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okay. I lyk very lag lyk that.
But.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

haix... i reply all the tags here first.

xinni: LOLS. yea, after all these years. wakakaka~
sha: merry xmas!!! nth for me to love about.
sean: happy x year! merry new mas. =.=
mad: -.-? ok nvm. merry christmas!
xinni: ok... u think so? me too. =] LOL
jas: oic. i'll do that ASAP. cuz i really really don't have the time to do blogskinning. merry x'mas~! oh relax, cheer up. know that at least this guy's christmas is surely going to be more lonely den urs.
zoey: merry x'mas! oh, too used to calling ur full name HAHAS.
greena: merry x'mas~!
siow may: eeeee, last time sae until so nice. hoax sia! LOL. jk. it's okay, i'll feel bad if u brought any presents. hahas.


anyways. sry ah everyone! didn't post ytd, cuz didn't have the chance to post. i'm now posting past mid-night again. okaes. Anyways... I oso have nth much to sae. today (referring to 25th dec), i went to city harvest church in expo.

Well, i lyked the drama. It was nice. But den again. I hope i'm not offending any christians. But i dun really care. I juz feel that, after the wadeva "service", all those words of... "holiness" is some kind of crap. Which can be further defined into common sense + nonsense. Really, not joking. Mayb i'm too scientific. Mayb i'm juz limiting myself into disbelieving smth which could actually be true.

But, den again. After a few encounters, i've realised that it's useless talking abt such stuffs. Since it's what that person really believe from the bottom of it's heart. There's no point trying to shake that believe away. Juz lyk my believe for science. hahas. anyways........ since christmas is over. I'll tok abt some emo and crap stuff again.

you're not forced to read or agree.
i repeat.
you're not forced to read or agree.

cuz one day when i was in jas blog. juz lookin around. i saw the bar at the bottom (sry, i wasn't really focusin on ur main content LOL). Den it read smth kinda. -.- sad. well she changed it anyways. but if i'm not wrong. it said smth lyk...
"if everyone else doesn't care, why should i even care? smiles..i wanna live happily 4eva..can i??"

ok, this is gonna be long. juz take it that i'm bored if u're reading this.

Wells, if EVERYONE ELSE REALLY didn't care... yea, i guess u're right. You don't have the need to care. But there is ALWAYS someone else who cares. Both non and scientifically. Be it care or love. There'll never be a day when there is none. It is just HOW MUCH of it others can give you.

I think i've told one of my friends before. It's all about humans. I've also said this before.
"it isn't LOVE which is the start of everything, it is the ambitious and conquerous heart which humans posseses which starts everything."
and that
"there is no such thing as a pure human being."

why so? If people gave u smth consistently. A thing which you will NEVER run out of. Smth which you have NEVER worked hard for. Smth that EVERYONE ELSE has. Is there a value in it? Nah~ What would be the "duh" response? "i want MORE". When smth captures our attention, our interest. What's our first INSTINCTIVE reaction before critical thinking skills come in? "i WANT this"

Isn't it so? If said scientifically. Care, concern, laughter, is nth more than a mere social skill. Of cuz, if someone really said that seriously out loud, it wouldn't be tolerated by others, would it? If it was treated lyk an object, rather den a feeling of emotion, it wouldn't be tolerated by others, wuold it? Even so. It is wad everyone has been doing. We always... ALWAYS expect something MORE from others. When you lyk another person, you don't usually think of, "i should pay more attention to her/him" but rather "i WISHED/WANT her/him to pay more attention to ME"

Self-centered isn't it? Of cuz, this whole society is runned by our self-centeredness. If one day the world's top class group of scientist came out and tell everyone what they've been doing, it'll cause total chaos wouldn't it? Even as i'm speaking. I feel that i've been selfish. Why am i? If you had been reading all along, ATTENTIVELY. Then you'll realise that you have certain doubts, disbelieve along the way. But i eventually cover it up with POSSIBLE "fabricated" tales, stories, lies. And probably some evidence. Which is COMMON SENSE... Now, READ AGAIN. And tell me what you think of what i've said so far?

It feels lyk i'm trying to cheat, trying to psycho all of you ain't i? Sry to sae. But religion works the same way.

To me. AT LEAST to me. I feel that there's no such thing as a SOLID TRUTH!!! Truth is defined by mankind. Truth is WHAT mankind CREATES. Truth, in this society, can only be compared to honesty. Isn't it? Think of how people have used truth up till now. I know that throughout the whole thing. Some parts feels kinda out of place, but that also shows how much confusion my mind is facing everyday.