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hey.

Another point to bring up.
Well, to friends and teachers(who won't see this).

But first. I'm really pissed with something that happened today. My eng teacher just DON'T HAVE THAT F***ING LITTLE TRUST IN ME.
She insisted that i go for Eng remedial
BUT HEY!
She said, those who got C6 AND BELOW needs to go. Did i? DID I F***ING get a C6 or anything lower? NO. Hence, she CALLED my house, and she's probably gonna give me a green form or something like that. Well, come on. I have my reasons.
Just blame it that ACP doesn't update our mid-year score. SO HOW CAN I PROVE IT TO HER? HOW?

you think u funny ah. HAH?

Now the thing. Applies to my family but i guess they won't read it. It's not like i don't have a reason, it's not like i like giving excuses. But i hate explaining myself. Well, for friends, well, if u think what i said is an excuse, then so be it.
At least let me state her that, i'm just trying to state the mistake i've made, and the fact that i've made the mistake, and through verbal reminding, i'll try not to commit the same mistake. Well, i don't mind if you take it as an excuse, but well, it does gets alittle irritating.

Guess life's getting more stressed nowadays. Both family and school.

Besides, one major why i'm kinda stressed is that well, basically, no one believes much in what i say.
For example, i'm tired everyday. Got headache very very often.

hey, people just take it as an excuse to sleep in class. Or i play computer games everyday and stay up very late doing some stupid stuffs. Headache, i don't even think my friends will actually believe it. The teachers half-believe, half-don't.

Even though i'm not sure what exactly the reason is, i vaguely know what caused it. These are stuffs that is too troublesome/difficult to say out, and it's personal, somehow i ain't exactly allowed to say it.
When you got injured, you'll heal. The pain will go away. Or will it not? I have no idea why i am so troubled by the past. Seems like throwing away the past is harder than it seems. To my parents, it seems that i'm immature, i don't understand anything, hence, i won't feel anything.

Please.

You always scold me for not communicating, scold me for not doing my things, scold me for not telling you what i think, scold me for being dirty, scold me for not eating my meals.
Finally, there is that one day where i shared all my thoughts with you. I thought, being who you are, you would understand. However, most disappointingly, most saddening, you merely cast my feelings and thoughts away as childish immature thinkings. And that it certainly hold no value.

So i'm back to square one. Nothing changed in the end. Why can't you just believe in what i say?? Why can't you just put ALITTLE BIT MORE though into what i've said? And is it THAT difficult to shut your mouth for one day? Is it THAT difficult to remember what i tell you everyday?

Yawns. I'm tired.