, September 01, 2006
GUINESS KAI HONG RECORDS.
Longest talking time: SHANNEN HO.
Latest talking time: JASMINE SEAH.
oO. Jas juz broke zoey's record. wth? I didnt know that she could do that. Latest talking time = 3.30am. Compared to xin ni nth la. But WOA. I really didn't expect her to tahan so long.
Talk alot of kok to her. lol! Den she sae she tmr. Which is this morning nid to wake up at... 7.30. Den i was lyk O.O u dun nid to slp meh? And she said that it's okay. OMG! Woa, if i can be lyk her ah, surely won't slp in class anymore. lol.
Den this morning i 8 lyk that wake up. Den watch naruto until 9.30. Cannot tahan liao. slp all the way until 4.30. STUPID nicholas call me. or else i may slp till 7. LOL. Den started my SMS craze. Followed by soocer. Den now reach home start posting lor.
Sigh, can anyone tell me the defination of flirt? I dun understand it one bit. Cuz wad izzit after all. People use it so commonly, but it seems to be that they're juz jealous of that person. I dun understand. lol. lyk qin and yan keep callin each other flirt. diaoz.
lol. May post again tonite
posted at 6:42 PM