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Went to pam's hse for BBQ today. OMG, wasn't it fun. =.=lll (it wasn't, at least not THAT fun) Well, she live in condo la, den ltr we went down to the MINI playground. Den got the... Merri-go-round. I spin Debra, Ming Li, Deon, Teri, Qin, YQ lyk SIAO. Wells, Debra and Mingli obviously went giddy from that spin. Uh huh, den there's tis nice swimming pool beside. With some trees around.... And at the side of the pool got the drain and a VERY TINY pavement. So we walk along there and moved to a..... Square area which contains a small grasspatch and a tree. So we sat by the side of it... Den when we walking back. Pam went down the pool. There's a long step la. Den she told us that it's not deep. So Teri tried and went down to walk... She walked a few steps. den PLOOSH~



I illustrated the swimming pool. The Legends are below.




Brown - Tiny pavement
White - Walls
Dark Blue - Steps.
Blue - Water
Light blue - house
Green - Grass/Tree


Understand? 2 of them fell there. XD. Fantastic sia.XD. The funny thing abt Teri's fall is. She fell while saying "tis isn't deep lah~" Den she misfoot and BISH~ LOLS~

Wells, after is the BBQ. Kinda boring. Shall not elaborate abt it. And....
After that, abt 8.45 went home with teri, qy, deon, qin and mingli... Debra's mum came to fetch her. Anyways. After that i very quiet rite? Suddenly lyk nv talk.

Sigh, it isn't mood swing, sad or wadeva shyt la. There's juz one reason.
I don't see the POINT in talkin then.

I'm startin to see things rationally nowadays... And in the bus while going to tanah merah MRT station. I thinked alot. And realised somethings. And kinda fully realised the reason of why we can't tell other people of what we think, how we feel, why we do things that way.

Though we all know, you may find it stupid, nonsensical, common sense. But how many people have tried sayin these weaknesses that we all face?

I think we're juz afraid of the difference of thoughts. The critism that others may give. We're afraid of rejection. We want to be in a group. We don't want to stand out in a bad way. Also, it's the lack of trust inbetween us. I guess the thing that prevents us from saying out our feelings and thoughts are critism and trust.

Sigh, i guess we're too vunerable to psychological atks. Yet bottling up is ur overflowing thoughts may seem the most painful thing that u can endure. Especially when other's have a wrong opinion of u. U want to change it, yet it seems so futile. It's tough even telling. You know that they'll understand, but the change of attitude is the thing we're scared too. Esp when it turns out too well. And u'll turn out to be the "special" one in the group. As in... U get wad i mean rite?

I really hope it'll come to a day where we cant freely express our thoughts and feelings.